I AM SO ANGRY
WITH YOU
AND WITH ME
AND IT FEELS ALMOST AS THOUGH
YOU LEFT YOUR HANDS
IN MY CHEST WHEN YOU
REACHED IN
TO STEAL MY HEART
AND NOW THEY'RE ACHING
TO BE FREED
AND I CAN FEEL THEM CLAWING
INSIDE OF ME
AND I CAN FEEL THEM
REACHING UP MY THROAT
SUFFOCATING ME
REMINDING ME
THAT YOU'RE NOT HERE ANYMORE
THAT YOU WERE NEVER HERE
TO BEGIN WITH

You told me to write into the dark spaces
Because that's where the good stuff is at
But how can I when I am terrified of the darkness
How can I when I sleep with the light on

I am in
so many different
kinds of pain
this morning. Don't
worry, though, I
have no intention of
disrupting the peaceful
start to your lovely
day. Here, watch
me grit my
teeth into a smile.

My body is a patchwork of bruises, scars and jagged pieces that don't fit quite right
My mind is a ****** tapestry woven with threads drenched in hurricane waters

The day I was born a typhoon made a war zone out of my city  
An earthquake shook its very foundations as I came out kicking and screaming
Since my first breath I've been looking for a fight
The world never did disappoint

Time and time again the world has thrown punches straight to my face
And left open gashes where most mothers placed kisses
The world has stabbed me in the chest over and over 'til the ache felt like a part of me

I wear my scars like a coat of armor
I hold my head high and proud
And try to ignore the fact the every breath hurt

I believed I was indestructible and maybe there was a time you thought yourself unbreakable too
But I still hold on to my delusions as tightly as I can
With bleeding hands that refuse to let go

I refuse to let go

I am a force of nature and pain has been etched into my veins
I am unstoppable
I am a roaring inferno
Nobody can take that away from me