I get so ******* mad
like that kind of mad that makes you wanna cry,
Gets you all ****** up and sad inside,
but then that gets you even more mad the fact that your even crying,
So you sit down, inhale, take a drag, exhale.
I just wanna ******* scream,
I wish it was all a dream.

You know those nights,
when your looking for parking,
and your air conditioner doesn't work,
and the air is hot and musty
and you've been driving for 2 hours,
and cant find parking for ****..

I've only been in love once in my life
not that fake kind of love
but the real kind of love
the one that you'd do anything for
the waking up early mornings to go cuddle up in bed at his house type love
making sure he is feed type love
and not feed one day but having cooked his weeks worth of food type love
cleaning his house and doing his laundry type love
that I'd do anything for you type love....
And then you stabbed me repeatedly
lied and belittled me
-E.G

You know that feeling you get when someone from your past pops up again..
And you start to think of when all the fun began...
Of all the laughters and all the smiles...
All the times you danced for miles...
Of all the fights you had that made you sad..
All the times he got you mad...
Of early mornings feeling his body next yours...
Thinking that he'd forever be yours...
Its funny how life works out because next thing you know your talking about who he's about to marry..
And you realize he's no longer your burden to carry...
-E.G

If theres one thing in life I've learned its that you must learn to be happy alone and its not because its hard to find someone to comfort you, because anyone can do that, but because everyone in one way will fail you and its just human nature...your only so sure of your self and in the end only you have your back....I've learned to love myself deeply and enjoy life alone and because of that im free and no one can hurt me even if ive let them in because ive tasted real love and real happiness within myself...

Your suffocating me with all these worldly things
I can't breath and when I feel that I can finally breath I let you drag me back down again
Its tiring... how could I let you win? how dare I let you back in
Im disappointed in myself, why would I go back to these feelings that ive already felt

I'm incapable of loving you
It's not purposely
its something that's part of me
It's just that all these bafoons made me immune to loving you fully
It takes time to get me moving
It ***** that I've changed
that my heart is no longer the ******* same
-E.G