Tuck me in
Hold me tight
Say you love me
Just for one last night

Lay with me
In your arms
Make me feel like
It'll be alright

One more day
Til it's gone
Our time is up
The magic is gone

One more night
Til we're through
Heartbreak and heartache knowing
I'm nothing without you

Goodbye is painful
But that's what we have to say
Heart left in pieces
Shattered on the floor
Maybe the next man
Will take the pain away

No more cutting she says
Lying through her teeth
I haven't done it she lies
Trying to appease her girl
I won't hurt myself she says
She tries to convince herself
That her lies will become truth

She knows it's wrong
What she's doing
How she's lying
About her mental health
She can't help it
The secrets are
Holding together
Her sizzling sanity

She hurts herself secretly
Hiding in the dark
Trying to keep it together
Even though she's
Falling apart on the inside

She promises herself
One day these lies will come true
Fake it until you make it
That's all she has to do

Insanity ingrained
Deep inside the soul
Taking root
Sprouting inside your body

SPreading through your veins
Overtaking your life
Someway it's got to come out

It bubbles inside you
Rising to the surface
It's a burning so you
Decide to let it all out

You slip into the bathroom
Lean over the toilet and
Stick your fingers down your throar
It burns coming up but
Finally you are at peace
Knowing your demons
Have yet to get the best of you

Fighting this battle
All alone
No one's there to save me
From the demons
Crawling inside of me
Threatening to
Burst and make
Me implode

They are coming up
Beating me
Maybe this is
All my fault
That I'm too weak
To fight the demons off

All alone
With the demons
Wandering, wishing, waiting
For someone to save me
Would someone understand me please

Promise me this:
You'll catch me when I fall
Wipe my tears away
Make me laugh when I'm about to cry
Pick me up when I fall down
Love me even when you're not around

In a moment everything changed
What was once whole
Became fractured by
A monstrous fire

My wilted roses
Lay, burnt
On my bedside table

My puppy ran away
Never looked back
Tried to save me

The sun disappeared
Went down
Bringing out the moon
Shadowing the night sky

The raindrops fell
Cleansing the world
Of fire's destruction

If time healed all wounds
There wouldn't be
Any more fights
Any. Ore wars

If time healed all wounds
There would be order
Safety and sanity
People would be okay
Living with starvation
And even poverty

If time healed all wounds
Wouldn't I bd better by now
Healed from pain
Free from scars

Dear muse
This goes out to you
Whether the world knew it
You're a real person
Instead of this fiction
But the truth:
If you were fiction
You couldn't have hurt me

We spent 6 long years together
Forming our bond, growing close

You were not just someone to me
Not anyone could
Make me feel like this
You are EVERYTHING to me

You are the only
one in seven billion
To make me feel real

Without you my
Body exists with a mind adrift
The sad thing is
If you come back to me
I'll welcome you
Straight to my arms
Since you
Never left my heart

Too perfect
To let you go

To happy
To cry

Too special
All this time
I'm spending with you

Too sad
to say goodbye

Too late
To leave

Too much fun
So you stay with me

Too in love
To not tell you
I'm in love with you

Dear muse
Its really not fair
How everyone else
Will be compared to
Who I thought you were

The person I loved
Wasn't really you
Wow that makes me feel crazy

Every day
Still passes
Without you here
But I swear
My heart stands
Still stuck on you

Forever waiting
For an us
That will never be
Because I still love you
Despite the uncertainty
Please answer:
Was I ever somebody to you
?

Dear muse
It feels like
Im writing you a book
Coming out in
Fragmented pieces

Maybe I would
Put all my
Hurt of you
In a story
If I could

Honestly these
Jumbled Thoughts
Would be lost to the
Rest of the world

And oh muse
We would be one
Hell of an angelic duo
But you arent such an angel
For breaking the
Innocent

I really like him
More than just a crush
What do I say?
What do I do?
Should I go up and
Tell him the truth?

What if he doesn't like me
Maybe he'll hate
For having these feelings

Without the fear
It's easy to think
What if he likes me too

Dear Mitch
You are the
Realest part of me
Even though you don't exist

Nobody accepts you, and
I am sorry
Sorry you won't find the
Happiness we deserve

I am holding on
Mostly for you to
See if you will
Thrive in a world I'm floundering in

I know parts of you
Mitch, you are happy
Living in a body that is scar free

You have a future
One beyond your
Twenties and Thirties
You have a zest for life
One that I am losing

This body
This life
It's yours to take
I need you

I hope one day
The world understands
Why you are so much
Better more
Deserving
Of this life than me

Dear people

You walk all over me-
Like no I'm not a doormat
Just another human being

Dear people

Why apologize now
For the way you
Treated me back then
Obviously,
You're not that sorry

I hope you change
Hope you mature
Do better
Be better
Because
Sorry isn't good enough anymore

The truth leads to
Horrible things
So maybe I should
Just lie next time

Poor little creatures
Stuck inside your shell
At least you get a choice:
Shall I stay in
Or should I come out?

I have resorted to lying
I have learned that
People don't want to hear the truth

Nobody knows what it's like
Who I really am
Smiling and laughing
Wondering why I
Was even put here
I shouldn't be

People think I'm better
Just because I'm not
Talking about my depression
Just because I don't
Broadcast how ******
Every moment of every day is
Doesn't mean it's not there

You talk too little
There's something wrong
They want to know
What's inside your head
Don't be fooled
They're not
Really trying to save you

You talk too much
People get so
Tired of you
Your voice is a fly
Consistent and unwanted

All the time people ask
How are you?
How was your day?
Are you okay?
Not because they want to know
Asking is an obligation

I've learned to lie
Present the person
Everyone wants me to be

They don't know
Will never see the
Constant struggle
Figuring out
Who I want to be
While keeping up the charade

I have resorted to lying
I have learned that
People don't want to hear the truth
The person I've created
She isn't me

No one was there for her
She was dying inside
Beaten and abused
Her whole life went awry

So when she got pregnant
She killed herself
Not able to come to terms
With the fact
Her own brother
Got her pregnant

It ***** when
People ask if you're okay
You want to be honest
Yet always feel
Obligated to say I'm fine

Things are not always okay
But I say I'm fine
Not just so others don't worry
More to try and
Convince myself it's the truth

You want me here
You want me gone
Want me better
Want me to be the one

You think I need to be saved
But how in the world
Are you going to save me
When I can't even save myself?

Attacked at every angle
Outside forces
Inside forces
School home
Fighting the pains of
Being all alone

Try hard as you might
Stick by my side
Hold my hand
Guide me to a better place

You fought
For me
For us
To keep me strong
I knew you'd never save me
I was already too far gone

You know I'm going to be honest here
It takes me longer than most people
To open up and tell you how I feel

It's hard for me to express my feelings
But with you it was so easy
I trusted you with my
Fragile, wounded, damaged heart

You took advantage of me
I can't believe I ever trusted you
How could you use me like that
Tear my heart into pieces
Break me beyond repair

You want me to be honest
Here's the truth:
I trusted you and you
Left me for the next best thing
Made me think anything we had
Never meant anything

I don't know what to think
I don't know how to feel
I just wish you loved me
Because I'd do anything
To be a better person for you

Your face is
Nothing more than a ghost
Haunting my memory

Why won't u go away
I don't want to be reminded
Of how you hurt me

I love you
Should never be said
Those words bite  

Don't u know
Ur words killed me

Honey
You're old enough
To not have to
Listen to
Every single thing
That comes out of
Your mother's mouth

Bored
Tired
I'm so done
With everything

Thank the skies up above
For creating a world
That we all can love

He's the one
Who's got it
All together
Knows who he is
What he wants

She's the girl
Who's searching
For the perfect guy
When she stumbles upon him

They lock eyes and that's it
She's done for
He's everything she wanted and more

This is not goodbye
Just a new Hello
Erin thinks as
She pulls the trigger
The bullet goes through her heart

As she fades away
Into the unknown
She can't help but be happy
She finally has a place to call home

Nothing left to hide from
Nowhere else to go
We gotta live out our stories
Just to end up alone

Nothing left to live for
No reason left to breathe
No person left to fight for
They've all given up on me

How sad but true
The life I lead
Where no one needs me
Nor wants me
Just has to put up with me

I heed to stop writing
It's driving me crazy
Maybe I should look
Up from my phone
Pay attention
To the world around me

Trapped inside my mind
Betrayed by my body
Everything about me is a lie

Anxiety keeps me
Locked inside myself
Too afraid to get out there
Knowing nobody would like me

Depression reminds me
How horrible I am
Keeps me away from people
So I won't hurt them

My body is a trap
It says girl
But I don't feel like that

Everything about me
Is a lie
I hope one day
I can find the truth

I'm dead and gone
So ready to die
dreaming of suicide
blades are my only friends
they make me happy
bring me to the end

This is not goodbye
Just a new Hello
Erin thinks as
She pulls the trigger
The bullet goes through her heart

As she fades away
Into the unknown
She can't help but be happy
She finally has a place to call home

You're so vain
You probably think
I wrote this poem about you
That I think of you
That I still care at all

The truth is
I miss you
I wish you meant
Nothing at all

I had to make some
Mistakes to
Figure out who I am
My mistakes made me the
Person I am today

Growing up I was
Never a know it all
Didn't really know
I had a voice
When I found my voice
I was too afraid to use it

At school
I stayed silent
Let everyone speak
To me, for me, about me
Those people
Didn't even know me

At home
My voice was overpowered
By my siblings
Who knew more than me
I just let everyone else
Get their way

Always a follower
Never a leader
Maybe that's why
I had to act out to
Find my way

Even now
Using my voice is scary
My family tells me to
Speak my mind
They get annoyed when I'm silent
When I speak
They never want to hear it

I want to do right
But everything's wrong
How can I be sure
That I do what's best for me
Instead of what other people
Decide is best?

Growing up is hard
Making mistakes
Learning how to
Grow thick skin and
Get over your problems
Can be difficult when you
Never learned
How to like yourself

No words
On or off the page
WIll ever be able to
Describe how I feel about
All the pain you've caused

I'm dying inside
Knowing you nothing will
Happen to you for
How much pain you've caused
How my heart breaks
Over and over again
Knowing that things will never be the same

I want things to go back
Back to the way they were
In the past when
Things were better

It's like you don't
Even know me anymore
Don't care how long
I've waited
For things to be okay

I tried so hard
Just to make things alright
Now I'm alive
Just waiting here to die

There are no more words
To say how I feel
Now I'm left
Here, alone
To die inside

Don't you see the tears
Behind these sad brown eyes

Don't you hear the screams
Inside my head
Begging you to stay

I'm here don't you see
I'm not invisible
Just waiting   for you to find me

Don't you smell the fear
Emanating off of me
As you so easily choose
To  walk away

Do you know
all the pain inside
That not even
The blood coming from the
Blade is able to hide

I guess you don't care
Enough to stay
Maybe it's better
If you just walk away

You used to be home to me
With you I was safe and sound
Sheltered from the world
Just you and me
Against the world
But now the
Walls are weakening

Breaking up
Trying to piece us
Back together
Make us okay again

Picking up my
Heart so broken
I don't know how
It was ever open

You opened me up
Just to break me down
How can I trust
Anyone ever again

This house
Once so colorful
Has now faded into gray
The walls so fragile
Have broken down

Where do we go from here?

One day
I'll be gone
You'll miss who I was
Who I coulda been

I was lost
I was broken
You found me
Lost and alone

I was sick
Now I'm better
No new scars
A better woman

Shame on you
You coulda had me

What do you care
That I’ve got nothing to lose?
Nothing and no one precious enough
To want to hold on to?

What do you care
If I disappear
Never made a mark on this world
Just left the same
Broken,
Meaningless
Way I arrived here?

What would you think
If I said nothing at all
Just left you and this place
With no warning at all?

Would you care if I disappear?
Don’t you know that there’s
Hardly anything left for me here?
All I have left is everything
That I pretend is real

Don’t you know how
Much I care?
But not even
This happy feeling
Could keep me holding
Onto the life I have here

Don’t you know
Just how I feel
You’re the last thing
I have to hold on to-
here

Don’t you understand
All the pain I’m in
I can’t stand this
Horribly sad
World we’re living in


I just want this world
To disappear around me
Have everyone go away
I don’t want to be here anymore
I wish these could be the last words I say
Maybe I can hold onto you
Wait until I’m worse off- maybe
Maybe die another day

This is just another
****** day that
I'm forced to get through

Nothing matters
It's all the same
Going day by day
Knowing that all
People know about me
Is my name

There's more to me
Than my name and my
Slightly ****** attitude
Not that any of you would know
You never took the chance to
Learn my story

You asked me if I loved you
I asked myself what it meant
This is what I came up with

The truth is
I never really knew what love was
Until I met you

All the little things
Small jokes to make me laugh
A hug to make me smile
Are intensified

The darkness in my brain
The shadows that cloud my memories
Are lifted when you talk to me

You know all the little things
My favorite color my favorite animal
Even know who Sam and Spencer are

You know my past
Are part of my present
Lead me into
A better future

You're the one
I don't want to share
Who I could spend hours
Sitting with just doing nothing

You've seen the real me
Haven't run away
You know who I am
Yet still decided to stay

This is what
Being in love
Really means to me

I get all nervous
When he looks at me
I wonder of he likes me
When he walks by
My heart just flutters
When he smiles at me
I feel real it's
Almost like I'm happy
Maybe it's just me
But maybe he
Thinks of me too

When you looked me in the eyes
When you looked me in the eyes
My whole world changed
I found something
I never knew I was searching for

When you looked me in the eyes
I found all the strength I needed
To get better

I found myself
When you looked me in the eyes

When you walked away
You made a mess of everything inside me
Broke my fractured heart
Into a million little pieces
Left without even having the
Strength to say goodbye to me
Now I have to find the strength
To go on without you
Standing by my side

You walked away from us
Gave away everything we had
With the way things ended
Well I guess I should be glad

When you walked away
From everything we had
Everything we were
You messed up all that we could’ve been
Broke everything we built up
Guess it all meant nothing to you
Being in a committed relationship
Must’ve been really scary for you

You walked away from us
Gave away everything we had
With the way things ended
Well I guess I should be glad

I guess you never really cared
Not about me or us
You ran away from
Commitment and love and
Feeling anything at all
One day you’ll change
Become better
I won’t be waiting for you anymore
I’ll have already been long gone

You walked away from me
Took away everything I
Thought we could be
Should’ve known you were going to be
Just another disappointment to me

Black brown
Blue green
Yellow red
Were all equal

Who knew
When we had it all
Had it all
It would be so easy
So easy
To lose it all

Who knew
When it came to love
Came to love
There was more than
Just you and me

I was so stupid
For thinking that
We could work out
Because all you did was
Play with my heart

I shoulda known better
Then to trust my heart to you
But now that you have it
My heart's broken in two

Now it's over
My love is gone
Nothing left to say
My hearts too broken
To be fixed anyway

Heart break and heartache
Little red roses
Scattered on the floor
Vases shattered on the ground

I thought he was the one
That our love would be enough
It turns out
I was wrong
I'm nothing but a young naïve fool

I should never have believed
A guy like him
Could ever
Love a girl like me

Crawl with me
Stand with me
Walk with me

Sing with me
Dance with me
Play with me

Eat with me
Drink with me

Like me
Care for
But above all
Please love me