My legs tremble underneath me,
My chest tightens,
The voices shout louder.
My vision depletes,
And my hands start shaking.
I am becoming unsteady,
With myself.

Looking through the eyes,
Of the unknown body,
Known as me.
Desperate for a way out,
But I can not escape,
Myself.

And there I was
Standing in the shower
Mesmerized
By the elegance
Of the stream of blood
As it joined the water

I engulf my body in the warm water,
Listening carefully to the beating of my heart,
Filling my ears.
Being careful not to corrupt the liquid surrounding me,
Trying to remind myself I am alive.

I want to feel this way because,
I don’t know what other way there is to feel.

I will never give up.
Until I am only bone.

I felt your finger escape my hand.
Your love, leaking from my heart.
I’m trying to hard to patch it up before it empties.
Your eyes facing the ground,
While mine begin to cry.
I drop to my knees.
Bitter with pain.
Please don’t leave me.