The days are hot.
The nights are cold.
I hate this place I got.
This desert is making me old.
Ants are everywhere.
But the kidnapper & her fat son don't care.
The place reeks of ***** stench.
Filth, mold, dust, & cob webs with a broken fence.
I wish this dump would burn in flames.
The old hunch back crone & mama's boy is to blame.

This year I am gone.
Left where I did not belong.
To be hated is wrong.
I have moved on.

This place was not for me.
You people broke a part of me.
Your bad karma you can't even see.

I gave this a chance.
There was no romance.

The workplace was a disgrace.
You all will soon forget my face.

When his eyes look at me.
Through his soul I can see.
Hand in hand he is a part of me.
Two become one as we.

Charmed on his arm.
Where I belong.
Together we get along.
A commitment wouldn't be wrong.
Dedicated a sweet love song.

Gemstones sparkle in the distance.
His kiss has no resistance.
He gives a purpose to my existence.

His love I desire.
It burns like flames of fire.

My favorite colors are pink & black.
You can see it in my makeup & wardrobe.
I post the images online around the globe.
I have no secrets.
My truth has no lies.
The past no longer makes me cry.
My tears dried up through the years.
I deserve to be someones wife.
I am proud of my life.
But disgusted by where I live.

I am now 38.
Justice shouldn't be a courthouse debate.
We shouldn't have to wait.
To be successful to feel great.
Never will I ever forgive who I hate.
Hopefully I will get married before forty.
I have no self pity or a complex of "poor me".
A truth you can feel but not see.
The old lady filed a restraining order against me.
To keep me from my only family my baby.
The custody case dragged on a year & a half until never replaced maybe.
She kidnapped my child.
Portrayed me as mental & wild.
The Madge Bradley Building mediator Georgia Mansury didn't believe my story in 2006 when she took my daughter away from me & gave her to my mom.
The family courthouse should blow up like a bomb.
I know I am in her best interest.
Ariel's mom she had missed.
The town of North Clairemont in San Diego.
A place friends never go.
We went to Alcott Elementary school.
Laws can't protect the ****** from rules.
We lived at 3266 Idlewild Way.
A place I am glad we no longer stay.
True story the police said it was a low priority case.
The future can't make the past erase.
I called them 20 years later.
So the reason my mom & why I hate her.
So I hung up & said "nevermind".
Somewhere evil still exists in this place & time.
They said it would take a really long time.
A nightmare of mine.
When I was 12 & my sister was nine.
We got ***** 365 times times 4.
A stranger showed up at our door.
He had a metallic blue helmet & motorcycle.
He got us bicycles.
She never had a clue.
His execution is long overdue.
My mom moved in a pedofile.
To live with us 3 or 4 years for awhile.
I think he had been on Americas Most Wanted for escaping from a correctional facility.
Monsters like him don't get any pity.
He said if we told anyone he would **** us.
His felonies were never a bust.
Registered or unregistered.
*** offenders should never get parolled.
They should stay locked up til their dead & old.
In mexico or anywhere else children's *** is not something that should be sold.
I hated my life.
No one ever asked me to be their wife.
She bought him cartons of cigarettes & beer.
My dad she had kicked out that year.
My dad died at 81 in 2009 I told him the truth before.
How a child molestor made us his *****.
He made me carry dead fish from the tank in my hand to the toilet.
It traumatized me bit by bit.
My life has become ****.
He strangled the dog next door with his own leash.
Nobody knew about our grief.
Justice has no relief.
When he went away.
We could go out & play.
After that all new days he hadn't had his way.
My mom told me to touch his **** telling me it was okay that it was just skin.
I never did. I knew it was an illegal sin.
He whipped us with his belt for being late.
I was unsure of my future fate.
Being there was not happy or fun.
My mom bought him a gun.
Where would we go if we had run.
He spit in my cereal is the rest.
He ****** on my toothbrush I detest.
He choked my sister to death.
He ressitated her she told her teacher.
The police never knew to reach her.
1988 our lives got ruined.
The damage is congruent.
1991 was when the **** ended.
Children got sexually offended.

I Forget to remember.
I don't trust my memory.
My biography in a summary.
A little piece of me.
A person to know & see.
My words are only half heard.
My face easily forgotten.
I hadn't deserved most of what I had gotten.
You don't message me daily.
You never arrange to see me.
We have no relationship.
We never kiss on the lips.

There is no lock on the doors.
No carpet on the floors.
I want to be middle class & so much more.

The sink is always clogged.
My website is a daily blog.
My pet is not a Polly ***.
I love *** belly pigs & dogs.

From the door **** my hand smells like copper.
I am poor like a pauper.

I quit my job because I didn't want to transfer.
The two years I have been there has been a blur.
No one respects me now or before as we were.
I am friendless even though I am not perfect or pure.

Situation of inflation.
Betrayal saturates your current fate.
Destiny can no longer wait.
Your enemies deceive & hate.

Objectify a small white lie.
An unanswered why.

People & things fall apart.
Torn in half & broken hearts.

Salvage pieces to make it whole.
Satisfaction in a cereal bowl.

Truth unbelieved.
People you can't be with you leave.

Something borrowed,
today or tomorrow.
Something old,
Something bought & sold.
Something new,
Something blue.
Friends are so few.
Depression has a reason.
It can occur in any season.

Sadness is a moody feeling.
A broken heart with no healing.

I would like to get married.
Before I am dead & buried.

I know I have yet to live a life.
Regret cuts like a knife.
A metaphor to be a wife.
Not a ***** think twice.
I am too sweet & nice.
A piece of heaven have a slice.

Our lives entwine,
Through the fabrics of time.
Every fiber of your being,
Feels humanity & compassion your seeing.
World peace is more than a feeling.
Understanding well being is healing.
Evil & hatred deception is concealing.

It's like you can see mother earth in my eyes.
A worlds birth would make us cry.
Mortality says one day we will die.
Ambition lets us give success a try.
A family to never say "goodbye".
The after life you don't know why.
A past life you can't buy.
A destiny you cannot lie.
Secrets untold you can't pry.

My clone so I am not alone.
We have yet to find our home.
Nobody messages me on my phone.
No where is where we roam.
Just lounge in a tub of water & foam.

If I was an actress.
I would be a success.
On screen I would never undress.
I don't do comedy.
I don't play scrabble, twister, dominos, or monopoly.
A pie in the face is a mess.
I don't do romance.
I want no one to touch or caress.

I don't do scary.
I don't like backs that are hairy.

I don't do violence or ****.
I don't do horror that would be rude.

Life is but a dream.
A de ja vu.
You remember but aren't sure you knew.
A ghost haunted by their past, who can not stand the present, weighs heavy in silence dreaming of a hopeless future.
****** to relive & repeat a daily nightmare of solitude & neglect.
A person people forget.
Welcome to my life.
Whats in store?
But to restore a shattered & unsettling past.
Not to resurrect the bad times.
Never to press rewind.
Corruption is what you will find.
I guess it was before your time.
Maybe you can never be mine.
A curse still binds.

It's a mutual attraction.
So far there has been no action.
I guess he has been in a relationship for 6 years.
He said he no longer drinks beer.
Mine don't last more than 3 but my longest was six.
I like hearing the truth with no tricks.
He offered me his ****.
I don't feel offended or sick.
So far its just been *** talk.
We haven't even been on a walk.
Neither of us by each other have been stalked.
We used to work together.
The rain is romantic weather.
Together we could look good in a picture.
As his arm candy I wish to be a permanent fixture.
Is our destiny to be together in the potion of life's mixture?
*******.
Obscene text.
Not a prospect or an ex.
Is not single.
But may want to mingle.
Makes me feel *****.
When they talk all flirty.
Never said that to my face.
Texted me an image I can not erase.
He still has a girlfriend.
We never even hung out as friends.

Waited to be sofisticated.
Desires saturated.
Feelings contemplated.
Unknown people stalked & hated.
Commitments unreached & outdated.
Birthdays belated.
Imaginary relationships created.
Fantasies unfated.
Communities fenced & gated.
Opposite sexes connected & mated.
Second thoughts changed & debated.

Destiny is calling what is left of me.
An army is more than one, two, or three.
Honor is a part of me.
Morals you feel but can't see.
Heros don't always get fame on t.v.
Humanity is a morality.
Death is a tragedy.
Disperse this ambush.
The alliance was not first.
Delayed from before.
Bombed to the floor.
Echoed through the corridor.
Innocent souls to heaven soar.
From this life mortals need more.
Vital to survival.
Don't stall or idle.
Go the extra mile.
Be pleasant & don't forget to smile.

I do not know the cure for mortality of when, where, how, or why.
I do not know why sadness makes me cry.
I do not know why someday I will die.
I do not know why I have not met a marry me guy.
I do not know why love money can not buy.
I do not know why no one to me says hello or hi.
I do not know why lovers cheat & lie.
I do not know why I am ****** to exist & dwell in this sty.

Counting the grains of sand on the beach.
An unrealistic fantasy I am unable to reach.
A sadness you have to experience to teach.

Poor Harmony forever alone & *****.
Loneliness so heavy like lead.
No offering but stale & moldy bread.
A daughter poor & unfed.
An existence unloved & eventually dead.
A love letter unopened & unread.
A broken heart ripped & bled.
Sorrow & despair mutually unfelt & unsaid.
Like counting the hair folicules on your head.
A soulmate to never share a bed.
A hunger neglected & unfed.

A Capricorn his children I would have born.
Children of the Capricorn.
Despite in laws that would ***** as a thorn.
The jealous type as a devil with horns.
Never to be a sacred union I would mourn.
My heart in half is what was torn.
A wedding dress for me will never be worn.
By men I guess I am just not adorn.
My spirit falls like a ripe acorn.
Don't know what rhymes with T.....
Other then today, tomorrow,& forever
Perhaps his octomom complex of wanting to have four kids is not clever.
Who is willing to.... his girlfriend.
So he says we should just be friends.
To have another baby with a lover.
Not to be married first I say never.
Even if it was with T.....
Would he break up with his girlfriend ever?
A mutual attraction would conquer.
My heart is filled with love that is pure.
His desire I had once before stirred.
Money or ****** doesn't work as a lure.
For him to choose me over her.
*** & marriage with me would he concur?
His past with her would become a blur
To resume a life with me as they were.
For his happiness I would be the cure.
As a husband I know he would be better.
Casting a love spell couldn't deliver.
I have no power to control the weather.

My questions go unanswered.
My words ignored.
My presence overlooked.
Myself invisible to the eyes of others.

In a sty of stench.
In her own ***** she is drenched.
The reason I crossed two states borders.
Pack rat hoarder.
Without organization of order.

Out lived my heart hesitated.
My life dictated.
By a **** "mom" who dominates.
Controlling with my child as leverage.
She holds us hostage.
In her cobwebbed hellhole of dust.
Mold, ***** stench, mildew, & rust.
She is no one to ever trust.
I have alot to complain about & fuss.

Neglected, unprotected,& disrespected.
Taken for granted & unappreciated.
Unknown but senselessly hated.

For love or friendship I waited.
No one ever asked me to be dated.
My life I lived & created.

Exemplifies everything we try.
Purgatory trapped in dejavu tells a story.
A time warp to another place.
Different years past, present, & future erase.
To cease to exist from this time & space.
No recogination in my face.
Paroled to abuse victims to use.
For themselves solely to amuse.
Insanity has blown a fuse.
Innocence & development is confused.
Never an essential priority.
A false undeserving authority.
It shouldn't of happened to us.
A stranger "mom" mistakenly trust.
Corruption & sin confines.
A hellish nightmare of mine.
Could not foresee to prevent this crime.
Unspeakable at the time.
Disbelief of this unstoppable grief.
I can feel what is real.
Unbelivable & inconceivable the past can't heal.
Of what is real & what is fabricated.
Blurry, foggy, memories that's debated
No perception of time that is waited.
Delirious, confused, & dehydrated.
My agenda & purpose is contemplated

Do they possess secret of immortality?
So mankind will suffer no more fatality
Sparkling gems with silver chains.
Gold coins make it rain.
Mermaids gold.
Richness unfolds.
Immortality so old.
It shimmered so cold.
Stories unheard & never told.
An embrace too slippery to hold.
We have legs with no fins.
Another species is not a sin.
Never to walk among us on land.
They have no feet only hands.
Intelligent sea life unaware.
How divers discover what is there.
Do the mermaids even care?
Beneath the water a reflective box.
Pearls of the sea unlock.
A key of the ocean far from the docks.
Falling down to thee underworld.
Diamonds & pearls in the water they sink & swirl.
Gifts generate greed & envy I'd affected.
Treasures of the sea found & collected.
An image on your eyes reflected.

Celebrity status.....
A talent & image so ecstatic.
Not all their faces are made out of plastic.
Scripts memorized & talent mastered.
On movie screens their story is plastered.
They reach the top faster.
Everyone's a star.
To the red carpet out of a rolls Royce car.
There are some vegan celebrities from P.E.T.A.
A campaign to lead us.
A sad story to convince us.
Animals are our friends who trust.
They're lives valuable & deaths unjust.
Celebit celebrities celebrate.
Cast in Co starring roles to mate.
To expensive resturants taking dates.
Paparazzi can't wait they are early & never late.
Their income is at stake.
Without their permission their photos they take.
Their fashion & makeup how would you rate?
To appearances they're not usually late.
To trespass on their property is a law to break.
Envy might show itself of their image to hate.
It is sure to be grand or great.
Fame & fortune is a life they make.

Soft pale skin.
Seashell tops & a scaly tail with a fin.
Listen enchanting singing.
Attracting people with attention it's bringing.
Awoke on shore in the sand.
Stood up & walked hand in hand.
A strange island is this land.

Appears an angel face.
A figure to showcase.
Can't remember how we got to this place.

Sunsets across the ocean.
A plan sets in motion.
My expression shows no emotion.

Swam atop a rock.
My boat no longer at the dock.
Seagulls soar & form a flock.
Underneath the water treasures are locked.

No perception of time is forged.
My secret desires dismissed & ignored.

Disregarded,  no thanks.
I no longer fall for the pranks.
I withdraw my cash from the bank.
On a scale of one to ten how do I rank?
Poverty stenches & stank.
Stale & untrusted.
Broken,  abandoned,  & undusted.
Defeated,  hobbled, & now rusted.
Felonies & misdeameanors busted.
Lawbreakers, corruded & crusted.

Marry a man with a job & a van.
Who does all that he can.
My secret wish on a shooting star.
To stop getting drunk at the bar.
A walk to his momma's house isn't far.

Work ethics get my kiss.
Employment was my wish.
Success is our bliss.

Like jawbreakers dangerous & senseless.
Civilization settlers & makers.
Pioneers,  homemakers, waiters, bakers, & Quakers.
The towns folk are usually broke.
Different walks of life is no joke.
Occupations & professions of a wife.

Your words fall on deaf ears.
Your voice I choose not to hear.
Your breathe wreaks of stale beer.
Get away from me no one wants you here.

Away from here years ago & today.
I wish there had been a way.
To teleport or astroproject so I didn't have to stay.
Towards someone good to connect.
Of me people continue to neglect.
Evil is who I deflect.
Beauty is what I reflect.
Loneliness is what I get.

My eyes saw.
What you did broke the law.
Because of you ma kicked out Pa.
Every fiber of your being has a flaw.
Your morals are baked & your evil is raw.
Your hands are like a devil's claw.

Unfiled & unreported.
My thoughts real & undistorted.
The "mom" I disowned is disheveled
Her house pak rat hoarded.
Piles of filth & stench.

To know your face.
Ruined my past I can not replace.
Here at home of crimes there was no trace.
Police said low priority case.
Heaven has been a disgrace.
You've been banned from that place.

I mourn no grief.
My mind has relief.
Morals are my truest belief.
A life I can not leave.
A future of happiness to hope & believe.
True love to conceive.
Trust never to deceive.
You wear your heart on your sleeve.

We can build & share our lives.
I can be a loving wife.
To be happy & loved in this life.

A spouse you can't replace.
A perfect photo with their face.
Portraits with feeling, time unerased.
Family trees history is traced.
Childhoods in that neighborhood disgraced.
True horror was horrific to my face.
Finally out of that place.

Trading one hell for another.
Heaven & paradise should be the other.

He likes the rain.
Walking by him is a strain.
When he goes to work he says" another day in paradise".
I don't go through his thoughts once or twice.

Envision a mutual bond of two people getting along
Strength in trust & love is what it makes.
True love can not be fake.

My aura glows with all my heart knows.
My mind feels what this future heals.
Pain & betrayal the past conceals.
With what fate or Destiny deals.
Faith cracks & peels.
Karma reels.
Harmony kneels.
As Envy steals.
Justice doesn't exist or is not real.

My nose is subjected to a stench of death & filth.
Time stands still.
Frozen & unchosen my essence.
Remains a single unwanted presence.
Mutual attraction has no reaction.
*** has no further action.
Unmarried, untouched, unwanted, & unloved.

Eyes of every color see.
Ears without static are clear.
My mind has no fear.
My heart can not hear.
My voice is my gear.
I speak the truth all & every year.

Torment them no more.
Your choice has a door.
A gateway where only the holy may enter.
Witnessed ****** from the center.
Corruptive torture at the farms to cattle unarmed.
The killer seeks their pens to harm.
Justice is unconcerned as usual & disarmed.
My peace & well being is alarmed.
Everytime heartache rewinds.

Shield their innocence.
Protect their calves deliverance.
Save their essence.
Guard their bodies.
Be their lifeguard.
The cow butchers are still at large.
Put their life in charge.

Safety needs to be there to send.
Cruelty twists & bends.
Vegans will have to defend.
All the animals killed by these farm employee men.
Don't let them count to ten.
Never let the factory or dairy farms win.
Put them in a cage or a pig pen.
Bring the death count to zero.
An angel or a super hero.
Become their one true friend.
A helping hand to lend.
The future doesn't fix a past to mend.

"The way we experience time is an illusion".

Who will share their lives with me.

The Lamb has a golden heart.

The pig's spirit did nothing wrong &  is not dark.

The chicken's mind is sweet & kind.

The cow body is not ours to buffet.

These sacred & holy creatures don't need to obey.

Burger King is not their way.

Alive is how they must remain & stay.

Never to be sacrificed or hated.

Mercy shouldn't have to be waited.

Morals & ethics debated.

Deaths & quotas calculated.

Love for them should be felt.

Justice to shall not ****** needs to be dealt.

Compassion & empathy is a vegan fashion.

The talented style to get a baby Lamb to smile.

Peace comes when the confined are released.

Slaughtered & maimed cause me grief.

Lack of Justice has no relief.

Strength we have to make.

When we take a stand.

To educate a caravore to understand.

The livestock massacre across this land.

Join them hooves to hand.

Vegan ways populate our species clan.

Save the unfortunate & innocent from being ******.

Set a goal & form a plan.

Undercover investigation uncovers so behind bars the sadistic slaughterers are slammed.

Make them whole & cruelty gets banned.

Their existence is every much a part of me.

Empathy to protect & free.

A fantasy is wondered during this slumber.

Nightmares will stop.

Unearthed above ground on top.

To love without hate.

Self esteem & well being tranquility makes.

Beauty inside & out
is what confidence is all about.

Self love, personality, & happiness is your persona.

Sloath clings like a flame to a moth.

Like unused rust turned to dust appeals a lust.

Gluttony has a need to feed.

To be  just like you is envy's need.

Greed plants it's seed.

Pride is not something you can hide.

Seven sins deadly like anger in a stranger.

Pride, sloath, greed, & envy, is listening.

Four out of seven doesn't get you to heaven.

Texas dairy farm killers crushed the skulls of my holy vessels in 2011.
Their animals spirits descended to heaven.
They bludgeoned their heads as many times as 7.

My defenseless, sweet, trusting, innocent babies.
Their fate of their existence shouldn't be a maybe.
Wilbur & Bo Bo .
Should not be Bacon at breakfast with hot cocoa.
To eat what is dead is sickness unsaid.

Cattle **** the serial killers "downstairs".
Televise the video to be seen everywhere.
So caravores will start to care.
They heartlessly murdered my cows.
My cows. Mine now & forever in this time.
A life for a life.

A precious calf's life devalued, abused, disrespected, & used.
Meat has no price tag.
Like a two faced old hunchback sea hag.

A priceless life without tombstones or mourning.
This corrupt caravore world is disturbing & my empathy for the animals is pouring.
Change this mother earth in the next morning.
Father sky watches their animal spirits soaring.
****** is their hobby.
They butcher & dismember a creatures body.
Every animal belongs to me.
They have a spiritual essence I can see.

All species created are mine.
Their ****** is not okay or fine.
The killers need to do time.
I guess justice is something we have to find.
Baby cow is delicate & needs respect & love.
Baby piglet where is mommy spirits above?
Baby Lamb I love you your a baby angel.
The sinners morals are distorted & tangled.
Their bodies should be undamaged & not mangled.
Not on a death pile of other livestock.
Their revenge should be on the farmer's ****.
Protect the living of these farms.
To the livestock bring no harm.
Sadistic butchers disarm.
Stop the slaughter alarm.
These creatures are precious their souls innocent.
The lives priceless & mint.
Meat industries & factory farms get a hint.
Clueless evil attacks as their back is turned.
A blow to their fragile baby head is how hamburgers are made i learned.
The dairy farmers killed my cows.
Unspeakable evil without a why or how.
The slaughter across the lands spread like a flood.
More death in the mud.
They lay on the ground in a pool of blood.
Their life drains from their lifeless bodies.

Like the wolves grey eyes watch.
Sharing is not taught.
Life is not suppose to be fought.

Tomorrow will be new & will be different.
"The muck at our feet
The ooze that eats itself "
You still stink of it".

The ancient holy ghost ...
their power runs through your veins.
"Can you think of the one word there you probably shouldn't have said?"
To destroy each member of the Black Thorn.

"Place the holy vessel back into the bassinet."
An abduction you will regret.

Do not notarize or sign anything no matter what.
There is no reason to record words.
Others notions abscurd.
Misunderstand what they heard.
I will never trust their actions.
Courthouses is like a church with the devil as god.
Birthing Ariel was worth each contraction.
I would'nt do it again though.
I had to be sewed what was ripped.
One life is just as precious as two or more.
Child birth was an expected trip.
My belly may never again be flat.
But I am determined not to get fat.
About this we will no longer speak of that.

Sequester thee eternal sunshine.
The hummingbird does not speak to me.
Symbolizing a new beginning.
Harmony brings Destiny.
Doing the devil's work is heartless.
He can believe liars to this day.
For the biast lies about me the mediator had to say.
I thought heresay was irrelevant.
Her recommendations to the judge were sent.
I was not chosen.
My parental rights frozen.
Demons in human form in the courtroom posing.
Judge Gerald Jessop retired without remorse.
His senseless verdicts concluded it's course.
Who does he think he is to say
or think how we deserve to be separated this way.
At my side is the only place for Ariel to stay.

To take a child from their mother as a baby & a little girl is not for their best interest.
It was traumatizing enough everytime I had to leave just to work my shift.
The judge & his minions at Madge Bradley Downtown can drink giraffe ****.
For what they did to my daughter & I's relationship
The devil horned one of red flesh can escort them with his pitchfork to hell as a trip.
Another sunrise they can skip.
Some evil is so bad that not even fire can destroy it
The natural order of things this way is meant.
The biast liars be ****** & die endless torment.

Animals are sacred holy vessels every species.
Wild life to farm animals to pets deserve to live a happy, safe, & loved life.
Not to be butchered & massacred to be frozen, stored, & cooked.
They have feelings, their mind has thoughts, they gave affection & require to be fed.
Their lives have purpose.
They have families & babies .
My vegan beliefs are based on moral values.
I chose for myself & daughter.
We are the only ones among disowned family & friend who are not caravores.
I never voted for the meat industry.
To have meat departments in stores.
Is like having a funeral at a wedding.
It is my choice to never purchase flesh.
To consume flesh alive or undead is not edible.
Horrific ****** is unforgettable.

****** has no compassion.
It has no style or fashion.

Barbaques are satanic rituals to give the devil power.
A sacrifice in each hour.
To be raised as a meat eatting caravore is a brainwashed tradition passed from generation to generations.
I broke the cycle.
I took a stand.
Join the cause for a new vegan world without blood vengenance.
Become a part of life.
The circle of life has no death.
The dead can't rest in pieces.
World peace on earth to save & prevent decease & demise.
In your heart feel what is wise.

Your stomach doesn't digest meat anyways it just rots there.
Today you can start to care.

To devalue the lives of cows, horses, pigs, lambs, chickens & their eggs is disrespectful, heartless, sadistic, selfish, evil, corrupt, ******, mindless, unremorseful, deceitful, betraying, & cruel.

It sickens me to see packaged body parts of animals slaughtered & mutilated.
For caravore consumption.
They would've made good friends not food.
It is disgusting to see red & purple blood leak & chicken fat juice seep through serane wrap.
People who eat the chopped off chicken & pigs feet & fish with their heads still attached & cow tongues look like human lungs are disgusting.
It is cruel & sick.
To cut up parts of a living creature.

My tired eyes close.
As my body froze.
Light from the window reflects off the tears in my eye.
My sadness doesn't always have a why.

The purportions of my image in your eyes are distorted.
I appear fat, ugly, & old.
But to myself I look thin, young, & glow.

I release my sorrow & wash my face.
Mutual attraction does not exist.
The single life I will never miss.
Why can't my lips he just kiss.
He might love it.

Why is my happiness with a true love not possible.
Why is to say for him " I love you" so impossible?

The vision of my life is not how I envision.
I always assumed & imagined I would marry.
No one will ever ask.
In my twenties or thirties.
I give up hope.
At 37 I realize it will never happen for me.

I **** you not.
The only guy who I liked who I he did not want.
I walk by him as if to flaunt.
Every chance I get, my relentless pursuit haunts.
To make me jealous he revels in taunts.
To reveal my secret desire would wreck the fragile outter shell of my persona.
Guess it is not in our nature to be true.
In the action we do.
He will never know any of my love is true.
Mutual attraction is so rare & few.
It would be miraculous.
A change so fabulous.
My single ungranted wish.
The single life I would never miss.
I want to just be his.

He swaggers by with such confidence.
I stare in admiration of his brown hair & hat.
Nobody else sees what I see, I know he's all that.
His strong personality defends a lack of trust.
He shys away without interest a shell within himself
While I am left to ponder
if about me he will ever grow fonder.
We have nothing in common.
I like to Facebook, watch DVDs, & write poems.
He likes to drink, play video games, & who knows what else.
We are not friends he doesn't care about me.
My feelings he does not care to see.
I guess I am to old is how it is to be.
To be 20 to 17 years younger is impossible.
To be the same age is just not possible.
Our spirits have no age.
But our mortal bodies decline & fade.
I guess I am a person he would never get to know or miss.
Eternal Youth full grown is my personal wish.
To reverse my skin's aging & never decrease bone mass.
To maintain a beautiful face, firm *******, & a figure that's first class.

Can't hide the horror.
Your opinion of me weighs less than sunlight.
You are not the shaper of things.
Stale wind & ash.
It is beyond you.
Something is broke inside you.
How am I to function with such limitations?
I do not bend to your will.
Change is constant yet things stay the same.
Together?  Yes together.
Is this what grief looks like?
I don't like where this is going or has been.
The time line is stitched back together out of sequence.
Drain the energy from you safely.
"Serve no master but your own ambition".
It was a failure.
Your all that's left.
Fighting to hold on to what you were is destroying you.
The weakness of your species.
Touch me & die vermin.
Everything is different.
A self destructing time bomb.
Overloads & explodes.
Stuck in time.
Fear the night.
No harm no foul.
May or may not be evil.

The evil eye sees.
Blindness is not how to be.
Disrespected, envied, or hated.
Alone I waited.
Safe in solitude at "home".
Inside is better & quiet.
I dislike noise.
Temperature has to be just right.
The air & the water.
Not too hot or cold.
Conflictions is not what I am after.
Controversy is not what I am about.
I wish you not to speakth my name.
To return from where you came.
I wish to remain the same.
Despite the past to blame.
To be as I were.
Self known & home grown.
Like a **** from a planted seed.
Texted & not phoned.
Censored online & not followed.
Never corner me or you will void what's hollow.
A nobody & nameless.
With my own face but fameless.
Unadmired & unreachable.
Installed now & later.
Doing what matters.
Unvoted & gathered.
I will try to keep my opinions & thoughts to myself.
To be a private person.
Unknown & unpopular the way it has always been.

I don't make deals.
Not with the devil.
My head is level.
You can't scramble my mind.
Organization is what you'll find.

It is too good to be true.
Decline all offers.
Refuse to be a published author.
I don't need the critics.
Someone will always disagree.
With who or what I choose to be.
My beliefs are mine.
My morals conflict & controverse.
I no longer have to try.
I do not need to be in the public eye.
I prefer private eyes.
The whole world doesn't need to love me.
Or even like or know me.
I no longer want to be number one.
Or anyone's favorite, I am Ariel's mom.
You can have the glory.
My thoughts burn & simmer.
I don't need to be a best seller or a winner.

Destiny has your plan.
All those who accuse.
Everyone you have abused.
Victims will haunt you.
All the days of your life of misery.
Wickedness is punished .
Saints & angels protect the innocent.
Guard & shield them from evil.

Do not follow me.
Never touch me.
Look away & do not stay.
Don't talk to me.
Stay away from my family.

Forget about my world.
Lose my info & Bio.
Erase our number.
Do not disturb my slumber.

Respect my privacy.
Your threats & bluffs evaporate.
Your jealousy & hate saturate.
Karma crushes your fate.
For hell you need not wait.
Whatever is left of you will desinagrate.

Let's be here.
Give me a hot kiss.
Stay with me.
Talk with me.
Your handsome but mean.
I guess I am attracted to mean guys who don't want me.
People who want me I don't want.
Mutual attraction would be a miracle.
I believe I am beautiful.
I would be a perfect wife.
I am not sure I could think the same of you.
I don't cheat.
But I like to shop weekly.
I can't cook or clean.
But my first devotion is to my daughter.

The parting clouds reveal your face.
The rising sun melts & captivates.

Moonlight washes & watches.
Sunshine follows & warms.

Special crisp in the air fresh to breathe.
Normal & free to feel & see.
Opens a part of me.

You don't have to talk to anyone or no one.
I don't see you, you can't see me.

Stop thinking.
Stop drinking.
Stop blinking.
Stop looking.

Open your eyes.

To feel happy & be alive.
Carefree & safe.
Intelligent & beautiful.

Wraps me in warm blankets.
Soft comfort shaded, all day waited.

Cloak me from them.
Protect my body.
Guard my mind.
Shield my baby.
Save my soul maybe.

Purify my essence.
Cleanse my holy presence.
Worship my fetus.

Love this place of ours we need it.
Evil intentions be gone & erase.
Honor the deserving.
Know who they are serving.
Police are suppose to protect & serve.
My 3 years of **** is low priority.
More then 25 years passed.
I guess time matters when you want to report it.
At 12 years old how was I suppose to know what to do?
I couldn't work or drive.
I guess I was quiet to stay alive.
I never said nothing even after it left.
How was I to ever know when it might return.
They just arrest or harass or search your car.
Laws can't prevent it protect.
Sometimes they can't fix what's ******.
Respect everyone's children & pets.
Mine or yours is equally precious.
Prevent evil & avoid what is bad.
Rescue them from danger.
Protect & guide unfortunate creations to be safe.
Teach the mentally challenged common sense.
Help to communicate with the deaf by writing.
Help the blind with what they need to find.

Stay happy.
Stay safe.
Sometimes go shopping.
Sometimes it's okay to change something that is the same.

Always take your trash out daily.
Always use toothpaste & deodarant.
Always bathe & shower daily.
Always wear sunblock when near large areas of water like beaches, pools, rivers, lakes, or oceans.
Always stop at a red light or a stop sign.
Always pay your car insurance & phone bill on time
Always do your dishes daily & your laundry weekly.
Always be calm & polite.
Always wash your car every 2 weeks.

Don't trust any strangers.
Don't answer the phone without caller id.
Don't pick up hitch hikers.
Don't take rides from strangers.
Don't gamble.
Don't get drunk.
Don't breathe second hand smoke.

Never smoke around children.
Never shoplift for nothing or no one.
Never let anyone watch your children.
Never let anyone borrow money or your car.
Never call in sick to work.
Never request a day off from your job.
Never be late for your shift.

Don't cross the street until the light is green.
Hold hands at the crosswalks & parking lot.
Keep poison out of reach of children.
Don't cuss or swear.
Don't smoke or drink.
Don't speed above the speed limit.
Don't lend out cash.
Don't get conned.
Don't drink alcohol & drive.
Don't do drugs.
Don't sell *** for money.
Don't take bribes.
Don't get blackmailed.
Don't play with fire.
Don't use explosives or firearms.
Don't vandalize.
Don't be a ******, stripper, ****, drug dealer, bank robber, killer, ******, carjacker, kidnapper, or shoplifter.
Wear your seat belt.
Check your motor oil & fluids.
Drive on a full tank of gas.
Clean your windshield.
Flush the toilet.
Brush your teeth & hair.
Never use electrical things near water.
Never lie.
Never hire an attorney for anything.
Never sign a stripper contract.
Don't dance naked for money.
Use mouthwash.

Old people become like children.
They need care & monitoring.

Broken & unrepairable.
Intolerable & unbearable.
Stained, torn, & unwearable.

Empty & no longer full.
Anger takes you like a raging bull.
Motivation pushes & pulls.
Through & behind locked doors.
Solid brick walls coward's hide from us all.

Guilt has shame.
Responsibility blames.
Isolated & insane.
Somethings stay the same.
Sometimes people, places, or things change.
Somehow all becomes strange.
Memories rearrange.
Ambitions & goals get deranged.
Shattered dreams are pained.
Credit is unfamed.
Wild hearts are never tamed.

Fallen through the cracks like grains of sand.
Your destiny is purified your hands.
You fall where you land.
"Family" has you labeled & banned.
Inspirations & Aspirations are canned.
Your future is never planned.
Traffic flow gets slowed & jammed.
Victims are slandered & slammed.
Innocence gets ******.

In the baking heat & undefeated.
There in the pouring rain.
Frozen in the ice without shame.

Winter brings an eery chill.
Summer has free will.
Spring you hear angels sing.
Autumn is where flowers bloom.
Fall is dead leaves near tombs.

A life is not yours to take.
A crime is what that would be at stake.
In more ways than one he destroyed my life.

It costed alot & I will never get over it.
Shattered pieces bit by bit.
I will carry it the rest of my life.

You can decide some to create.
Babies are easy to make.

The trees conceal karma's possum.
What causes a shade of black & blue.
Anything the wind blows on your doorstep & there it blew.
Poison in the stew.
If only death of his could save you.
Don't know what your going to do.
Sometimes it takes not one but two.
An unknown hero would be who?
Unseen danger affects more than a few.
Not very many people knew.

A customer stole my pen & said it was his.
A fat, old, Hispanic male on a bike stole
my mom's money at the bus stop out of her shopping cart.
My mom stole my daughter.
She kicked out & divorced my father.
My brother calls me the *****.
My Co Workers believe I am annoying.
The union job don't schedule me enough hours.
I want full time work not part time pay.
My engine is leaking oil.
My tooth needs a permanent filling.
I avoid any further drilling.

It ***** to be poor.
It is a fire hazard just to use one door.
The grass is not green.
The house is filthy & unclean.
Nats in the kitchen, bathroom, & backroom.
A sty inside & out.
I can't wait to move the **** out.

Only half the burners on the stove work.
**** water came up through the tub drain.
The oven don't work.
The bed springs creak.
The refrigerator leaks.
The door knobs don't lock.
There are cobwebs on the ceiling.
The floors have no carpet.

A world is turning.
The deadly sin of anger still burning.
Seven sins you can't see,
You don't want to be.
Repent, rebuke, forsake & forgive.
Allow yourself again to love & live.
Mistakes educate, sometimes learning too late.
Be wise & don't trust too easy.
Try to see what no one else sees.
Have morals & be strong in your beliefs.
Everyday until we decease.
Have a reason to be at peace.
Your child is a purpose to believe.
You are a person you can not leave.

Allergies of the past.
Unreached & trashed.
Never to heal.
Records are sealed.
Crimes get appeals.
History is unpeeled.
Misery & broken lives revealed.
Heart break & pain is feeled.
Resentment congeals.
Damage is real.
Suffering & sorrow deals.
No food & uneatten meals.
Faith, love, trust, sanity, contentment, happiness, your first born, & opportunities are stealed.