coffee stained her teeth
and smoldered her tongue
as she choked on a cupful
in hope that it would somehow
wake every single cell of her body
from the tormenting dreams
that never failed to welcome her
in her every slumber

gust of wind caressed her skin
and lulled her with muffled melody
as she embraced the breeze
that greeted her with relish
as if it understood her undying misery
that she concealed imperfectly
from everyone she knew
desiring that eventually she’d get through

isn’t it sad
how you once were
my past,
how i have always
wanted you to
be my future,
and how there
always seems to
be no present
for us?

“You are
too idle
to live
yet
too busy
to die.”

here’s the part
where i beg you
to not let me
push myself away

i search for your hands
and i find nothing but air
how odd it is to lose something
so precious and loved this early

i look at the mirror and smile
but the girl staring back at me
has chains for her lips
and knots for her heart

i want to fathom what’s blurry
and make crystal out of doubts
but i’m hurting and
sadness won’t let go of me

isn’t it too early
for us to get used to this?
isn’t it too much of a waste
to forget the promises we’ve made?

it’s summer but it feels like
winter beneath my chest
my hands are cold and they're slipping away
please drag me back up if you must

i see the rain like they're my tears
they form flood around me
enough to make me drown
but where are you?

i don’t want to walk away
i don’t want another apology
i don’t want to forget your name
i want you, need you, love you

i made you up but
there is no you
i thought i had you but
honey, there is no you

there
is
no
you

What a beautiful morning
to wake up on your side of bed -
now empty of you and your smell.

There was a warning
and I got it misread
now I can’t get out of your spell.

Are you still coming
or are you waiting until I’m dead
to release me from this cell?

I dine alone, love
and the seat across from me
where you’re supposed to be
is empty.

So I dine alone.

I
dine
alone

he knows his way with words
he manages to take me to places
with every conception of sentences he makes

i stay seated on my place
consummately delighting in his utterance
and unknowingly,
i am transferred to somewhere else,
wandering and savoring the destination

no matter how gloomy the day is,
he knows exactly the right words
to lift up my mood and make everything okay

his words are the bandages to my wounds,
the sun glasses when the sun shines so bright,
and the umbrella when the skies cry

his words are all I have now and
i’ll treasure these until he finally
finds his way back to me

until he finds his voice
to speak these words to me
once more

you made me believe
that it was our
little secret to keep

but then i found out
everyone already knew
that your lips were
like ice cream -
sweet but
doubtlessly
cold

and your taste
lingered on the lips
of every girl you touched

it was never
our little secret
to keep
yet i still
believed

unravel the frail veil -
my disguise from this crestfall
puncture my beating heart
it has no use anyway
take my unsound life
let my blood touch your hands
so i can finally say that
you’ve held me once
you’ve touched me once
i’ve been a part of you
**o n c e

Close your eyes
and feel nothing but the way the wind caresses your skin;
hear nothing but the breeze that passes by your ears;
see nothing but the oblivion that lies before you

Inhale the vagueness and exhale the clarity
Fill your lungs with the bliss of
having this time to yourself
and let it flow throughout the rest of your body

Be as carefree as you can be for this moment,
this time,
is yours
and nothing and no one can ever
take this away from you
except yourself

Let the wind take you somewhere
you’ve never been to ever in your life
and enjoy the ride

Embrace the reality that
no one can ever tell you
where you are exactly heading off to -
not even the wind who is your most recent friend -
and just simply let it be

Fabricate your own wings,
make your own shoes,
and recognize you can create time
whenever you think there is not enough
of it left for you to spend
or waste

This is your life to live,
your time to take,
your wings to spread off,
your journey to explore

Close your eyes
and savour these things

For they are all yours.

All yours.

All

Yours.

the wind whispers your name
as it touches my ears
and send thrills
running down my sleeping heart

you wake me up again
and i feel the burst of energy
i’ve concealed for years

then it’s concluded
i need no one else’s but
your saving

don’t rush, love
you’ll get there in time
and i’ll be following you
wherever, whenever, however
just don’t
rush

the moon beamed at you
when you said my name
with your voice, deep and sincere

the stars danced in the night sky
when your eyes, wishful and longing,
held my gaze for a moment that
seemed nothing less than eternity

the world stopped
when your lips curved into a smile
while they were gently touching mine

and the sun never dared to come out
to shatter our dimmed luster
for he knew this was
going to last
forever