a thousand days have passed
different lips pressed on my cheek
and your lips on her forehead

your worn clothes don't fit you anymore
so as your hand in mine

my memory has become entirely blank
of the feelings
deepest feelings you gave
and left me--
warmth of your arms
heat when our bodies wrap
the electric feel of your long fixed look
every twinge of pain in my heart
almost everything

but your scent lingers in air sometimes
I can still remember
how you smell
with your favourite perfume
with your natural scent
with your sweat
without me

There’s this feeling again.
Like petals and teardrops,
I am falling.
I let someone in, and they destroy me-
leaving me, crushing every part of me.
I am scared.
I am restless.
I am starting to build walls around my heart,
starting to get lost in my thoughts,
and in the deepest corners of my soul.