you are
too busy
to live
yet
too idle
to die

here’s the part
where i beg you
to not let me
push myself away

i search for your hands
and i find nothing but air
how odd it is to lose something
so precious and loved this early

i look at the mirror and smile
but the girl staring back at me
has chains for her lips
and knots for her heart

i want to fathom what’s blurry
and make crystal out of doubts
but i’m hurting and
sadness won’t let go of me

isn’t it too early
for us to get used to this?
isn’t it too much of a waste
to forget the promises we’ve made?

it’s summer but it feels like
winter beneath my chest
my hands are cold and they're slipping away
please drag me back up if you must

i see the rain like they're my tears
they form flood around me
enough to make me drown
but where are you?

i don’t want to walk away
i don’t want another apology
i don’t want to forget your name
i want you, need you, love you

maybe we’re just two souls
longing to be found
maybe we’re just two persons
wanting another chance

i lay my soggy crest
on my favorite part on his chest
i listen to the rhythmic sound
of our synchronized breathing whirling me around
oh, how i wish i could just lay here
and keep this moment i endear

i lean closer intimately
and feel his heart throbbing invincibly
i count the beats it creates
as for sleep, he awaits
oh, this serenity is priceless
dear, how i wish we were timeless

i close my eyes and delight in
the musing that we’re about to begin
the rest of our lives together
oh, i wish we can always weather
all the storm we’re about to encounter

and then i thought
maybe i’m now found
maybe he’s my another chance

*she lays her head on my chest
and charms me with the smell of lavender
emanating from the strands of her hair
oh, i wish the smell would stay
if she ever decides to run away

she leans closer
and i nearly constrict her
but she doesn’t seem to mind
oh, i’ll always have this moment on rewind
if she ever wills to leave me behind

she closes her eyes
and i wonder where her mind flies
oh, my little angel in disguise
my unparalleled prize
she takes me on my highs
oh, i hope i can bypass my demise
if she finally states her goodbyes

and then i thought
maybe someone else will find her
maybe she’s someone else’s another chance

sa pagsasalubong ng araw at buwan
hindi ko pa rin magawang tumahan
ilang oras na nang ika’y lumisan
pero pagbabalik mo’y patuloy pa ring inaasahan

karapat-dapat bang hintayin
ang pag-ibig na hindi na sa akin?
mananatili pa rin ba akong sabik
sa iyong mga yakap at halik?

sa paglalim ng gabi
tila ang mga bituin ang pumapawi
sa sakit na dulot ng iyong labi
na siyang dahilan ng aking mga hikbi

hindi ba’t ikaw ay nangako
na sa laban na ito’y di ka susuko?
hindi ba’t ikaw ang sumuyo
at sa aki’y noo’y nagsumamo?

sa pagbabalik ng araw
alam kong di na kita matatanaw
ang hiling lamang ay agad malusaw
itong pag-ibig na di mo pinukaw

and it’s always unfair
to count upon
the promises he built
only to find yourself
the only one
grieving
in the end.

it’s always unfair
to be left alone
with only fractions
of who you used to be
as the flashback of memories
flooded you
drowned you
and
left you
useless
lifeless
and all the while
directionless

it’s always unfair
how he believed
that it’s just fair
to leave you
hanging and
seeking for answer
because for him
it’s what
will hurt you lesser

it’s just so unfair
to have yourself
give all you’ve got
and not be given
even just a tiny bit
back

it’s just unfair
so unfair
that you ended up
hopeless
that you stopped
longing it to be fair
because
it’s always, always going to be
pointless

I won’t forget his name
On my tongue, it lingers
And stays with the flame
He leaves with the touch of his fingers

A warm peck on my forehead
Ends up giving me shock, widespread
Quick and shallow but it leads us to the bed
And so everything else remains unsaid

Along with his sweet kisses
Come the soft brushes
Of something squishy and fleshy
Deep and heavy

Wherever his lips touch
A breath or two, I try to catch
Will I ever get enough
Or will this soon be another bluff?

please take me back
take me back to the place
where even green grasses
that spike my legs
with its unblunted tip
speak of your presence
where flowers welcome me
as i get within your vicinity
with your breathtaking scent
grazing the parts where
my skin stays unsheltered
where the water that i sip
sways from my lips like waves
thrilled to reach the shore
please take me back
take me back to the place
where i remain a part of you
where love doesn’t wear off
and does only develop
into something bigger than
what my words can epitomize
where my name nests in solitude
in your vocabulary
please take me back
take me back to the place
the place next to you