**** im
putting you through hell
refusing to see the human in you
refusing to believe anything at all

yet you’re strength
i mean: you are strength
you compensate
for my lack thereof

ive crashed into you for 3 years now
a recurring tidal wave
fell for your addict eyes long ago
love the clean ones just the same

you are my memories
you’re everything in me
you’re the courage i’ve found recently
  i don’t give you enough credit.

she was looking for love in all the right places
but her mother said the devil can take many faces

she ruined herself but still loved him the same
choosing him over her own family name

she pleaded her innocence to no avail
so she sat and just watched her whole life derail

she lost her way in trying to find "the one"
she loved the thrill but chasing all of them is done