Every time I see you my heart drops and my hands get shaky;
I'm still attracted to you although your ******* shady.
I wish you would have been a different person, but you were filled with lies;
I remember the times I would fantasizes that you were just a good ******* guy,
that we could just be together;
Be one forever.
I would of loved you until my heart stopped beating,
Until there was no more life inside me breathing;
And I hope that one day I can find that crazy in love feeling again but with someone who actually deserves it,
Not with some ***** who just got up and left me deserted.
-E.G

So I ***** these words, these absurdities I cant cope with
This sorrow I feel cant begin to reveal,
the deep rooted pain that drives me insane
I cant breath I'm suffocating
contemplating
this life of mine
Where I fantasize
of the day
when all this pain will float away
-E.G

You know those times when you feel like dying,
like this world has nothing to offer, nothing worth trying..
Bored of life maybe,
actually just bored of the sight of me
bored of the same **** over and over of something I'm trying so hard to be...
Man.. like ****..why is it so hard to be what I want be..
-E.G

If there's one thing about me is that I don't take no ****,
I rather break my own heart and cut it into bits
If you doubt me for a moment and think I won't disown this,
I will cut you out my life like the things I truly despise
So please be careful because my love is explosive,
Its something just far too ferocious...
-E.G

There are certain things in life that bring me comfort,
like cloudy days with a hint of breeze,
hot chocolate and a movie on a rainy day,
candle lit room on a thundering night,
a boyfriend kissing my eyes gently,
drinking a soy chai latte at starbucks,
visiting this town I love called West Hartford in Connecticut,
studying at Barnes and Nobles,
going for massages,
kissing my cats,
spending time with my father just watching movies,
talking to my sister and mom about life,
visiting my grandparents and watching there favorite shows with them,
seeing my beautiful nieces face,
knowing God never abandons me,
envisioning my future life and how I want it to be,
going out to a restaurant and then catching a movie kind of day,
road trips,
hoodie weather,
Christmas time,
going to the airport,
taking long walks at night,
writing poetry.....

I feel like I'm two people
like one is evil and the other is peaceful
I can be happy and positive
beautifully cognitive
Sometimes I feel ugly and depressed
thinking I'm looking like a mess
I wish I could choose
instead I'm dealing with these ******* moods
-E.G

To be honest at times I could really hate men
I wish you could show more effort
like stop with the ******* cliche of the typical man
who doesn't ******* understand
what is it to be a woman in this world
with men who just wanna **** any girl
who opens her heart giving pieces of her soul away
Just to get through another day with some free ***** on the way
and to be honest I think your all pathetic
I think your all ******* small men who just doesn't get it
I'm tired of the excuse "all men cheat"
Like really your that weak that your can control your ******* meat
But you know what I really don't even ******* care anymore
Its like all the love and excitement isn't there anymore
-E.G