True to the stars
My heart like a crab
With a faux hardness
But with a simple twist
Everything falls apart

My heart has a hole
For fear and rejection
Makes it bigger and wider
Im stuck in that darkness
Unable to cry out
Because no one is listening

I’m so tired
Of being responsible
Of trying hard
Of being accountable
I just want to stay in bed for weeks
Eat till i feel sick
Scream and cry and hit the pain away
Till my skin is black and blue and hurting all over

love is like going to the convenience store
spoilt for choice
love expires with one too many dates
like a bag of rotten artichokes
we choke on cringey first-liners
And fill our heads with expected desires
Of one hit wonders and lifetime memberships
To a loyalty card that doesn’t exist



29/08/08

The smell of bed hair
a gentle reminder
of cloudy mornings spent

An unshaven face
coarse to touch
but melts my heart
all the same

A deep exhale
of how long it’ll last
not long soon after
this playful love dance
ends too fast.



Prologue:
A dance of ignorance
A game of who loved less
With silence our paths
Stay unchanging
With my heart unattended
Is it you that is missing?




28/10/08

Sunset on the road
instrumental jazz swaying
and its you that I’m missing
Or is it just your legs
Intertwined with mine

A kiss swept across my cheek
A hand steady on my back
Your voice keeping me
very much in love
With sounds of your voice

Thoughts of you linger
Seeping through the cracks
Clouding up my mirrors
Faint whispers say yes

Hopes of a future it offers
Sweet temptations of the Devil
Ravenously chasing after thoughts
Constantly fearing what its not
Reality blurs quickly as i see
The distances between you and me

The day i stop writing of you
Will be when your face
Disappears from my heart’s view

This is why I loved you
So silly yet so kind
But you will never
Again always be mine

I wonder sometimes
If you’ll be alright

Because
To be alone in this world
It’s a never ending fight

I hope we both will be well
To soon find great love again

I will never forget the days
Shared between us
Where time for us
Stood still