i put my lips around my neighbours
car exhaust to see how it feels
to be a tree

no one tells you about the suicides
the biscuits tins
and fatherless fathers, fathering the biscuits tins

no one tells you about the *** workers
who work for biscuits
but paid in peanuts

walking through John Coltranes garden
hearing Nirvana
cause he likes them

wake up wanting to cut your ear off. the moons the only thing laughing at you for not being able to sleep. you're reminded of the eyes you've fell for. sway with them for a bit. drink red paint to ease the pain. cut it off. give it to some girl you just met. playing only the white notes on a piano. drink more paint. cut off the nose this time. give it some other girl you just met. read Tolstoy. to ease the pain.

I learned to trust
From the boys with the heart-eyed smiles
Who told me I was funny
And then waged war
on my body

I sat in the grass and pulled it out of the ground
And I pulled my heart out of my chest
and I chopped it up in bits to give out
'others need it more'
but now that it's all gone
what will I do with the hole in my chest?

I see her in the hall and my heart
flutters
I can't get enough of her
cherry lips
button nose
tigers eye stare
she is the reason I glow
she is the reason I love