Feather painted with gray
by the unlicensed hand of her lover.
She’s the beauty beyond
as his eyes stared longingly at her.
But she’s weary of the gray
and scared of his glare.
Still he painted until
the other colors decayed away.
"Ah, you were so happy, honey,
I just had to give you a little misery.”
And she never turned blue
ever again.

I am jealous
of the sun
for its rays
always give you
hope for a new day.

Of the moon
that gets to
greet you good night
and wish you
sweet dreams.

Of the water
that touches
your face,
your arms,
your body,
and every part of you
that my hands
can’t get a hold of
yet.

Of the heart
that beats life for you
for my heart
does the same too.

the rain drops never made it
to the ground
for you caught them
with your palms held upward
and your mouth open wide
just in time
before they turn into
mud

the petals of your favorite daisy
never reached the soil
for you kept them in between
the pages of your books
until there, they withered

the balloon you bought
remained in between your hands
as you adored its color
and the way the sun gave it
a different shade
and your eyes followed it enrapturedly
all the way up in the air
as you let it go

the smoke you blew from
your perfectly pursed lips
remained aloft
as you finished
one stick
one pack
two lungs

the heart i once had
stayed wondering why
it was the only one
that fell all the way down
while everything else
you held
stayed up and far
from the ground
where my heart
found no refuge

you made me believe
that it was our
little secret to keep

but then i found out
everyone already knew
that your lips were
like ice cream -
sweet but
doubtlessly
cold

and your taste
lingered on the lips
of every girl you touched

it was never
our little secret
to keep
yet i still
believed

unravel the frail veil -
my disguise from this crestfall
puncture my beating heart
it has no use anyway
take my unsound life
let my blood touch your hands
so i can finally say that
you’ve held me once
you’ve touched me once
i’ve been a part of you
**o n c e

I hugged myself together
After you cut me open
Bandage smeared with blood
That left tracks - beautiful but odd
This used to flow to keep me alive
But it’s now ******* out my life
Where shall I go
When the home I’d known
Wanted me out of the door?
It was sweet of you though
To not let me leave empty-handed
For when you pushed me out
You let me carry a heavy load
Of grief, broken dreams, and lost hope
And as if these were not enough
You soaked my cuts in alcohol
Before you shut the door
Love, what happened to my little heaven?
Did I deserve a shove
Instead of a kiss goodbye?
I stitched the cuts
Even healing hurt too much
Memories filled my heart
With misery and unparalleled ache
I fell in between the cracks
I fell, love, and you didn’t pull me up

whenever our eyes meet
there are sparks that make me believe
we can go anywhere, we can go far
we can soar high and create our own star

there’s nothing i wouldn’t give
to have you close to me and relive
all the days of euphoria and paradise
the life with nothing but your spice

with every single thing i’ve done wrong,
you’re the only one that makes everything right
maybe it’s time to say so long
maybe it’s time to end the fight