Mother peace on this fearsome journey
To the light as the moon stirs
Hidden truths in life and self
The pathway of rites and symbols
Connecting with the earth
Drawing strength looking for growth

Constant struggling from this untamed condition
Conscious colors on this earthly soil
A rupture full of sweet bouquets beneath the stone vines
As winter mornings assault me
Emerging like exotic wind with a last silent breath
I cocoon myself so I can stay within

Broken sky and fallen stars
I inject you in my veins and you go straight to my heart
It’s four a.m. and I can’t sleep
My secrets I shall keep
I  fall delicately yet severely  
I can’t remember the time
You slip me  pills
So I can forget
Forget the thrill and the shrill screams
The blood that ran almost still
You didn’t even see me ?
I was able to sneak up on you
You told me once you wanted me
So I came by to surprise you
I remember the feeling of looking into your eyes
When did you decide that you could overpower me
One little pill has no much control
I can see so much clearer
I feel like I’m gone
Should I carry on
The blades of grass scrap at my core
I stumble into the door
The thinking days are behind me
For I don’t exist anymore

Molecules of grief
With fistfuls of lunar moons
Uprooted universe departing this earth

I felt your face fade
Across the ruins against the sea
Whiskey edged cracks
As I gazed into the light
Picturing fields of poetry
Stroking the teeth of my spin
Frail stars trembling
As the roots trickle
Impatiently clustering the handfuls of voices that I unpeeled
Removing my lips with nothing to say
I glue my eyes with  convictions
I'm tilted on the edge of earth
Stuffing the truth down into the mass in my throat

Flying into fate
Undersea I will heave
Were bottomless as it appears
Handfuls of love
That I will hold
Attaching the root of my tears
Dusty jagged pieces of demise
Our nest has wings we wear in the night
Our cells are feeble
As I heave them into the sky
Climaxing without a sound
Between my hips unavailing the mystery of this love
Lily's dust the calloused roots of truth
Smoking sidewalks jagged and raw
Expressions grasped with humanity and bliss

I'm wounded by his kiss
This alleyway is isolated and adrift
No sanity in these streets
A growing seed filthy and bleak
Flooding me trying to find a home
The embryo sank
Violated all that I had
I hope for a angel in the womb
A starving intoxication  controls my brain
Scribbled thoughts wrote in my head
Panicked tears hypnotize me

Merciless tears hollow the cadavers
Amniotic fluid erupts heavy and pallid
In this sulfur of wildflower sea
Transparent flesh kissing the mouth of ashes
As the hours grow intense
Suicidal mouthfuls of a language down on my knees
Descending mysteriously in roots as the vines bleed
The noise of limitless feathers of the heavens

Pandemonium embarks to the unforgiving provider of the flames
Dancing constantly with poverty and shame        
Cremated, tangled, and warped
Fingers, hands, and arms
This creator has wronged

Eye shadow Kisses
Strawberry sundae hair
Wind burnt cheeks
Melting ice cream
Secrets spoke into shells
Flowered dress rising in the wind
Peaceful eyes that felt like summer

It is the summer of my seed
My time to taste the fire
A nest of kisses, lit by the summer moon
I  lay in the shadows of the  grass
My champagne hair rests into your lap
The river murmurs with peace
Your body like a maze that my fingers graze

You entice me, your desire is not unheard
It is the harbor of me that you will enter
Your hands are rugged, yet your delicate
Shuddering with fear of the unknown
Feeling my pelvis  tighten
You smell  of refined  honey
You induce waves into my spinning mind
Fevered, desirous twists and enrich
Your fingers glide  across my craving *******
My pink buds rise with your kiss
Savoring every profound trail you embark upon
Every layer you discover  intoxicates  me
Aching  with a frenzied hunger
Placing my fingers I fidget and skim the forbidden
I explore your arousal
I follow the curve of your arch with my  ***** lips
I stir  over the head of your manhood
Rotating and circling I feel you widen
Becoming devoted and curious I  increase my speed
I engorge and drink your ecstasy
Trembling as you ******
Aching to infuse me with lovers perfume

You  lay me down ,alluringly you nip at my thighs
As I covet for your  introduction feeling hypnotized
My flesh awakens, as my petal grows
Your tongue flutters across my silky spot
I'm  breathless and anchored
Euphoric gratification embraces my body

You  ease filling the inside of me
We blend together
Your manhood encounters my blossom
I inhale as feverish luster takes over
You caress the curves of my back
I moan with pleasure
As we discover one another ,we are the echo of our youth

Confined to this turbulent path
Ancient and hollow
Afflictions  in the  sweet frost  
A contorted reflection of the river is you
Snowflakes glistening, leaving prisms in the sky
The  certainty of  winter  resuscitates  ones  vitality
The  greater we flutter  
The higher we fly

Yellow embryos famished
Shadows gnarled oak
Thickets of winter ambush my walking feet
Wooded ghosts begin to appear
Thinking of surrendering to death, So I can feel alive
Unbalanced earth swarming and sunken
Living in the corners with the voices  
Covered in patchwork and books
The dance with death is relentless

Ingesting my spine as it drips away
As the lingering scars defeat
Panic breaths force me awake

Drowning in small town talk
Coming undone in everyone else's eyes
With paper cuts on my mind

I find my way during this insanity
Heave my soiled bones
Why do you hold me under every time I try and resurface?
Is it that hard for you to see me appear?
Heartless and insensible
I carve you out of my mind
Out of my skull with the edge of your dull spirit
Why don’t you do the same?
Move forward forget all the lies
I have nothing left for you
It is what use to be but nothing remains  
Time has moved and so have I
I refuse to be swallowed by your insecurities
I have lived so long in the bottom of you
Hiding the way
I felt to appease you
To pacify your own fears
Your misery has become my healing
Nothing left but a bruise

Hypnotized with a madness
Drifting, shattered,  and shifting
The storm clouds fall upon my eyes
Numbness trying to engulf the atrocious pain
Eternal bitter tears that I can't sense anymore
The dust swirls following me to my death
Threads of heaven blooming,  linking them together
I'm ready to depart let the whirlwind carry me away

Fevered lips
Hungered hips
My swollen teeth eat your *******
Your bones lay upon me
As you ******* milk
Humid thighs that know my secrets
Distended belly
That continues to crave
You and I

Caged with a seductive regret
We magnetically connect
With old open wounds
We have perfected  heartbroken qualities
I reminiscence soaking the sheets
And smelling your taste
Enchanted fingers that knew love
We tangled together in honey
Chaotic with flaws
Burning deeper with a fevered rush
As destination spins I overflow

Dust off the death of hunger  
I will be a beautiful corpse

I added my breath to you
So you could survive for a while
I jumped inside your body and held you shut
Sleeping against your ribs causing you pain
But you insisted I stay
I used the blood that you created and flowed into your heart
I swam through heartaches and troubles
Tried to find a place that held no misery
Inside your veins I recognized you
But it was lifeless and dark, a place I have been within my own heart
I don’t want to stay out of contempt
I swallow every ounce of air you bleed
The taste of greed
But its times you release
I dive out of your core
You can’t feed on me anymore

Speak to the voices that live in your head
Proclaim all your secrets
So you can taste your bed
The fragile interior allows me
Reality unsettles me
As I try and come down from outer space
I’m just a displaced trace of nothing in its place
Calm your worn bones
Place them with me
Twist and distort the circles above your head
The tension you feel keeps you high
Rest your vertebrae let me sew you to sleep
Give me your veins and blood and such
I still can't find sleep
Why wont you let me erase?
Minutes and hours became my enemy
Slumber will come
Don't fret just reflect
A coma may come soon in this lack of your empty space
Lethargic if you may

The fear inside shakes me
Tormenting me
With it's cold touch
Twisting my soul
And tearing my love
Hiding underneath my blouse
Caressing my trembling raw and ****** bones

Bloom into my cherry sea
With Fevered lips losing my way
As desperate kisses come unglued
Drink my honey milk
Dance ,swim , and sway in circles that enchant the way
******* into spiderwebs
Fingers dissipate with no trace

Dying as my eyelashes weep
Blazing dangerously in this heat
Blinding champagne spilling from the stars
Weaving hands into seconds
With the sound of the seeds
Teeth with wings that will never be seen
Oppressing the quivering restlessness
Scraped shadows unspill
Plucked colors of poison
With flesh like pockets of me

The warmth of the tangled sea
On the peak of the clouds
As the mystically creature turns to dust
As the lights of the earth burns out
Thousands are restless and weak
Immense pulverized anguish
As the ancient kingdom is spiritually sore
Unraveling the conscience seeds
Clinging to this deep discombobulated world
Fretfull and distured
Ashamed of my truth

I’m just a weak mild bird
That is so fragile
If I cry my feathers weep
I’m nothing fancy
In fact I have no shine
I once had wings and I could fly
But that ended long ago
As you can see
Please close your eyes keep the secrets from me
Today I wish not to be found
I’m a nighttime bird with nighttime blues
Watch me gradually flow away
If only you knew

I don't want magnetic eyelashes
I want magnetic poetry
No Botox for me
Let me wrinkle let me age
It's alright to become who I'm suppose to be
Don't want fake extensions my hair is its own
It will grow out one day at a time
No need for microblading, highlights or ****** scrubs
Won't curl my lashes or disguise my wrinkles
My skin can tell my story through native lines
The burden of beauty is a fools game
I shall use my smiles lines as a accessory
Wrinkle creams will not fix your personality
I refuse to fake fuller lips
Acid peels are not for me
Cheek fillers full of botulism
Skin lasers to erase me
Hair removal will be with a five dollar schick
Keep your tanning beds and keep your Melanoma
Don't need Chanel or Louis Vuitton not paying 2,000 dollars for a handbag
I will be just me

I feel sloshed but I'm sober
Now I drink you up
I could trample your ribs and vertebrae
Inhaling you into my brain
You could live here for awhile
Feeling you beneath my skin
Kicking to get relief
I feel real
On this carousel that spins with relief
I frolic and feast on your meat
Consuming you with much greed

As her blonde hair twirls into the sun
As he spins her, her dress looks like a kaleidoscope
They dance as he strokes her face
This love is not easy to find
There seem to be no sounds
On the wings to set sail
I want to collect a future for you and me
Through continents and back home
When shifting winds grind at our core
Infecting our love but rage we leave alone
Like cracks in a sidewalk, we all have flaws
As the years move on our backbone begins to descend
We still make love, but with the sounds of our voice
We smile at one another, daydreaming about the past
We're growing older as our eyes become cloudy
Our memories parted ways
You looked so heavenly that morning
I became fearful without you
You're the lace of a golden summer
The stillness in the sea, weary and forlorn
I take comfort in knowing that we cherished every day
The steps that we took through changing times
We were together, I don't regret a single day

When I was just a young child
I wanted to fly
Touch the sun and kiss the sky
Everyday at noon
I would run through the fields and play
That was before it was all grey
When my story didn't fade
I could close my eyes and escape
When the birds would whisper and play
Before things were gray
Before I lost my place
I use to dream of a place where peace lived
Now there is a storm in every corner of my place
Loneliness is so vivid and real
Just wish the clouds of darkness would pass me by
I have to believe that the breeze will talk to me
Give me answers and give me faith

The confusion sedates me
Mirrors reflect me
And I with my pain
Want to be ignored
A sinking beauty
The death daze
Forgotten and denied  
The psychosis air alluring me
My mouth hides from you
Stifles the pain
Broken angel wings that refuse to fly away
Brittle ribs with no edge
My teeth bleed
I created a place for me to be safe
This battle of mine
Consumes no calories
Hating every ounce
Non existent energry
But I'm thin and shallow
Watch me die
Let me burn
My ashes will be spread
What little is left
Let the birds eat away at me
Building a nest

Clusters of afflictions drizzled with disarray  ,twisting into the bitter earth
As the steps of earth splinter, the scars repent
Winds of sins circle the perimeter of faith
Sea sprayed lungs obliterate
Stars gravitate as the blackness clambers
The moonlight fractured and flawed
Howling obscurities  beneath the derangement
As the flow of crimsons rush
I forbear my subsistence

Starless eyes
Ragged and forbidding
Teeth of tears
Flamed and striped for fear
The flesh is an illusion
Repugnant as it is revealed
Savage winds carry me away
Constrains me when I die
The curse of annihilation's
In circles I can't keep  
A shroud that stifles the delicate truth
The departed in white discomposure
In pain I flee

The wind of the lines
Words that are unhinged and woeful
Vunerable enslaved with fear
As my anger grows heavy
Yet I guilt myself into you

My pretty red lipstick is ruined
Covered in your cheap sticky *******
Having me feel shamed
You don't handle rejection
My guts are shattered
You make me eat the blame
Harrasing me until I'm lifeless
Then you mock me
As I spill my veins

A nudging hunger
As the dandelions weep
My mouth staggers
Ripe with madness
Masking the oppression
Harboring the withered deprivation
As the bones eat your flesh
In the distance where shadows speak
The lighting stroke melts
Contorting the imperfections
The obscured carcass you claim
.

Petals diving through my spine
A wind of intoxication
Idles in my bones
When I'm with you I'm not distressed
Plunging away at the sun
Jasmine climbing the vines
I Gorge on the essence of you
The flesh of your fingers provoking conviction
The frenzy tangled into our core
I want to be sunk inside of you
Floating to get a authentic glimpse

You are you the anemia in my heart
Where human remains start
A journey into harmony with a spirited flame
Whipping into tranquility a fascinating rein
Trying to survive beneath a powdery substance, pollen
Bellowing with distress
With hands on the face of God with a righteous value
Licking the language of music that barely exists
Bare shadows, disfigured, and executed
Battered into the desolate cold grave
The salvation sickens me alive
Memories  are  measureless
The sun gasps into soulless sounds
As the spirits surround me crying as I fail
Demise while you're young
With redemption you sacrifice
The night begins to spill away, slain by the sun

The music dances in the light
In the corner someone holds a microphone
I don’t seem to know anyone here
The whiskey taste so fresh
My head is not so clear
I close my eyes hoping to find some part of me
I often wonder if someone is watching me?
Seeing the imperfections in my face
Studying  my eyes and singing me the blues
Its hazy in here as I inhale the stale air
Gasping for a reason to survive
I can hear glasses clanging people yelling “cheers”
My head disappears soon my heart will follow
The time seems to stand still
I look around the room
I see myself in the womb
So restful and secure just a little soul with no cares
I bathe in this water not yet affected
Have not lived does not yet know the worries of fear

Impotent wedged flaws
Wrathful and miserable
As you drip pungency to feel secure
The blood slices are passed out for the mourners
Your vulgarly suspended in the air
All your misdeeds that you refused to see
Your secrets didn't shrink or disappear
I want to assassinate your cartilage one peel at a time
The deceptions you entrenched me in are bleak,fatal and weak
Your just a obscurity that nobody needs
Paralyzed into the horizon line
Close to the pale sky
Although no matter how hard you try
You'll never get there

As you distort me
Eating me away
Crush my bones inhale them in a line
**** me away
Tell me a fable
Turn the time
Taste the rain
Let go of the past
I long to release these tears
Disillusioned to the truth
Consume the cells to my heart
The marrow of my path
Galvanize me with your current
Intoxicate my brain
Carve at my scars that you gave