you are the river
in which i drowned
you are the
broken record
in which i
played

you are the painting
in which i was mesmerized
you are the masterpiece
in which i loved

I can be your punching bag
Or a shoulder to cry on
All those tears you cried
I can be your perfect girl
Or the mess you seem to be
If we take a step forward
We can rule this world
Whatever it takes
You know I'll be
Adjusting me
To be the puzzle piece
That you so desperately need
I would be anything for you
The best there is
Or the worst mess
Together we are a team
As long as you're with me
Then I'll be here for you
No matter what we
Seem to go through
I can't give up on you
You push me away
Constantly
We used to be
Bestest friends
But now it feels
Like it's all come to an end
You're mean on purpose
It's the main reason I relapsed
I fell apart last night
I talked to you
While I was crying
You kept bragging
About your best friends
And my heart was breaking
Then you told me
That I was ****
And it's hard to believe
That you once loved me
You saved my life
But ultimately broke me
This cuts into me like a knife
We used to speak for hours
But now we speak a few times
Every other week
And I cannot sleep
Because of you
I see you in my dreams
It's the opposite of everything
Can't pretend I'm coping
I miss you so bad
Why did you have to act out
I lost so much, I lost
My best friend
You let it all
Burst into flames
And now we are the dust
On the concrete pavement

Your life is stained with cigarettes and whiskey,
Drunken calls late at night to tell me that you miss me,
You like to think we'll take you back,
But we'll leave you drowning in a bottle of Jack,
Family? You don't know the word,
We're better off without you,
Because Susan you'll never learn.

Sit back down and I'll tell you a story,
About how you've ****** up and never said sorry,
About how you said you'll always be here,
But it was the bottle of ***** whispering in your ear,
Feeding you words to say out loud,
Telling me how you were always proud,
Are you even aware of what you say?
All slurred and blurred as your mind decays,
Deluded,
Always secluded,
From the place you're meant to call reality,
Psychotic,
Idiotic,
Blinded by your negative morality.

Susan my dear, you're just another cavity,
Another gaping hole in what was supposed to be your family,
You chose to cower and hide away,
From your past that caused so much pain,
Take a trip down memory lane,
Just face the guilt and face your neglect,
Because thanks to you it had a nasty effect,
On those I adore and cherish everyday,
At least we have realised old habits never change.