Some of us are outgoing
Some of us are shy
Some of us prefer shadows
Some of us prefer light
some of us say we're okay
Some of us are okay
Some of us don't have an option
So panic filled we accept it
Accept being anxious and shy
Hide from the light
Say we're okay
Because maybe one day
The panic won't consume us
We'll say goodbye to the shadows
as we step into the light
Someday we may be okay
So for now we accept it

I think I'm addicted
To this sad song
Because it reminds me of you
You're the touch of happiness
Surrounded by the sadness
Of knowing you'll never care about me

You're the melody
Everyone loves
I'm a lone note
No one would know was gone
You're loved
I'm not
So let the sad song play on

You have to take care of yourself
Watch out
Don't go out alone at night
be afraid of every noise
but why are you so afraid
you don't need to be frightened
you're just weak
it's nothing

So here I go again
I'm always wishing for tomorrow

Sometimes being me
Is unsatisfactory
Almost there
But not quite enough
And when running in circles
Gets too tough
I can't help it
I just give up

You say you're not good at art
but I've seen you create things
on your hardest days
and it's a masterpiece
knowing that the world is still so bright to you
Even at its darkest
And you are darling in the way
That you try to pick something
You love about yourself each day
Because you know great artworks
Aren't always beautiful as a whole

Always looking for a place to hide
Always looking for a way to run
Always looking to someplace where I'm not

I'm gonna write a poem
This time it wont be about you
It's harder then I thought
Write what you're feeling
Not my feelings for you
I've got this
Or not
You're not just my thoughts
You're my words too
Look I just wrote another poem
About you

She sat
Upset
Memories running through her head
Thoughts filled
With people and places
Voices speaking at insane paces
All a shred of something you once had
And as you said
She couldn't forgive them

I'm waiting for leaves to fall off trees
for art to fall at my feet
I'm waiting to wear baggy sweaters
to be wrapped in something cozy
I'm waiting for pumpkin pie
a delicious treat
I'm waiting for sipping on hot tea
my liquid warmth
I'm waiting for Autumn

You may not think that you are
But you are beautiful
You may not see that you are
But you are beautiful
People may not say that you are
But you are beautiful
You may reject it
But you are
And always will be
Beautiful

The first time you hear
"Beauty is pain"
Is when your mother is brushing tangles
Out of your hair
You're too young to care

The next time
Is when you're getting your hair done
For an event
Bobby pins everywhere
And this time it sticks

Your legs sting
After you shave them
For the first time
But you remind yourself
Beauty is pain
And go on with your day

You remind yourself again
As you pluck hairs
From your eyebrows
It helps you somehow

Beauty is pain
Your stomach growls
You haven't eaten
Because you want to be skinny
You want to be pretty

Beauty is pain
Is all you hear
When you walk into surgery
To change your face

Beauty is pain
Lingers in the back of your mind
When your boyfriend hits you
For the first time

One day you look in the mirror
All you see is pain
You wonder how it ended up this way

She sat
Cross legged
Tea in her hands
And just begged
That today would be a good day

Some people say true happiness exists
Some people say it doesn't
But what I say is I had the best night ever
Because it had you guys in it
So thanks for being the best friends
That could ever exist

In the blue
I get lost
It's more than just a thought
I'm not lost in daydream
Happiness for the time we stay
Blue sky
Why do you have to go away?
I need you
But at this hour
You've gone away
Come blue sky
Put a smile on my face

I guess it was only a matter of time
before I broke down
I guess I didn't expect to break down
in front of you
You've always seemed to be my light
when I was standing in the dark
You always have been easy to talk to
I just never expected to cry while standing by you

They wanted the truth
So I told them
But I guess it didn't please them
Because they tossed me aside
As if I was a broken toy
But look at us we're all broken
And we look at each other like we're not human
Just because we're messed up
And our feelings are confusing
But they treat us like we don't have any
Because to them we're all toys sometimes
So again they leave us
But who wouldn't, look at us
Leave me
And I'll be
Broken
Empty
Lost
But who cares?
So treat me like a broken toy
And I'll be forever gone

Sometimes I love this broken world
Sometimes I just love that it's broken too

I desire to be a bubble
All they do is float and pop
I desire to be something
Anything I'm not

I desire to be an age
Where I don't desire
I just play
Because it got taken away
Like a bubble wand
When you kept blowing on it
But the bubbles were gone

You may not know it
But you took me by the hand
And brought me to this adventurous land
Retaught me how to smile
How to really laugh
Then at night you go to rest
And in the dark
I shed a tear
Because you can't see
But maybe it's me who can't see
Because you always come back
And so I smile again
But I've been too blind to see that
But now I do
So I can laugh

I built a cage around myself
I built a cage made of self doubt
I built a key to open it
I locked it quick in panic
I threw the key as I was losing it
I soundproofed it so you wouldn't have to deal with me
Now I scream and cry
But you don't hear it
These cries for help don't reach you
I built a cage around myself
And all it caused was loneliness

It should mean a lot
Just to be able to call you a friend
But it hurts
It hurts more than just standing back
Because from the back
I could pretend
I could pretend that it was me
The one you wanted by your side
The one you wanted to hold
The one you wanted in your life
But really it's her
It's always been her
And I can see why
I can see why it's not me
You call me your friend
I call you mine
I'm happy enough with that
That it only stings some

In all that emptiness
Only once did I think I was lost
And that change of direction
Led me to where I belong

I always liked when it snowed
Because no matter how cold it was outside
I'd always have somewhere and someone
to keep me warm
And no matter how little I had
I'd always have something to give
And I'd wear a bow
Because the gift of family was enough
Why isn't it always like this

Roses are white
So are the violets
The walkway in the park is too
The only thing I can see clearly is you

I like you
I need to see you
I want you
I need to hug you
I need you
I can't have a conversation with you
when this keeps popping into my head

What is up with this?
I do want to know
Madness it's all I've known
Crazy?
I probably am
Oh well
This again?
Stop please
I guess not
Why can't the thoughts go away?

I create
This amazing life
In my head
To escape
And in this life
The one in my head
I'm still imperfect
I'm still sad
And I have
No one to trust
And I thank reality for that

I want to be creative
Correction
I want to have amazing streaks of imagination fill me
Until they flow out onto paper
And I want that everyday
I want the world to inspire me
I want to paint the world in a new perspective
To share it with you

We crumble and fall
While trying to prove we're alright
We live behind a wall
Because we're scared of the outside
We breath in our tears
So we can smile
We name others as fake
To replace the name
We're taught to fight
And we forget to love
Only as we die
Do we learn to live
Because living is less accepted
Than to merely exist
And living is just the start
To defying this game
Because to live as we want
We have to rewrite the game

It feels like I'm flying
Like I'm on top
I may not be the best
But I'm not trying to win
Music playing
Pulling me in
I might not be a dancer
But when I'm dancing
I don't want to stop

I'm the smell before rainfall
And you're thunder in a storm
And it's a strange kind of beautiful
When dark clouds come to play

Cold
Pale
So very dead
bury em up
And get back the fun
Halloween only happens
One day a year

I've seemed to fallen
In love with your words
But you're not your words
I was deceived at first
Then I felt like a fool
Because I cried over you
When I only knew your words

Please
Can I have a dark night
Or invisibility
I need to disappear right now

Can I help you get back
Back to where you belong
You've been placed the happy ones
Mistaken with cheerful
Oh it's a shame
They can't even see your tears fall
You're not annoying
You're not mean
You just want some attention
They ignore you
They cut you off
This isn't where you belong
You don't belong here
You don't belong

I jumped right in
I tried to swim
But i wasn't floating
I was falling
I flailed my arms
Up
Down
There seemed to be no direction
I was so used to gasping air in
I didn't realize it would let the water in
Now I'm with you
It seems like there is no direction
I try to talk
But the air disappeared from my lungs again
I feel like I'm drowning
You make me feel like I'm drowning

Please
I need help
I'm dying
Inside
But
Not out

Sometimes its easiest to let the world fall around us

Enjoy the silence
She said in a whisper
As the room kept getting dimmer
Enjoy the silence
They said as they fought her
Enjoy the silence
She said when she got hurt
Enjoy the silence
She cried in her pillow
Enjoy the silence
She repeated as the silent noise
Consumed her

Some wear
nooses as necklaces
And scars as bracelets
But the deeper the scars
the harder to erase them
But I on the other hand
Take all the pain in
Dying from this suffocation
But my pain is slowly erasing
mostly comes with the lack of sleeping
And if you see a smile on my face I mean it

Where do I fall into your life?
or is that all
do I just fall?

I wish I didn't feel so much
Because only now that I let you go
Does it truly feel like I'm falling

There is a monster in my head
It's feeding off my troubles
but for some reason
I don't want to let it go

Why is it
That you make me
Feel like this?

There are women against feminism
And I really don't get that
Feminism is about equal rights for men and women
And without that
I would spend my life suffering through the remark
"Get back to the kitchen"
Because it wouldn't be my place to deny that
And little girls would grow up
With their purpose in life to be
To look pretty
And have children
Without feminists
I would grow up and never get the chance to vote
Without feminism
It wouldn't matter if I had an education
As long as I looked good enough to get a husband
Isn't there something wrong with that
And feminism is around today
Because some men still look at women as objects
Because women can't dress nice
Without a male seeing it as an invitation
Because women who have *** are *****
But guys who have *** are praised
Because women get paid less than men
Feminism still exists because so does inequality
And men don't think I'm blaming you
I'm blaming the society
That uses a woman's body to sell anything from burgers
To perfumes
I'm blaming the society
That constantly photoshops women
I'm blaming the society
That blames the victim
I'm blaming the society  
That makes women believe feminism is wrong

It's been about 8 years
8 years since you've been gone
I know too well now that everyone dies
Everyone goes
Everyone says their final goodbye
Everyone takes their last breath
And are out of our sights
But when you died I was 6
I was a foolish little kid
I thought goodbyes never lasted that long
I thought that goodbyes couldn't last 8 years
And on

You can't fight fire with fire
So we got rid of the fire
But we couldn't get rid of the pain