The birds fly free over the oceans surface,
circling the waters edge.
          You are the ocean and I am the bird,
          I may take the plunge, but you have
          to be willing to supply a fish.
Without you I would starve.

Can someone please help me?
I have this girl here.
She is bleeding right from
the heart.
I can't seem to find a band-aid
big enough to stop the blood
from pouring out of her chest.
She is screaming. Please help me.
I need to make her better.
Someone please, tell me which
bandage to use. Someone please,
get me the first aid kit.
Please help me fix this girl.
Please.

Another left,
another's gone,
my brother's tears,
my sorrowed song,
time is fleeting,
time is lost,
death touched his hand,
death's final cost.

put out my light
put out my light
as Othello did to Desdemona
no crimson painted on porcelain skin
from false betrayal found within.

put out my light
put out my light
allow my body to sink in the deep
my skin will shimmer under pulsing tide
only a ghost, my guiltless soul has died.

put out my light
put out my light

...and I love you so much,
I want to keep you safe,
your words are protected with me,
no harm will come your way,
and if it does we will battle each demon,
together we will fight them down,
our hands may get ******,
we may gain some scars,
but at the end of the day
we will be the ones on top,
i'll kiss yours, you'll kiss mine,
battle scars of silver lines,
history in flesh of our own battles,
together in our passion filled life.

The overwhelming sensation that takes over my body
when I am no longer in control
but knowing that she has everything under control
is the sexiest feeling my body has known.

I woke up wanting to kiss you...
oh wait, I never went to sleep,
and if you were missing me in your dreams
it's because you were walking on moonbeams with me.

You've not yet left my thoughts,
not once since the first time we spoke,
and that's no exaggeration, baby,
I would crack under the pressure of that tasteless joke.

But how can I sleep,
your name keeps ringing in my ears,
you're like one of those bees you want to swat away but you're too cute
and you help make the flowers grow so how the hell could I say 'no'?

These flowers that you planted in my chest
keep me rooted but my petals are always willing
to take flight on your flitting wings to new lands
because adventuring with you would be the best new beginning.

And at the end of the day we'd collapse into bed
and you'd whisper, 'buzz, buzz, buzz,' in my ear
right before you pull my lips to yours and kiss me
but there you go again drifting off to sleep.

When I look at your poems
sprawled out on the page,
my eyes form constellations
out of periods and comets out of commas.

*Writing to rid yourself of the pain,
light shines through at the ending of each rhyme.

When I look out
at the ocean
and see her light
glimmering off
it's blackened surface
I think to myself
how silly I was to
ever want to sink
into the darkness
and let my life escape.

Instead I should
drink each drop
so that her light
can flow through
my veins and
cleanse my heart;
I swear it beats
only for her, only for her.

And maybe then
she will see what
I've done and forgive
me for leaving her
and collide with the sun
so that both souls may
escape from the bodies
that have imprisoned
them and kept them
apart and that they may
finally find one another
and rest together selfishly
as the world is left in darkness
but their love forever glows.

Caught in a web made of thread spun from criticism and regret,
arachnids leisurely devouring skin from exposed bone,
a life made from those who have chided every step,
no escaping the entanglement,
no shelter from the ones who are meant to render love,
instead only malice is displayed over actions they refuse to forget.

Searching hopelessly for love on abandoned webs,
finding only others broken who were lost in translation,
the foul scent of decaying bodies ripped apart,
giving their lives to those who broke them down,
rotting skeletons of memories shattered on cobwebs undusted,
coming alive and putting faith in others broken who can be trusted.

I need you.  You have invaded my heart
like an army looking for bloodshed in the
most important battle of the war.
You have left my heart ripped open,
dripping the hot blood of the most crimson
red the world has ever seen.
My veins are reworking themselves to spell
out your name.  Look closely,
you can see them through my translucent skin.

I'm reaching out for you but the air is cold.
The oxygen that fills my lungs smells of only ice.
No one is near, you're so far away.
I can't stay with you.  You are warm, I am cold.
You're wrapped up and I'm abandoned.
You sleep well with the ghost of another,
I don't sleep. Empty spaces in my bed,
empty spaces in my heart.

Don't talk to me like that; I can't take it.
I fall.  Don't talk to me.  I can't take it.
I fall. Each word that comes out of your mouth.
I trip on it, I lose my grip. I fall. My balance lost
forever with you. I fall. I'm in love. I fell.
And i'm still so cold.
And my heart is still bleeding.

What am I feeling? I can't do this.
I can't.
Everyone is right. What am I doing?
I feel empty.

I won't be able to sleep tonight.

My black tulip kept me up all night.
     Her eyes were in the back of my head
     Her lips were on the tip of my tongue.
     If only she'd been in my bed, she'd know how much I'd hate to run.

I cut out my own heart
It's bleed...

You have the world at your fingertips and
inside there is an entire universe that I was
ready to explore. To find the deepest cracks
and brush my soft fingers along their jagged
edges so they could remember what it felt
like to feel whole. To press my lips to the
water's edge and set it on your tongue so
you would forget the ache of your thirst.
I'd take your heart in the palm of my hand
and massage every weak spot to remind
you that each heartbreak made you stronger.
Your bones kept you walking, and your
muscles, like gravity, brought you
right to me.

My sleepy eyes search for hers,
as my arm reaches across the empty bed
and I find the pillow still indented from her pretty head.

A hollowness instantly makes my stomach tight,
afraid she's gone without any goodbye,
without her cuddles, I would die.

In this moment I hate the white of the sheets
no longer stained with shadows of her bodies curve,
the sun even shining displays its nerve.

Footsteps in the hall give my heart a start,
the door swings slowly open and a smile forms
as her lips part.

My arms reach out, my lips don't move,
from her throat soft giggles rise
and I feel her light touch my sleepy eyes.

The crisp air sends goosebumps to cover my body,
as she pulls off the blanket to get back into bed,
I pull her in close and turn blue into red.

Let's build a fort out
of pillows and blankets
and holey sheets and stuffed
animals and couch cushions.

Let's go climb some trees
and jump in a strangers
pond with all of our clothes
still on.

Let's go catch the fireflies
in the middle of an open
field on the  hottest
night in July.

Let's dance around campfires
and drink until we fall over
into the grass.

Let's fall asleep in the dewy
green as we look up at the
stars trying to figure out our future.

Let's stay this way forever,
let's never grow old,
let's grow young together.

I met you outside
on a cold autumn day; your
gaze kept me warm, love.

God, save my soul,
I'm guilty of the crimes I've been accused,
as my sentence, I confess my sins, give into my pride.
I'll leave you in the morning, like an act of suicide,
a constant burden turns into your heavy loss.
Your trust in me was betrayed the moment I said I'd stay,
out of respect, all that's left is to walk away.

thank you for staying,
you mean the world to me,
i'll tell you everyday,
as long as you know,
it doesn't matter if you feel the same,
you'll win it all,
you may sometimes fall,
but you'll end up on top,
you were made to change world,
you were made to change it all.
all my faith is in you,
your beauty is crystal clear,
when you talk about the stars,
i can see the universe being held in your two hands.
you have all of these plans,
the good in you radiates,
your soul is pure,
your love, real,
i've not met someone like you,
you are most definitely one of a kind.

She's got a coke face on
like her nose is about to bleed
she's lost in her twisted world
consumed by lies and greed.

Believing that she has it all
I laugh because I watched her fall
her beauty is now lost and gone
and her sorrows she pretends to drown.

Her skull, it shows, there's nothing left,
thin skin lining bone, she's dancing with death.
She's empty and numb, her dreams falling like snow,
sleepwalking through life, she's losing herself to blow.

You stopped talking to me.
....no, really talking.
Where are you?
        Where did you go?
How could you leave
         without actually leaving me?

This skin is alive,
but I wish it were rotting
beneath the soil,
roots forming between
my rib cage,
rain draining the blood
from my veins,
birds stealing hair for
their chickadees pillows,
insects burrowing behind
old kneecaps.

*This life has no meaning so I give my life to those who could use it.

I miss you so much,
it physically pains me
to not be able to talk to you.

It is as if an astronaut came along
and snatched all of the stars out of
the night sky, and the moon
is left to weep and cry.

It is as if the fisherman caught
all the fish in the sea,
and the ocean's only purpose
left is to wash up on the beach.

It is as if a lumberjack took an axe
to each tree,
and the earth can no longer breathe.

The beauty taken selfishly to be enjoyed,
leaves the viewer endlessly craving it's return.

I miss you,
come back to me,
I'll be here waiting,
painfully, patiently for you to come home.

This soul is covered in ash left behind
from those who've burned me with their selfish lies
with matches in hand and flawed regrets they stand
as they watch the heat that chars my bones
and melts away the last heart-string I own.

No going back, they can't change this obscenity
they made their choice when they walked away,
my love was in their hands,
the love that encompassed my entire being,
now I am forced to give what's left to the dark,
the dark I've been forever running from,
the death I will now gladly welcome.

From my soul I cast my light,
upon the world and silver night,
I dance among the calla lilies
and throw my head back with delight.

I am a man on a lonely raft,
dehydrated in the middle of the open ocean
I float on.
You are the sparkling saltwater,
enticing me, crystal clear.
*If I indulge, I'll die.
If I resist, I'll die.

I thought i'd be better
without you,
but it's just getting harder
as the days pass by,
the clock ticking fast,
my heartbeats racing past,
your face burning in my mind,
the time is making me blind.

I thought i'd be better
without you,
your soul burning bright,
sends me shivering in the night,
as I rock back and forth,
praying for your words to reach me,
wishing that you'll want to keep me.

I thought i'd be better
without you,
my lungs cease to breathe,
my eyes in searing pain
as my mascara tears fall.

I thought i'd be better
without you,
feelings growing strong,
knowing I can live without you
makes me want to never be,
makes me want to stay,
but not the way that you want me.

I will have to remain without you,
will I fair? *I will have to try.

You are the closest thing
I have to a star.

I was so warm when I was with you,
you surrounded me with light,
you helped me find happiness in the rotting cracks,
I found love between the pages of books with you,
it's all burned away now.

Tonight I looked up
and searched for you in the sky
hoping to find you looking down on me
while you slept with sadness dancing behind your eyes.
Tonight I found you way up high
reflecting the sun's light into darkness
I found comfort watching you shine.
Tonight I saw each crater etched into your skin
you didn't try to hide them
you let all of my love in.
Tonight I faced my fears
and I let each one of them go
as your glowing surface uncovered my path
and I found my way home.

My tears are the
drops of saltwater,
splashed onto seashells
that wait to be dragged back
into the ocean, but the tide
always fall short.

My cries are the
winds, whistling through
cracks and drowning out
the children's laughter on
the cool summer day.

My fingers are the crustaceans,
roaming the beach, looking for
comfort, but only finding themselves
preyed upon by the enemy.

Her eyes.
Her eyes are the sky,
shifting from dark to light.
Confused, broken, hurt.
Happy, laughable, loving.

Her words.
Her words are the lightening,
striking down; such
beautiful destruction.

And her laugh.
Her laugh is the music
that filters down to the beach
from the pier, just enough to
make you feel like you're home.

It was a cold day,
overcast with a few rain showers here and there,
I picked you up from Penn Station,
dragged you to the subway steps,
led you down the tunnel, onto the train.
You asked me where we were going,
I wouldn't let you in on the secret.
One train. Another train...
You saw the last stop and knew
right where I was taking you.
Coney Island.
You looked from the sign,
then back at me,
your eyes lit up right then,
a smile crossing your face,
you knew i'd been trying to get you there.
We took the long train ride,
Manhattan to Brooklyn,
a quiet ride,
we enjoyed each others silence,
only feelings left to feel.
Finally pulled into the station,
'Mermaid Ave.' read the sign,
our kinda place, this was our time.
The boardwalk was practically empty,
on this cold and windy day,
everyone taking shelter from the rain.
I led you to the beach,
the sand hollowed from the drops that fell,
you looked at me doubtingly,
asking with your eyes,
'how will this help?'
I pulled off my green sweater,
you looked at me in shock,
threw you a smile,
off with my boots,
you stood there,
watching me undress,
not knowing what to do,
not knowing my next move.
I was down to my bra and *******,
goosebumps covered my flesh,
you laughed at my pale skin and it's contrast to the sand.
I ran over to you,
lifted you up,
you started to scream when you realized,
every intention of mine was to get you into the water,
the salt that is so addicting,
just like your name on my lips,
you made me set you down,
and so that's just what I did.
I ran into the water,
screeching the whole way in,
you laughed at me,
stopped abruptly,
knew that I was reminding you
of who you used to be.
I watched from the water as you stripped down,
you came running after me,
tears streaming,
not a sound.
You waded right to me,
stopped face to face,
I pulled you in my arms telling you everything'd be ok.

Laughter heard in the dead of night,
deep in the forest one could see a faint light,
drawn to the shadows of the wooded glen,
an enchanting gathering takes place here every now and again.

Creeping silently in the dark,
the crisp air, the smell of aged bark,
one glance and it's clear,
it's the pixie's time of year.

One large circle of mushrooms in a meadow,
broken twigs laid out, making a dainty shadow,
spiderwebs laced around flowers and leaves,
now the faeries crawl down from the very tall trees.

Translucent skin, they're white as snowflakes,
swiftly moving as each body awakes,
they greet each other, kisses on the cheek,
each one with their outfits, looking very unique.

Pale skin giving off a faint glow,
not one of them looking above or below,
all concentration on right here and now,
no limit put on the laughter they allow.

Bare feet glide through the dewy green grass,
their eyes burning bright with each song as they pass,
the dancing seems to go on forever,
their rhymes are so funny, so tricky, so clever.

The most mystical thing one could lay eyes on,
the dancing faeries from night until dawn,
no more joy in the world could ever be seen,
than with these pixies twinkling eternally.

Thread wound from petals of black tulips line her soul
As she dances in the moonlight her silver lining starts to glow.
Her pale, glistening skin making love to the night
My mind escapes reality as my eyes regain their sight.

No matter how much she tears me down
She hit me like magic
I'm under her spell.
She'll leave me every time but i'll keep coming back
Enchanted by her madness i'm imprisoned by her grip
And i'm ******* black magic.

It's all of her imperfections that hide in her mind
As she creeps in the shadows her hearts beating black and she's swallowed by her pride
But my thoughts still surround her and she laughs as I cry.

One day my eyes'll roll back in my head and my heart will sink in her poison and i'll drown in India ink as she pokes her lies into my skin tattooing my soul with her malicious grin and i'll still be ******* black magic.

No matter how much she tears me down
She hit me like magic
I'm under her spell.
She'll leave me every time but i'll keep coming back
Enchanted by her madness i'm imprisoned by her grip
And i'm ******* black magic.

I should write about it,
I should write about you,
the way you left me,
your best friend,
without any reason,
with accusations thrown like knives
to protect yourself from the cuts
slashed into my back instead
the scars that spell out your name
veins left severed to bleed
stain my white sheets red now when I try to rest.

don't leave me in
           the morning,
stay forever.
           you are my everything.
my world,
           my universe.

If I can't find you in this lifetime,
I'll find you in another.
I'll wait for you forever,
you'll always be my lover.

My trust in you is beyond words,
I hope it's not in vain,
I hope your trust in me is just the same.

My love for you is out of this world,
you kept me sane when I needed you,
I hope your love for me will shine right through.

My generosity towards you is genuine,
no strings attached, nothing to win,
I hope you realize it's not a sin.

My lack of fame shows it all,
without yours would you be here to see me fall?
Your fame wasn't needed,

*to meet was our fate, no other explanation is needed to recall.

she insisted she was the moon,
but i told her she was every star in the sky.
she burned so bright in the darkness that consumed her.

Hello, you,
I cannot sleep,
you fell fast
before I could
even say goodnight.
I hope your dreams
are sugary sweet,
like eating
candied apples
with views
of autumn leaves.
I'll let you rest
your little head
upon your warm
and cozy bed,
no disturbance
from me, you'll see,
instead i'll leave this
poem here for you,
the one you'll never read.