i’m trying
i’m trying to be a better person
i’m trying to not ruin relationships like i did past ones
i’m trying to not make mistakes
i’m trying to not give up
i’m trying

it’s been 9 months and
i still dream about you at night
i still imagine you walking through that door
i still hope that text is from you
i still make up scenarios in my head about you
i still think about us and what we had
hell, you’re still constantly on my mind
do i still love you ?
i don’t know

"why did you lie to me all those times ?"
"cuz i didn't want to hurt you"
"well you do realize that you lying to me hurt me even more than if you had just told me the truth ?"
~g.f

the scars on my body
show that i've struggled in the past
that they were there when no one else was
now they have faded
because i have turned my life around
and the scars are no longer needed
to keep me going
~g.f

as i slowly fall asleep
i fell your warm body
holding me from behind
protecting me from my dreams
that always seem to come true