Settling is so unsettling

On my front door steps,
I looked at her,
as she walked away,

She turned to me and said,
"No one will ever love you"
"so as long as you never learn"
"to love that what you hate the most"

"yourself"

when we're healthy,
we forget we get ill

when we love,
we forget heartbreak

when we breathe,
we forget we choke

when we're alive,
we forget we die

please,
cherish every moment

Como los rayos del sol se absorban por los poros de tu piel
Yo te absorbe por todo mi cuerpo
Y cuando te necesite y no estes
Te encontrare entre cada rayo de sol
Dejare las olas del mar llevarme
A donde te encontre por primera vez
Y ai
Te juro que
Jamas y para siempre
Te parare de amar

Secret, I beg you, remain asleep
Tip-toe by you, a stealthy sneak
I don’t want to know, I don’t want to see
What you hid from the world, what you hid from me

Hold me down, I mustn’t proceed
"That was then and this is now"
Repetition is key
To make me forget
of the time before me

But, sadly,

I’m a contradiction, far too weak
I must know, please, just one peek
What do you hold? What surreptitious past do I greet?
What is the truth? Who is he?
I see the videos and photography
Let me in, let me see
Secret, secret, awake for me

On summer nights
I get depressed
I need more sleep
I need some rest
I can't count sheep
I can't get dressed
I drown myself in regret
suffocated by all the stress
I can't remember
I can't forget
I need some help
I'm in distress

On summer nights,
I'm on a quest
to **** my mind
and guard my chest
I'm at the bottom
I won't contest
taunting me, on my desk
are pills of happiness
I won't digest

On summer nights,
I start a trek
I'll think in black
I'll bleed in red
I won't give in
I'll try my best
I'll walk the tightrope
step by step
I'll win again
I'll beat the test
Alive today
I'm not dead yet