Look in my eyes.
So you see the tears I've cried?
Can you count all my thoughts of hate?
I am not an easy casual date.
Do you think being with me is our fate?
I think it's too little too late.
Do want to be my mate?
My dreams aren't always mean.
what they seem.
peaches and cream.
Leeches in a stream.
The stars in the night don't move.
Am I who you choose?
Who wants to make the first move?
You never want to leave where you are.
You want to keep me on the shelf in a jar.
You like the fragrance of my perfume.
In your bedroom you want *** with me real soon.
Prepare to meet your doom.
Is it possible to be unstoppable?
Do you want to be my enemy?
Or friend of me?
Strike one you are a ***.
Strike two you don't walk in my shoes.
Strike three my dreams you cannot see.
Strike four you shut the door.
Strike 5 you don't make me feel alive.
Strike six you are out of my mix.
Strike 7 this is hell not heaven.
Strike eight I was just your bait.
Strike nine I don't feel fine.
Strike ten you don't have your own den.
Strike 11 you act like a 7.
Game over.
What did my true love give me on the 12 day of Christmas?
How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll pop?
If I Follow the yellow brick road.
Will I get to Emerald City?
Is it delivery?
Maybe she's born with it.
What will The Wizard of Oz give me a heart?
A brain?
A life?
Take me home if I click my heels 3 times or twice?
Or that's just what the good witch will tell me.
I'm not in Kansas.
My name is Harmony
No tornadoes.
No scarecrow.

I was born into this strange unknown world.
It remains a blur.
A fog not even a memory faded.
Who will I be?
What will I do?
Who has the answers?
Where will I go?
Who will know me?
Who will love me?
Who will fear me?
Who will mock me?
Who will **** me?
Who will **** me?
Who will steal from me?
Who will lie to me?
Who will hurt me?
Who will desert me?
Who will con & deceive?
Who will save me?
Who will befriend me?
Who will trust me?
Who will count on me?
Who will stop me?
Who will protect me?
Who will ***** me?
Who will help me?
Who will want me?
Who would die for me?
Who will I die for?
What is my destiny?
Will my dreams die or come true?
Will my nightmares haunt me forever?
Will I ever forgive?
Can I ever forget?
Time can't change the past.
My hatred continues to last.
What is my destiny for the rest of me?
In the least I will never have peace.
Should I put my age on this page?
Soon the night will bring the moon.
I will awaken at noon.
You care enough to stare.
You walked up to me to talk to me.
the hour grew sour.
You drove away far in your car.
I made a wish on the first star.
Should I go to Dublin and go into a bar?
Who wants to go?
Will you stay there in the snow?
Because it's only your family you want to know.
I want you near.
But I don't want to be here.
You might wonder why
but sometimes I want to die,
that might make us sad and cry,
But do you really want to be my committed guy?
Without having too much to try.
Or would you rather say goodbye?

The ground was hollow.
The sky dark.
The night cold and quiet.
Sprinkling rain, dark clouds.
He walked beside her with an umbrella.
In silence she tip toed through the grass.
A black cat jumped the fence.
She shrieked wide-eyed with a blank stare.
Cold hands and wet hair.
The journey was brief.
I see you....damage control, picture perfect.

There is no senseful way to destroy a life.
To do it is senseless, ignorant, hateful and selfish.
Whether or not it is human or any other species.
Chicken,cow, pig, camel, turkey etc.
To dismember and sever it's parts piece-by-piece is cruel.
Dead or Alive, disrespectful, sick, wrong & unjust.
No political laws for it would never make it right or accepted.
That should protect their well-being lives & how they're treated.
Living creatures are all holy vessels in my eyes.
Their souls are priceless.
Their lives are not worthless as a society believes.
Each one deserves a full and happy life.
The cow & pigs tongue should not be severed and sold in grocery store meat departments.
Their bodies should stop being butchered for carnivore consumption.
Society is ignorant, greedy and two complant.
Just as sheep, all followers no leaders.
Butchers, poachers, & meat eaters should all be treated as a defenseless animal that is tortured and killed in the same exact way to justify their deaths.
With the deaths of their killers.
Endangered species are bred for slaughter
the animals should all be considered holy and valuable, priceless, pure, innocent, & defenseless.
Death ends life.
Life is a gift deserved by every being born in this world or any other.

I drink my coffee with 7 sugar cubes.
I have videos on you tube.
One for each of the seven deadly sins.
I always lose & never win.
After a job interview they just show me the door.
True love & a career is too much to ask for.
From the universe.
****** this fckng curse.
In room 13.
I watch channel 13.
On volume 13.
I was ***** for 3 years at age 13.
At one job in 2009 my shift the place got robbed.
I never had the same relationship or job.
Last more than 3 years.
I have some phobas & fears.
The 13th CD.
I never become you I want to be.
On track 13.
Sometimes people are mean.
Both odd numbers.
Struck out again...******.
Three & thirteen.
I was look my best & daily wash & clean.
In this hell hole have been stuck.
It's like bad luck.
I am perfectly sane not at all in any way deranged.
Exactly 13 dollars with zero change.

Today was the day I most hated.
My stress inflated.
My *** life degraded.
For marriage still I waited
Get hired for work is tainted.

Misconceptions of infatuations.
Assumptions, contradictions, & afflictions.
Situations ignite & dissolve.
Worlds collide and revolve.
Lifes rebirth is unearthed.
A marvel concept.
In tune and indepth.
Filtering the info you hide.
Only sharing what you confide.

Sunsets captivate the landscape.
Waterfalls splash with echoed noise.
Birds fill the skies before the rain falls.

Electric socket.
Life insurance pay out in your pocket.
Primary benefactor.

"Sometimes your worst self is your best self
The moonlight divides the shadows.
The essence of a black rose.
Butterflies flutter by through the air.
Unaware they are there without a care.
I grab thee adorable like a snuggle bear.
Not to get a job in this city is unfair.
At the interview discrimination to my face they dare.
I do not run, I am not scared.
I reapply consecutively, insanity flares.
I am invisible, I am not there.
Nobody notices or even stares.

He calls me his baby.
He treats me like I'm a lady.
His intentions are never shady.

My eyes watch his aura.
His essence glows like a tiara.
His eyes sparkle like stars.
He drives a truck not a car.

Our attraction is mutual.
So sacred & constitutional.

Our desire is not yet full.
Our passion rages like a bull.
Our time together is never dull.

His lips touch mine.
That night for the first time.

Being alone in the cold & dark feels
Like being dead in your own coffin.
Isolated in the ground.
Beneath the earth.
The cemetery death surrounds.
Nothing alive is found.
If I had a choice not to see, hear, or speak.
I would choose not to speak.
Because I have to see & hear.
It would feel like I'm dead I fear.
I want friends with me who are near.
I want to feel alive with the living.
Not invisible as a ghost.
No one is seeing or hearing.
To be naked would people even notice?
I do not want to fade.
My life what it is, is what I made.
In this hellish place I stayed.
Not to disappear but to remain.
Enter the way I came.
Sleep next to me during the thunder.
Embrace me in a peaceful slumber.
Kiss me in the dark.
Hold hands with me walking through the park.
Love me daily.
Remember me lately?
You are just a memory.
A vision I want to keep.
Do not leave my side.
Or I may weep.
You shy away to hide.

You ruined me.
There is no forgiveness.
You stole my whole life.

I found a protector.
Who has courage & strength.
Tall , handsome, fearless, & sweet.

His company is like a dream.
A captivating essence lingers.
To feel his warm touch.
A love willing, not forced.

A perfect match.
I surrender to that.
His eyes hold a mystery.
His voice is soft but clear.

His face next to mine.
A deserved chance of true love.
Carry me from this hell.

The truth I will tell.
From hell you the devil fell.
I was saved by an angel.
Like a bodyguard.
Who would not hesitate
To destroy evil.
To protect innocence.

The neighbors left my dog alone
in the cold, dark, rain.
They do not care it is insane.
My empathy is still the same.

This is not how it has to be.
I hear his silent plee.
Together it is as we are one, I, him & we.
A neglection of abandonment I see.

They should wrap him in a blanket &
Keep him warm.
Cover him from the wind & storm.
Compassion is what will form.
With love bonds a new life is born.

What changes a woman from being just a hookup for ***,
to a girlfriend or a wife?
Pregnancy? No. A job? No?
Their own place? No. A car? No.
A college degree? Yes? Sanity? Yes? No Substance abuse issues? Yes?
No childhood *** abuse issues? No? A bank account? No?
Being too old, fat, & ugly? Yes?.....why?
I have what every other female has *****, a mind, a personality, a diet,
a high school education,
an interest in the opposite ***,
a type preference, an appetite,
a fragrance, an opinion, a fantasy,
a desire, a will, empathy, compassion, self control, will power, self respect & I'm careful.

Walking to the mailbox through the snow.
Mailing things I buy off eBay to work so my ex don't know.
I spend all my money on me.... So!
I am glad back to California I go.
In my new clothes I look so radiant I glow.
I will never again be your ***.
Your morals in life are so low.
Low life with junk cars that get towed.

Goodbye wither & die.
I promise I won't cry.

You tried to strangle me to death.
Because your addict *** smoke ****.

Be alone.
I'm done pretending we had a home.

You are a bad guy.
I wish we never had met or said. " Hi".

I found someone better after I left you.
Someone you never knew.

A chance with me you forever *******.
A portrait of a better future I wrote & drew.

I'm scared to do a *******.
But daddy says it will be fun.
He knows I'm not a lesbian or bi-******.
He is in charge that is no bull.
He says she is not that pretty but is not butch.
Her I do not want to lick or touch.
I wonder if he'd still like me as much.
He likes to do weird stuff.
He knows I like it rough.
So I guess I will play along.
So new friends I can make & belong.
He wants a master slave relationship.
Wants my hands tied behind my hips.
He said he also wants me to watch.
He said she'd show him what he's taught.
He wants me to get drunk first.
Would that be better or worse?
I guess I will be ******* naked.
Do I even get a blanket?
It's his fantasy.
So I guess we will have to see.
I will try to be how he wants me to be.
I don't care if he slaps me.
Because it won't be hard, the motel ain't free.
I wonder if we'll spend the night.
It will be a strange sight.
The three of us in one bed.
What is wrong with our head?
I guess I have lost my mind.
In time I did find.
He said with me he would take a bubble bath.
I guess to share him half.
Is better than not at all.
He always texts & not calls.
It's better that way.
He knows with him I want to stay.
I don't like hearing my baby voice.
Choosing me was his choice.

I hope I get picked at this hiring event.
So I can move out of here & pay my own rent.
A miracle would be heaven sent.
By a saint only a devil could taint.
Tomorrow i am giving my cat to the shelter.
His love is not as it were.
Because he scratched my nose.
It bleed like being pierced with a thorn from a rose.
The trust is gone.
To be adopted by someone who don't like to cuddle.
Abandonment is not subtle.
Cats don't like to be held against their will.
Or intentions to harm you they will.
They feel threatened by restraint.

No  more kisses.
Just growls & hisses.

Today I saw a rainbow.
It made the sky glow.
The clouds were dark.
Neighbors dogs bark.
It was sunny but it rained.
My stress was strained.
Looking for work in this town.
Wasting gas all around.
So far nothing I found.
I applied at 3 places online.
If they pick me it will be mine.
Then I can live just fine.
At restaurants we can dine.
I will have to see.
Who or what I will be.
Hardships when your not chosen.
Present moments stop & are frozen.

Traumatized by the vision of death.
I can't eat or rest.
The vermin carcass on the porch.
Was disgusting filth to be torched.
My mind can't erase the horror.
She put in the trash near my car.
The blood on the kitchen floor...
Within the side door.
I screamed in shock.
My phobia she mocks.
What a sick New Year surprise.
Of the rats torturous demise.

On the windows cool air forms frost.
In the fog I feel cold and lost.

Through the forest the trees dance.
Freedom I will have the chance.

To escape from this captivity.
Independence I can feel & see.

Walking bare foot without a path.
I will not suffer the wrath.

Goosebumps cover my flesh.
With no warmth to caress.

Wandering directionless in the woods.
Eatting whatever I could.

Nothing to wear, eat, or drink.
To dehydrated to speak or think.

No human contact here.
I didn't even see a deer.

Staggering & stumbling.
Mumbling swears with my belly grumbling.

An endless abyss.
Hopeless in granting my wish.

No one can find me.
My radar is not to be.

Barely surviving.
Existing but not thriving.

Mindless panic sets in.
Fear of death will win.

No help will come.
A fate you can't out run.

Solitude forming delusions.
A spirit's pollution.
Brainstorm a solution.

The sun shines on the trail.
To follow or fail.

Wanting to connect.
Rejecting the neglect.

This suffer you can not forget.
To be saved will I ever get.

I have nothing to wear.
My body is cold & bare.
At my ****** people stare.
I don't know all who is out there.
Nobody really cares.
To flash people online I dare.
But not to minors that's not fair.
I like to keep long hair.
I am not a couple of a pair.
I have always been single how rare.
My heart in half broken it tears.
Loneliness alone & naked through the years.

Still waiting.
Forever is dissipating.
Transparency is creating.
Regrets debating.
Me nobody is dating.
Complaints I am stating.

( Haiku)
My existence is like a shadow
fades with the light.
An essence dimming bright.
Alone every night

Scared.
They never cared.
At my nakedness they stared.
Told me what they wanted to do was dared.
Seduction snared.
My ****** bared.
Jealous tempers flared.
My photos were glared.
Couples not yet paired.
Photographs ripped & teared.
No clothes was weared.

As the rain falls from the sky.
My friend in Washington texts he wants to die.
I did not cry.
I simply ask.....why?

I said maybe he is "bipolar".
He said "that was rude" i don't have a cure.
Drinking causes his depression to stir.
I repeated his comments as if they were mine, he recalled them as a blur.

He gots anger issues.
Maybe he needs a box of tissues.
His self loathing feelings are miscrude.
Treating him like he treated me was not rude.
He is always in a bad mood.
I remember when he used to buy us food

You said you need a hug.
But i text too much & bug.
My own grave you dug.
You rolled my lifeless body in a rug.

I was found in a ditch.
Slaughtered for being a heartless *****.
Hike don't hitch.
You ***** me but I was no snitch.

No empathy or compassion for human life
No engagements to be your wife.
When i was alive, i was ignored, starved, neglected, & deprived.

My ghost will forever haunt you.
I was not a person you really knew.
To heaven my spirit flew.
Evidence rises with the morning dew.

I was not respected as a woman.
Stranded on a land of no man.
Bound by feet & hand.
My death was not planned.

Life is not a game.
We are not all the same.
I am a minority.
Having a job is a priority.
Taken for granted by the majority.
You can make this world a better place.
Express a pleasant nice face.
Live each day live to the fullest.
Visualize a destiny, a wish.
That's how you will create it with a kiss.
My past i don't miss.
I have been cursed with the Devil's destiny.
It has ****** but not corrupted me.
My path to middle class success has been interrupted.
By unfortunate circumstances erupted.
All i need is full time work.
The fabric of times quirk.
Minimum wage will get me out of this cage.

Sorry if being naked is disgusting for the decrpid old hunch back.
Poverty & broken things attack.
Her of all people should know i was born that way.
Here i despise to stay.
If me wanting to get married before age 40 is ridiculous & disgusting for her she can move into an old ***** home.
She doesn't even know how to use the voice mail on her phone.
Ariel doesn't like getting her picture taken as much as i do sorry if i seem conceited but i love myself.
I am poor without wealth.
Maybe too much.
I can feel & touch.
I have too much free time & no friends.
Finaces can mend without a loan to lend.
So my appearance means alot to me.
Something everyone can see.
I dont consider myself a selfish person.
We are each one.
I love Ariel.
I want us to live a life that's full.
i love cats & dogs & animals.
Intelligent life not fools.
I am a vegan since 1996 for moral reasons.
I am against firearms & guns.
I care about endangered species.
They should be saved & not served in pieces.
I have empathy & compassion for others especially if it's someone i am close to or acquainted with.
Your not Lord of the Sith.
Even watching something sad on t.v. or DVD can make me cry.
Not everyone deserves to die.
I dont think i am overly emotional but i have a strong empathy for unfortunate people or animals but not pity.
Unless they are not friendly & bite me.
I don't like noise.
Sexually I don't like girls just boys.
When i talk i talk too much.
When i drink i drink too much,
When i eat i eat too much.
In my mind I am not touched.
I may have an addictive personality.
I just have to be free.
Only 2 people in this world stresses me out that is my mom & brother.
We should be in the home of another.
Other then that i am easy to get along with.
Am i someone you could miss?
I can bring sunshine to anyone's day.
Who wants to play & with them have me stay.
I am an ice breaker.
I tell the truth & i am not a faker.
I am just trying to maintain a connection.
Some love & affection.
Social or otherwise.
Sometimes to live your life someone else needs to sacrifice their demise.
I need to have fun on a daily basis.
You can know how i feel from my faces.
I need love to feel alive.
Work was how i thrived.
A job is the only way to survive.
For the last 4 months i felt like a dead flower withered & lifeless.
I feel cursed not blessed.

Today is nothing.
No one is coming.
People dont know I'm here.
No one holds me near.
Friends arent allowed to visit.
I do nothing as i think here & sit.
Everyday is the same.
"Mother" is to blame.
This is no place to live.
There is nothing here to give.
I can't wait to move out.
Getting a job is hard to come about.
Every month I put money on my phone.
But no one ever calls me at his "home".

Nothing is what i found.
If anyone asks how i lost 20 pounds.
I will just say "i am on this new diet called unemployment".
I don't have qualified income to rent.
My online applications i sent.
Where am i suppose to live a tent?
I have so much anger to vent.
Last years tax return gone & went.
Before this years over all my money will be spent.
My *** dont **** No dollars or cents.

Why do we have to live here?
Your like brain damaged & you don't even drink beer.
Why are you so mental?
You continue to pay for this ******* rental.
The kitchen sink & refrigerator leaks.
Just like your bladder the toilet you can't reach.
The bathroom sink is clogged with sasquatch hair.
But you don't seem to give a **** or even care.
For 10 years the toilet hasn't flushed.
Your hair is never washed or brushed.
You love the filth & stench.
You are a crazy *****.
You smell like the bums on a park bench.
Everything is broke.
Your life as a slob is a joke.
I wish you would die & croak.
Your a miserable old *****.
A backstabbing, two faced, heartless witch.
Does your life have an off switch?

I am traumatized by the image of taxidermy animals stuffed.
Their joyous & innocent lives snuffed.
To display on a shelve or wall.
Is so **** sick & all.
I am a vegan for moral reasons.
To take a life is like treason.
I am scared of death's eyes.
It haunts me & makes me cry.
It should be against the law.
To see all the things i saw.
To the core gory & raw.
Society has a sick flaw.
Carnivores are brainwashed to think eatting meat is normal but it's not.
It is a fact not just what i thought.
Playing with it is as sick as eatting it.
Corruption is a mental interruption.
Of the mind an insane eruption.

Leave the holiday lights alone.
Or we can find you a new home.
My leg is not a scratching post.
All these little things add up to the most.
Go to sleep all day.
Later we can play.
My phone charger cord is not a chew toy.
It causes stress not joy.
You jump on my coffee ***.
You can knock over the fan I thought.
You are a four legged menace.
Your hyperactiveness is relentless.
Don't mess with the contents of my purse.
Or my anger is dispursed.
Running around the room makes it worse.

I wrote a little note.
To express how much I devote.
To give my heart.
That's a start.
Loneliness when we're apart.
My kiss could be better.
I can blot it on a letter.
The envelope is sealed.
True love is feeled.
My broken past is healed.
Atheist prayers aren't kneeled.
Embark on this beginning.
A game of winning.

An encounter so surreal.
A contact I can feel.
My kissing is not perfect.
Hope my intentions don't conflict.
Nothing communication can't fix.
I wonder when if I will see him next.
He said "keep in touch" so I guess we'll text.
Finally it's lifted my spirit & the hex.
I've been ****** in this curse for so long.
I met someone strong.
Maybe he can join me where we belong

I don't know what people think of me but I am not the ***** i portray myself to be.
I know thee image of me.
Just because I want to be beautiful & have attention from a man which i never even get doesn't mean I am a *****.
For 10 years she blocked the front door.
How can I be a ***** if I threw away 100 condoms that expired after 3 years that were never even used.
As children we were abused.
If I was such a ***** they would have been used in twenty minutes.
All old ***** hunchback does is on her fat *** sit.
I don't really give a **** what the mom & her fat son I disowned 8 years ago thinks of me.
I know what I see.

Ask and you shall not receive.
A con job you conceive.
Your country you want to leave.
Join the club.
Earn a pay stub.
I need money in my bank account to.
It's like holding up a cardboard sign to the whole world at the same time.
A scam from the beginning I knew.
Begging to raise funds for their bank account for nickels & dimes.
Well first I need to get a bank account.  
But I have been needy my whole life but I don't ask people for money. 
If I need money I apply for jobs.
I just stay broke until I get a job.
Instead with a sad story people they rob.
One time I couldn't get a job for 7 years I had no phone number.
Work instead of going to the pub in a drunken slumber.
Alot of people think that just because I am white I have money.
But I don't.
I come from a white trash family in the ghetto with a minimum wage background.

I always respected my cat as a person.
Getting another cat made the situation worsen.
I love him but I can't trust him anymore.
I would keep him if the space where we reside had more.
It's sad but I guess violence ends most relationships.
He bites too hard not playful nips.
Cats are like people when they become rejected or replaced they become stalkers lurking in the hall waiting outside your door waiting to cat fight who stole away your attention.
Sorry we can no longer share affection.
I guess he is not the cuddle kiss on the lips & give a little smoochie to anymore.
He is the feed me & leave me alone kind of pet.
Who don't play well with others at all.
I was just trying to give him a friend & then he became the enemy.

My daughter was 3 states away.
With the court appointed I did not want to stay.

Holding on for you.
I did not tell nobody knew.

Devastate how you forsake.
A connection won't take.
My heart will break.
This body convulses and shakes.
To stay alive my breath can not make.
My spirit hovers above this realms gate.
My ex I truly hate.
He almost took me from this life.
I deserve to be a sane man's wife.

Hate *** with all of your ex.
All my relationships I regret.
To be violated I allowed & let.

Thinking that is how you get married.
But it's just false hope I carried.
I wish them all to be dead & buried.

I consider *** with a ******.
To be an evil, sick, & cruel sin.

I can not sleep.
Remembering how I was ***** by a
creep.

For 3 or 4 years.
Healing is not here.

I was only 12 & my sister was nine.
We will never again be okay or fine.

Too bad women can't get paid for self respect.
Humiliation & assault they let.
To age be forgotten & a respect they  neglect.
Their actions reflect.
The path they set.

Sick fantasies, twisted desires, demented acts for cruel gratification.
Hateful *** without love or compassion has no passion.
To be used in that fashion.
Damaged & broken impotent black hearted, heartless, soul less entities of the destruction of pure innocence.
Lust, greed, envy, anger,sloath, pride, & gluttony.
The 7 deadly sins all traits of the **** industry.
Shame on everyone.
It is not entertaining or fun.
Over rated to be degraded.
Defiled & hated.
Focus on a self less love.
With morals to rise above.
Treat the weak & fragile with love.
The reason so many relationships are ****** up is because how the **** industry uses exploits,degrades, assaults, & defiles women for money.
If there wasn't an audience for it there.
Wouldn't be a market for the ****.
I am a loving, compassionate, fun, loyal woman.
Seeking friendship, conversation, and hopefully more.
Can you be responsible for my heart?

Voices echo off these solid walls.
No one hears their calls.
To get to have a life outside would be all.
To be picked up & lifted when they fall.
Not intimidated without mercy to crawl.
Suffer, despair, loneliness, in sadness they bawl.
Inside haters want to brawl.
Perception of time is stalled.

It is like 90 degrees.
Air conditioning please.
You can pass out in this heat.
Too hot to move have a seat.
The forecast is the posted word.
I wish it snowed in this California desert.
Roasting hot is what I felt.
We all need to moisture our eyeballs with eye drops people so they don't melt.
Too much to ask for some loving.
It is like a solar oven.
No money for gas.
No a.c. for the low class.
Only poor people with dui's take the bus.
***** to be us.
I still ain't no one's wife.
I know Ariel & I are destined for at least a middle class life.
A pay check would fill this void.
It's been almost 2 decades for her & almost 4 decades for me of thus poor poverished lifestyles of the broke & unemployed.
The universe taketh & the universe giveth.

Females are delicate & fragile.
Sweet, innocent, with a nice smile.
Be kind & love them.
Romance them & be a friend.
Protect them from harm.
Embrace them with your arm.
Kiss them with love.
Never slap, hit, or shove.
Respect us do not abandon or neglect.
Your intentions & promises reflect.
Your plan is set.
Be nice & understanding don't forget.
Remember when you met?
Love at first sight.
A mutual desire so right.

Unable to attain.
Impossible to obtain.
A reason so lame.
They don't want to know who I am or my name.
Discrimination is all the same.
There is nothing wrong with the mentality of my brain.
A hiring process shouldn't be such a strain.
I am able to be trained.

Prevented from employment opportunities.
Their biast duty.
Sorry Ariel you don't have new clothes for school.
I guess having a job is against the rules.
Sorry Ariel there is nothing to eat or drink.
I guess according to Walmart employers I can't think.
I have been discriminated
Kicked out & eliminated.
Soon I will be broke.
I hope she gets fired.
So I can take her place & be hired.
I guess I don't have the right mentality to shop there anymore either.
She is a soul less creature.

At the job interview she said she doesn't feel I have the right mentality to work in her department as a cashier.
She ruined my chance I fear.

Love & protection.
Not hatred, fear, & neglection.
Respect, trust, honesty, & loyalty.
Not self centered royalty.
Devotion, understanding, & consideration.
Not meaningless flings of infatuation.
Open relationships with a wandering eye.
Is that what you want in a guy?
I want to be loved & cared for.
Not betrayed, used, & scared by.

Be kind & let your life be mine.
Now & forever in this time.
True love a commitment will bind.
Ask me out for a date.
I am not hungry I already ate.
Is it our destiny in our fate?
Finding you as my soul mate.
In a world so vast & great.
Is like finding the brightest star in the galaxy.
When you find them you can relax within thee.
I made my wish.
For my lips for you to kiss.
When I can't see you guess who I miss.
Please take my hand.
Be my man.
Use a magic wand.
Counting grains of sand.
Continents across the land.
Accomplish a miracle.
Witness what you recall.
The universe will give you all.

Gaze at the gigantic moon.
See how it illuminates the room.
The sky so foggy & dark casts shimmer of light,
The night grass soggy.
The dog still barks, moonlight glows bright.
A silloutte shadow of a black cat jumps a fence.
My heart beat intense.
Spooky images move.
My vision improves.
Owls are bad luck.
If you hear one at midnight it means someone is going to die.
Say " goodbye".

The chai latte is hot.
More of it I should have got.
The coffee house patience is taught.
At old people's house their bread rots.

This weekend it rained
Staying indoors all the time is a strain.
Being alone is a lonely pain.
Being single not the same.
As marriage is love with a name.
True love never came.
Being low class is to blame.
I am sick of the mind games.