for my addiction, i'd run a thousand miles
my addiction was very versatile;
sometimes found in a vial,
most of the times, juvenial
ALWAYS considered a lifestyle

You’re high
Again in the public eye,
It makes me upset  
That we never see eye-to-eye.
I ask why you do the things you do,
“It’s only to get by.”
You don’t have an alibi
This is the last time I’ll comply.
Only one more hit
Then you need to say goodbye,
“Maybe in July,” you say.
I’m worried though,
I pray you won’t die.
But I know that’s a lie
You’ll just keep getting high.
You can’t justify, please don’t stop by
Last time was the last and I mean it,
I don’t need you to clarify.
“Hailey don’t leave me high and dry,”
Famous last words
“Hailey please don’t turn a blind eye.”
I wish you the best,
I’m sorry I couldn’t satisfy.
You’ll still be the apple of my eye.

Drake
Overlooked the habits that foreshadowed his demise.
A couple ounces of coke
Here and there,
Even if it made him broke
And almost gave him a stroke.
He said
“Take a joke,”
It wasn’t a joke.
“You’re doing coke.”
My friend Drake overdosed.

I listened to you at first,
Believing you had my best interest.
In the beginning, before the worst,
You needed a friend.
I was that friend and you rehearsed
The same apology, the same sorry.
I forgave you and jumped back in headfirst.
You said you’d stop
If worse came to worst.
I was scared to admit I enjoyed your company,
Even if your attention was coerced.
No one second guessed our relationship,
Even at the worst.
I loved you,
Even with your outbursts.

It was like an awkward handshake
When I met him for the first time.
Others urged me to take a break
But I just indulged more, a lot more,
Give or take.
He didn’t seem genuine until he smiled.
The smile arrived by mistake,
It hit me in waves of heat that soaked in my veins,
Suddenly my life was at stake.
This wasn’t a nightmare,
I was in love, for heaven's sake.
Tiger Morphine is what we called him.
Sometimes tar, smack, or even heartbreak.
******

I fell in love with a feeling that would never last
My brain consumed Dopamine
On a straight track

I was satisfied with the feeling of
Living in the sky
But I became terrified
I didn’t want to die

Everything turned dark
All in one night
I went to heaven and back

Until I find somebody
To keep me comfortable
I’ll keep on using oxy

the search for purity clung onto the tingling feeling,
sinking deeper inside me with every breath.
the depthless feelings foreshadowed peace and relaxation,
it glided down my skin in clumps of electromagnetic waves.
the warmness that i never received as a child made its way to my furniture and onto me,
the heat made me feel complete and resided in me externally and internally.
a sense of security rushed over me, i believed i would feel this warm competence forever.
the overabundance of warm matter guided me to a place of purity.
every ache i had was flushed out in one long heat-wave throughout my whole body,
i finally found purity.