Wake up numb. Put on
Your best outfit. Skip breakfast.
Go to school. Walk on
Through the hallway, fast.
Don't text him first.
Try to concentrate in class.
Walk through the hall. See
him. Avoid eye contact.
Walk faster. Try not to flee.
Smile and don't overeact.
Don't text him first.
Go home. Write three
Texts for him. Never send
them. Ignore hole
in chest. Lay in bed condemned
to feeling heartache. Attempt damage control.
Don't text him first.
Cry without end.
Take nap. Wake up for dinner.
Push around food. Hear phone ring.
Get excited. It's not him. Have inner
struggle. Ignore friend. Feel a sting.
Don't text him first.
Leave rest of your dinner.
Go to room. Spend night
on computer. Listen to sad love
songs. Watch mindless tv. Fight
with yourself. Win, kind of.
Don't text him first.
Turn off the light.
Stay awake. Finally
cry. Live the rejection again.
Feel eyes blink heavily.
Crawl into the familiar domain.
Don't text him first.
Fall asleep numbly.