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8.7k · May 2013
Caring
Desert Rose May 2013
How do you explain caring
Worrying about someone?
When your heart stops
When they're gone
Your heart goes out to them
All you want is to save them?

Everytime they're gone
You worry, wonder
What are they up to?
Hope that in time they
Will come back safely
Into your arms
7.2k · Apr 2014
Nerd
Desert Rose Apr 2014
Books movies
Scifi fantasy
Reading writing
Letters words
Social skills
Or lack thereof
All culminate to be
The nerd inside of me
5.3k · Apr 2013
Turtles
Desert Rose Apr 2013
Poor little creatures
Stuck inside your shell
At least you get a choice:
Shall I stay in
Or should I come out?
3.6k · Sep 2017
Recovery
Desert Rose Sep 2017
Recovery is not
Simple
It's not being better
It's bumps in the road

Recovery is relapse
Going back to old habits
Because it's easier than
Coping

Recovery is hiding the
Pain because everyone else
Believes it's gone

For me
Recovery just
Isnt a reality
I'll likely die before
"It gets better"
2.9k · Oct 2013
Pansexual
Desert Rose Oct 2013
Boys or girls
Neither here nor there
Stuck in the middle
Who to choose to
Spend the rest of forever with

I love you
Three little words
Don't do anything
Personality is all there is
For me to choose from

Forever is in the making
Problem is:
Choosing just one person
Who I'm able to live with

Girls know my pain
Have been through
All the same **** as me
Have the same feminine problems

Guys are oh so sweet
Are always there for me
Give me faith
Make me believe
In the goodness of humanity


The one who has my heart
Will open up my soul
Save me from the beast inside
Make me feel real
For once in my life
Is the one for me
2.8k · Oct 2013
Dear unborn baby
Desert Rose Oct 2013
Dear unborn child
Sorry to say this, but
You might not exist
Sometimes your mummy
Has had enough
Doesn't want to have to
Deal with this ****

Dear unborn baby
I'm sorry in advance
For the state of your mommy
I hope you don't have
Half the problems she does

Dear unborn baby
You deserve better than
What this world will give you
Sorry that you have to live with this

Dear unborn baby
Life will hit you hard
Smack you in the face
Build you up just to
Knock you right back down

Dear unborn baby
Life will be hard
If I'm there with you
No one will love you
As much as I will

This will be hard
This will be rough
Together we will make it through
With you here with me
This life won't be
Half as scary
2.6k · Nov 2015
Freedom
Desert Rose Nov 2015
My skin color
Doesn't make me free
You can't assume because
Someone looks white
They are treated equally

Being white doesn't
Make me privileged
I worked hard to get
To where I am

I am not as "white" as I look
I am Hispanic
Which means that
Behind the scenes my
Family is not as
Well put together
As we may look

My parents are divorced
We're not poor but
They're struggling to
Get their kids a college education

I am a female
I didn't always have the
Rights I do now
For many years
My kind couldn't vote

For many years
Women were forced
Into a gender role
Being a female
Doesn't mean I'm weak

I am not straight
But also not a lesbian
Until this year
I didn't have the luxury of
Getting married to
Who I wanted where I wanted

People still don't understand
They think I'm confused
I can pray it away
You know what
Not even your
Backhanded religion
Can save me

I am not even
Safe in my own mind
There is a
Constant war
My depression and anxiety
Is eating away at me

You look at me
You see white
My people
We have
Always had to fight
2.5k · Apr 2014
Dear crush
Desert Rose Apr 2014
Dear crush,
Maybe I should tell you the truth. Maybe you should know that I like you. As more than just a friend. These feelings are fairly new. They came on so suddenly. But these feelings are so innocent. I mean I want them to go away. That's only because I'm scared you won't feel the same way I do.

The truth is we used to be friends. I mean we still are. Right? You were gone, and then you came back. Now that you're here feelings are starting to develop.

What if you hate me? What if you just act like I never said anything? I don't want your response to my feelings to hurt me.

You're so sweet and special and nice and adorable. You make me feel happy and special and real.

I like to think we could work out. Maybe we could be happy together. But I want us to be happy. Just you and me against the world. Together we'll be okay.
2.2k · Apr 2014
stupid hot weather
Desert Rose Apr 2014
dying of heat
Wish I was dead
Wish the weather
Was all in my head

**** this ****
I want to move
live in the northpole
im all sweaty ew
**** this its time to take a cold shower
2.2k · Nov 2016
Ode to Puppies
Desert Rose Nov 2016
Fluffy puppies all around
Hiding bones underground
Failing to not make any sound

Inside, outside sniffing the air
Of their surroundings they are aware
They don’t do it to give you a scare
They want to show you that they care

Chihuahuas, Chow Chows, corgis too
Enough breeds to fill a zoo

Too many breeds to name
I love them all the same

While every puppy is great
Mine was brought to me by fate
Not a moment too late

My puppy makes my heart full
Life with him is never dull

While my dog may drive me crazy
He is forever my baby
1.9k · Jul 2012
Spencer
Desert Rose Jul 2012
Your life
Fits in a large box
Packed full of
Happy memories

When you left
My heart was shattered
Into millions of
Little pieces
The pain of losing you
Cuts into my heart
Deeper than a knife

Now that you’re gone
There is a hole
Bigger than that box
Left in my heart

When you were here
I couldn’t remember a
Time without you
Spencer you,
Were my whole life
Since the age of 3

We grew up together
You and me
You were my best friend
I treated you like a human
Told you everything
I’d even like to think
You understood me
In your puppy like ways
Sometimes I’d even believed
You even talked back to me


You really were the
Only one that ever
Really knew me


I’d like to believe
Nothing has changed
Up there in heaven
You’re still
Listening to every word I say
Looking down on me
Making sure I’m okay
Even in a space so far away
I can still feel how much you love me
You’re still the one who
Keeps my sanity in check

Spencer you are the best thing that’s
Ever happened to me
I love you
I always will
You’ve been such a
Big part of my life
There through my childhood

I’m trucking on without you
Here on this earth
Just remember:
I haven’t forgotten you yet
Desert Rose Apr 2014
Living in a large house
With a white picket fence
With my husband
And our two children
With a puppy
Running around our land
At least that's the dream

First we painted
Our fence yellow
We had two happy
Healthy kids

Then things
Turned blue
Between me and you
Then the fence turned too

When things got bad
When it was almost over
Things turned red

That fence that
Was originally white
Has faded to black
Everything that
Could be is now dead
white is the American Dream yellow is happy blue is sad red is anger and violence and black is the end
1.3k · Apr 2014
Disappear
Desert Rose Apr 2014
drowning
in my
sorrows
and trying to
pretend that being
pretty doesn't matter
everyone knows
all about how
real the struggle is
1.2k · Feb 2013
Forever, Still
Desert Rose Feb 2013
No one ever said
Forever would be easy
Past infidelities and abuse
They still carry around
Ghosts that still haunt them
While you still have your
Self doubt, anxiety, depression
Hidden away in those dark places of
Who you are and used to be

You accept their
Paranoid nail-biting nervous hair twirling
Impulsive pen tapping incessant gum popping
Greed indecision pride, nosiness, sarcasm
Deal with their
Stubborn, psychotic, drama queen
Multiple personality moments
Which are less than desirable
Parts you wish
Weren’t always there

Like when they’re sobbing so loud
It’s impossible to hear them
Or they get so scared
You have to talk them down Off the ledge
Backed so far into a corner
All they feel is the pain inside
They’re so weak
You have to hold them up
Support their weight
While the universe
Crumbles around them
When tricks become the truth
Mistakes that still remind us of forever

Still, most of love is in the fights
Arguments on the edge of rational
Cement your relationship in place
That prove being together is
Worth the pain

Sometimes small arguments
Like where to go or who pays for what
When you go out
Turns into a fight where
The tiger tears open a new wound, roars
MONEY! MONEY! MONEY!
Someone’s face turns into a ripe tomato
That needs to be picked
Smashed against the wall
Juicy pulp and seed
Splattering everywhere

Still, the black rose blooms
From the same seed
Scraped from the wall
Where it grows into a beautiful flower
That only guarantees
With a little care it can last
Forever, still
1.2k · Jul 2012
Disappear
Desert Rose Jul 2012
Do you see that girl?
The one
Wearing those dark,
Depressing clothes?
With those sad, bloodshot, blue eyes
That always seem to be so far away?
Sitting all alone in the
Back corner of the classroom?
The one most of you people are
Afraid to go talk to?

Do you know her-
That nameless somebody?
Anything at all about
Who she is?
Pain she puts herself through
Almost every day?
Have you seen
Any of the scars she creates
All over her body
To forget the pain of her dark past?
Guess none of you cowards would know
You’re all too afraid too ask!

Do you know where she comes from?
That she was bounced around houses
Never able to settle down
Never able to be part of a family
Do you even care;
Do you sit there
Laughing and smirking;
Just ignoring her?
Well she’s still there!

You should know
That girl is sitting there
Planning her escape from her
Painful, lonely, friendless life;
No one ever took the time
To try to know her

Funny how you had the time to talk about her
No one could ever talk to her

All she wants is for
Someone to show her they care
Someone to tell her
It wouldn’t be okay
If she disappeared

You should be ashamed of yourselves
Someone could’ve helped her
Made the effort to notice her
Showed her that
In time things will get better

One day she’s going to be gone
The rest of you will be left to wonder
What would’ve happened if
One of you treated her better
Instead of ignoring her
You’ll all be left to wonder:
What’s it going to be like
When it’s one of us
Who decides they want to disappear?
1.1k · Jul 2013
My Secret Death wish
Desert Rose Jul 2013
Sold my soul to the devil
Nothing left inside
Wanted to be consumed by darkness
Best choice I ever made
Felt like I had the power
Way too easy to give up on life
Easier to give up on myself
Others never believed in me, so I stopped believing in myself
It made sense to me
Don’t care what anyone thinks
Won’t do something just because I was told to
People are the most insignificant species  
Didn’t have anything left
Anything that mattered to me was already gone
Material objects never meant too much
No hopes- no dreams
Not even the slightest spark of reality
Well I had one thing
I was left with a broken heart
No one has ever really cared about me
Everybody’s only looking out for themselves
They’re all going to get consumed by something much worse than the darkness
Won’t even have a choice
Nothing I said or did ever really mattered
Always rejected by others
Watched chances fade
Gave up on love
(Not something I ever really had)
Expected that things would just make themselves better
Killed my heart
Now I’m emotionless
It’s not like I had anything that mattered to me
Life is the worst thing that ever happened to me
There never really was any path
The whole way was pre paved
Fate and destiny is just a sham- it’s all fake
Everything I know is just an illusion
Finally broke free
Made my choice
Picked my own destiny
Nothing can get in my way now
There’s no more light
I’m getting out of this dark tunnel
I chose to die rather than to suffer through life
Just wanted something better-something I thought was attainable-happiness
1.0k · Apr 2014
Stress
Desert Rose Apr 2014
A bunch of anxiety
Curled up in the body
Making you nervous
Freaking you out

Stress is a
Major part of
Our daily lives
Killing us
On the inside
1.0k · Mar 2013
Demons
Desert Rose Mar 2013
Demons lurk in the depths
Between your heart and mind
Taking over control
What’s on the inside

Scars
Cover the insanity
Coursing through your veins
Death, blood, war
Flood your brain

The demons inside hurt you
Break your soul down
You’re stronger than them
Strong enough to
Free yourself of this nightmare

Drown them all out
With the sounds of
Birds chirping
Alarms going off
Before scattered buzzes
Drive you past
INSANITY

Life peels the energy
From your decaying body
Slowly taking you away
It's taking you away
Guess that means
You're too good for this
Pathetically cruel wasteland
I wrote this for a friend of mine.
What do you think
1.0k · Jul 2012
Scissors
Desert Rose Jul 2012
They lay there open on the table
Their sharp blades,
Taunting me-
Beckoning me to use them
I stare at them
Wanting to use them
Knowing if I do
It’ll be yet another regret
For someone else

I look away
Urge to use them is overwhelming
Looking at them reminds me of
All the memories
From a time not so long ago that
I was in such a dark place
No one could save me
Seeing them, even now
Reminds me of the other times
I used them
For the pleasure of feeling pain

Just their presence
Reminds of the past-
How right it felt
Pressing them down
Into my wrists
Just to watch the
Rush of blood
Seeping down my arms

I tell myself
Those days are over now
I swear I’ve changed
Even though
The scissors are still there
They mean the same thing
They aren’t who I am anymore,
Just a reminder that I’ve changed
1.0k · Apr 2016
Losing it
Desert Rose Apr 2016
Tell me this isn't just in my head
I'm hanging on by a thread
To a dream of sanity
Where there's some clarity
Of what I should do
Can't wait forever for you
To change your mind about me
Who I am Who we could be

It means nothing at all
Waiting here for the fall
I'm stuck waiting for you
To be here for me too
Hanging on to lost hope
Barely able to cope

Could you save me
Help me become free
I wish you were here
I need you to be near

When im wothout you
There's nothing I can do
999 · May 2014
I'm sorry
Desert Rose May 2014
I'm sorry that I'm
Not good enough
That I'm not
Who you want me to be

I'm sorry that
I'm not strong enough
To carry the weight
Of the world
On my shoulders

I'm sorry I'm weak

I'm sorry I'm broken
That there's nothing left
Inside of me
I'm sorry I'm me
Desert Rose May 2015
Dearest sister
On this special day
You reached a milestone
Hit 21 years of age

Live it up
Enjoy these days
You'll remember them forever
As the "good old days"

Never forget those
Who made you who you are
Remember us
As you follow your dreams
Become who you really are
988 · Aug 2012
Facing it
Desert Rose Aug 2012
Drafted into reality
Slated for death
Destined to survive-
Conquer death
Left to face a new reality

After all those terrible memories of
Millions of droplets of dark. red spilled blood cells
Pouring out of my comrades bodies
Feeling the cold limp lifeless
Bodies of friends who used to be there
Before they were gone
Before they went
Six
    Feet
          Under

All those memories
From years of battle
Will haunt me forever
Always be giving me nightmares

Swore to myself I’d never
Revisit the Field of Haunted Dreams and
Lost Memories

I’ll make it to the memorial
Pay my respects
To all those comrades
Who gave up everything
To protect the freedoms
Of our country
All those dear friends who
Deserve to be here more than me

Years have gone by
Time has matured me
Finally made my way
To the memorial

Names of my friends
Flashed through my periphery
As I was scanning that black, granite stone
To see how to personally
Commemorate all the people
Who helped save me


Through the corner of my eye I saw
Written there
Right in front of me
On that black stone wall
Was Me

I had to look back
Make sure it was true
Seeing my name made me
Think about who I was then and
Who I turned out to be
Made me wonder
How things would have been different if
They had called someone else to duty
Instead of me

Would my life have been different
If I finished my education?
Got a real job?
Found a wife,
Made a family
All on my own terms?

Did war make me better or
Would I have been this great on my own?
I was ****** into battle
Forced to grow up
Experienced **** no man should ever have to see
I can’t stop wondering about how
Things could’ve, would’ve, or should’ve been

Will I spend the rest of my life
Asking myself the question of
What if?

Will I ever move on
From my past-
That day my life ended
When I was called to duty
During that draft
Thinking why me?
This shoulda been somebody else
This is a poem I wrote for school
984 · Mar 2017
To my Soulmate
Desert Rose Mar 2017
Dear muse
This goes out to you
Whether the world knew it
You're a real person
Instead of this fiction
But the truth:
If you were fiction
You couldn't have hurt me

We spent 6 long years together
Forming our bond, growing close

You were not just someone to me
Not anyone could
Make me feel like this
You are EVERYTHING to me

You are the only
one in seven billion
To make me feel real

Without you my
Body exists with a mind adrift
The sad thing is
If you come back to me
I'll welcome you
Straight to my arms
Since you
Never left my heart
949 · Jan 2013
Never good enough
Desert Rose Jan 2013
Emma lays her fragile hands
Onto her flat stomach
Head saying skinny
Mirror saying
Not skinny enough

Not skinny enough
Not skinny enough
Not skinny enough
Is all Emma hears

So she gets a toothbrush
Sticks it down her throat
So all the food
Not in her system
That she hasn't eaten in weeks
Flies out of her mouth

Tara cries at night
Her mother died when she
Was just a little girl
Her dad blames her
For her mother being gone

He can't deal with Tara
He gets wasted just to make
His poor little daughter's
Sickly pale skin
Turn into a mess of
Black and blue
At least he has yet to
Take away her innocence

Lily has to wear
Long sleeves every day
She's too scared
That someone will see
The scars that she
Creates on her own body

John is always drunk or high
Never a day
That he doesn't smoke ****

His dad beats him silly
Almost to no return
He needs something to
Take away the pain
Something to be numb

Dave has no way out
Scars cover his
Small teenage body

Medication?
That's a lie
It makes him worse
Want to die
So he takes his meds
Shoves them down his throat
To make it to a place
Much better than his
"home"
This is sad, and messed up and I'm sorry.
If you suffer from anorexia, depression, bulimia or abuse or anything, talk to me.
I'm here to help
878 · Jul 2013
Wrong Side of the Tracks
Desert Rose Jul 2013
Erica drowns the
Sorrows of her
Horrible life
In alcohol and
Severa vicious  forms of
Self-mutilation
Such as


Erica jabs sharp objects  
Into soft parts of her skin
Just to watch
uncried red tears
gush out of a
Body too broken to still be here

Despite her hardships,
Multiple suicide attempts
Such as tying a noose around
Her scrawny little neck or
Pulling  the trigger
She refuses to admit depression

When she’s really low
She smokes,
Pops pills
Does everything she can
Just to get high

Her life is a nightmare,
Death no longer an option
It’s cheated her out of the
Happiness of the end too many times
Not even the devil could
Salvage her lost soul
859 · Apr 2013
Sorry
Desert Rose Apr 2013
Sorry that I'm not worthy
You trusted me to
Stay strong
But I failed all of you

I'm sorry that I can't be there
At least not for now
I wish I could help you
Make it through the pain

I'm sorry I cared about you
That you meant a lot to me
Yet it was too easy
For you to let go of me

I'm sorry you never cared
I was a joke, some bet
You never really cared about me

I'm sorry I'm me
A mess a mistake
One huge ******
That you wish would go away

Sorry I didn't die at birth
Like I was supposed to
That woulda caused less problems

I'm sorry I'm here
Maybe I should do what's right
Go away and disappear
849 · Jun 2013
The purge
Desert Rose Jun 2013
Insanity ingrained
Deep inside the soul
Taking root
Sprouting inside your body

SPreading through your veins
Overtaking your life
Someway it's got to come out

It bubbles inside you
Rising to the surface
It's a burning so you
Decide to let it all out

You slip into the bathroom
Lean over the toilet and
Stick your fingers down your throar
It burns coming up but
Finally you are at peace
Knowing your demons
Have yet to get the best of you
846 · Mar 2013
What do you know about me
Desert Rose Mar 2013
This is just another
****** day that
I'm forced to get through

Nothing matters
It's all the same
Going day by day
Knowing that all
People know about me
Is my name

There's more to me
Than my name and my
Slightly ****** attitude
Not that any of you would know
You never took the chance to
Learn my story
825 · Jul 2012
After you Walked Away
Desert Rose Jul 2012
Fractured for now
Wait a year or two
Someday I’ll be better
That change in me still won’t be
Good enough for any of you

I’ll be changed
I’ll be better
You can believe  
I’ll be a better person
From all the pain and suffering
I endured because all of you

Those dark shadows inside will
All be gone
Totally out of the picture
You won’t need to pick up the pieces
Or put the puzzle of me together
I’ll be stronger than you remember

Once I’m better
I’ll be over you
Everything you meant to me
All you meant to me will
Only be a memory of
The clingy child I used to be

Finally let go of you
I don’t need you anymore
After all it was all your fault
You were the one who walked away
You were the one that couldn’t commit
811 · Apr 2014
Devil
Desert Rose Apr 2014
The devil invited me
Into his world last night
Invited me to see the
Other side of life

The ghosts came out
Haunting young
Frightened souls

He took me to the graveyard
Where the dead party
While the rest of the world
Mourns their loss
806 · May 2014
Dating a Poet
Desert Rose May 2014
To date a poet
You gotta know a few things
We're sensitive and
Good with our words
Like to cuddle and
Watch movies and read

If you understand
All these things
You'll be set
Before you know it
You're dating a poet
796 · Mar 2017
Scissors pt 2
Desert Rose Mar 2017
Scars slowly fading away
An urge that feels
Impossible to beat
This battle that is a
Constant loss

Butchered skin waiting
Questioning
Will I be whole?
Should these
Wounds be reopened

Blade is a
Poisonous addiction
Maybe I'm not
Sorry
I started

Couldn't help that
Life got out of control
Aided in the beginning
Refused to let it end

It's sad really
Relapse I mean
Three years
Clean
Blade called out to me

Will it ever be over?
Will I ever stop
Scaring my body

Will I ever
Learn how to
Love this person I am or
Will I die trying to
Figure it out?
So I was looking over Scissors and couldn't edit but thought more needed to be said
794 · Jan 2013
Don't come crying to me
Desert Rose Jan 2013
Please don't tell me
Not to hurt myself
It isn't that easy

Don't make it sound like
I'm not trying to stop
You're my friend
Obviously you see
How much I'm struggling

Maybe if I made
These terrible scars
On your arms
Instead of mine
You'd get addicted
See it isn't so easy to stop

Better I hurt you than me
***** please
We all know you were asking for this

Once you hurt yourself
Don't come crying to me
I tried to warn you
You didn't listen
Like I said
Don't come crying to me
792 · Sep 2014
Cody
Desert Rose Sep 2014
Clearly he doesn't know
Doesn't care enough
To possibly come close to
Understanding how I feel

Oh how I wish
He knew how I felt
How I wish what we had
Could've been real

Dreams couldn't make
Someone as perfect as him
So I have to settle

Yet I know somewhere
Deep down inside
That I can so better
I really do deserve better
Than what he gave me
785 · Apr 2013
Abuse
Desert Rose Apr 2013
Time will never heal
All the pain you've caused
All the times a river
Flooded down my cheeks
Right through my innocence

Our black and blue past
Will never fade to grey
All the times the belt
Slammed into my back
Your fists grabbed my hair
Killed my pleasure

The future won't change
What you've done to me
How much you hurt me

This is goodbye
Not just for now
Bot forever
765 · Mar 2013
I'm the Girl
Desert Rose Mar 2013
I'm the Girl
That will love you
Despite your flaws
Be there for you
Whether you're up or down

I will
Be there for you
Accept your insanity
Love you for
Who you are
I'm the girl
That will randomly tell you
That you're beautiful...
Just because you are

I'm the girl
That will be there for you
No matter what
Even if I'm giving up on myself
If you need me
I'm here to help

I am that girl
Who's a bit too
INSECURE
Maybe I'm
NAIVE
I am THAT girl
That girl is me
764 · Apr 2013
Break up
Desert Rose Apr 2013
Best friends
Fall for each other
Try to go out
Dating doesn't work out

They break up
Yes, in this story
They remain friends
741 · Feb 2013
Forever
Desert Rose Feb 2013
Nothing is worth suffering for
Especially not this life
Especially not after all that you did to me
Those thing’s I’ll never be able to forget
Like the life I used to lead
That had to be left behind
No it’s not worth suffering for
At least not the way I suffer
How I try to make it better
Nothing is worth suffering for anymore

It’s not easy to leave things this way
With so much left unsaid
But if I’m going to survive
It’s better  for me if I leave
Before you really do break me
Into a shadow of who I used to be
So the way it is now
Is the way it’s going to have to stay
Unless time takes the pain away

There won’t be any goodbyes this time
Because there’s really nothing left
That I need to say
About what you did to me
All the pain that you caused
I was so young
There was nothing I could do to stop you
When you never felt the slightest bit of remorse
You didn’t care at all
How much you changed the colors of the universe

You know how I felt
You knew you hurt me
You never had the power  
To make me stay
We both knew this wasn’t going to last forever

What you did is not okay
What you did is never going away
What you did I will carry with me
Like the weight of the world resting on my shoulders
What you did will define the rest of my life
What you did is something I will always remember
No matter how hard I try to forget
But no matter how bad it is
I refuse to be a victim

What you did made me afraid of you
Afraid of all people
Darkened my view of everything
You decided to create scars all over my body
That I had long ago imprinted on
Even when I did nothing wrong
You liked to scream and yell all the time
Yet your words weren’t your greatest weapon
Your words never hurt as much as your arms
When they repeatedly made those black and blue scars
That may heal on my body
Won’t ever heal from my brain

Nothing you did hurt as much as when you didn’t listen to me
When you wouldn’t listen when I said no
You had so much power
You were so much stronger
Nothing will ever be as painful as when you went down under
You crossed a line, crossed a boundary
Went a little too far
Took away the one special thing
Meant just for me
Took away an experience that was supposed to make me happy
Took away something special
That I was saving for a special somebody
You took away the one thing that was supposed to be MINE

You took away everything that was important to me
There’s nothing left of who I used to be
You changed me permanently
The damage you’ve done will never leave
I just really can’t believe
That I thought we were meant to be

All the scars are never going away
What you did is forever here to stay
In my heart
Those scars aren’t ever going to fade away


My heart is ruined
I’ve lost all hope
I’m not okay
But somehow you’re perfectly all right
All I can ask is now that I know you’re gone forever
Will that make me feel even a little bit better
721 · Jul 2012
Liar
Desert Rose Jul 2012
You snake
I really trusted you
Venomous lies
Dripped from your tongue
Burnt acid into my ears

You bit me once
Then I was hooked
In love with the
Idea  someone like you noticed me

Somehow I broke free
No longer bound by
Chains of your love
Realizing I always knew
You were never any good for me
719 · Jul 2013
Fame
Desert Rose Jul 2013
Being famous is
Someone else’s game
Some random person’s skewed idea of a “Perfect reality”
Where everyone is “popular”
Because the world is always watching
Every little thing you do

In the world of fame
Everyone is in the spotlight
Being admired by
People all around the world and
Nothing you do is
Allowed to be private

Lots of people would love to
Live that kind of lifestyle
It seems so simple
So easy to get everything you want

Normal people see through the façade
They don’t want that life
Who really wants to be stalked
By crazy fans with cameras Who call themselves paparazzi?
No sane person wants
Everyone to know their every move
Every mistake they’ve made
How every relationship turns out

Being famous means
Exposing yourself to the world
Living life under a microscope
Like some lab rat
717 · Jul 2013
Is it time to say goodbye
Desert Rose Jul 2013
You’re gone
So I guess it’s time to say goodbye
And it’s wrong that you’re not standing here
By my side
Forever is too long to wait to see you again
I can’t let go of you or the memories my friend

It’s been too long
Still can’t let you go
I still remember pouring my heart out to you
Telling you every little thing
You would always listen to me
And I always knew you weren’t judging me
What am I supposed to do now
Without you I don’t know who to be
Time still hasn’t healed the wound that you left in my heart

Goodbye isn’t an easy thing to say
Not sure if I’m ready to do that just yet
Maybe it’ll happen another day
Wish it didn’t have to happen like this
This is not the way I wanted to say goodbye
I hope that wherever you are, you’re okay
And not having to struggle to make it through each and every day
Maybe it’s just me
I’m not sure if saying goodbye is going to be okay

Is it finally time to move on
Or is it okay that I refuse to forget you
I need someone to help get me through
Or at least tell me what the hell I’m supposed to do
713 · May 2013
Barnes & Nobles
Desert Rose May 2013
Far away from inside myself
Watching this prosperous land
Sitting in front of me
With people sipping lattes
Plugged into a virtual reality
All seems so surreal

Children rush through
Shelves filled with
Memories of far out places
Losing themselves within
Someone else's stream of consciousness

Every day I wish that
I could fit in this
Bubble with the rest of you

At the end of the day
As the lights fade
Lonely pages are stuck
Waiting for someone
To give them a purpose
709 · Apr 2014
Amazed
Desert Rose Apr 2014
I can hear your thoughts
They echo across the room
Calling for help for
Someone to love you

I can feel your pain
It breaks my heart
With Every step you take

I can see your dreams
Of the future
Happy that they include
Forever and "I do"
Based off Lonestar's song Amazed
Desert Rose Apr 2014
If time healed all wounds
There wouldn't be
Any more fights
Any. Ore wars

If time healed all wounds
There would be order
Safety and sanity
People would be okay
Living with starvation
And even poverty

If time healed all wounds
Wouldn't I bd better by now
Healed from pain
Free from scars
691 · Mar 2017
Soulmate 23
Desert Rose Mar 2017
Dear muse
How could you
Act like you
Never knew me
Act like we never
Had anything

You can't just block me
Pretend I don't exist or have feelings
Pretend that it all
Meant less than nothing

It hurts
So ******* much
That it could
Get me in trouble

Dear muse
You treated me
So very wrong
Im scared
Someones treating me right
675 · Apr 2014
Rejection (10 words)
Desert Rose Apr 2014
What if I can't handle
It when he says no?
675 · Jun 2013
An ode to my internal tears
Desert Rose Jun 2013
Sitting here all alone
Waiting for somneone
To be there for me
Tell me they care about me

I'm so scared
That I'll be forever alone
Useless, worthless
Thast's all I'll ever be
Maybe you'll care for the
Ghost of me

On the verge
Edge of my
Thin line of sanity
Silently crumbling
Fading to grey

Silly me
Thinking this could work
Someone could care
I could be happy
Silly me actually believing
Someone could want me
673 · Aug 2013
An ode to love
Desert Rose Aug 2013
This is cheesy but
Words can't express how I feel
What you've done to me

Butterflies in my stomach
Cant breathe without you
Baby you make me so happy


You really understand me
Get me like no one else
You make me feel safe
that's all I ever wanted

All I ask is
please
Dont break my heart
666 · Apr 2014
Too
Desert Rose Apr 2014
Too
Too perfect
To let you go

To happy
To cry

Too special
All this time
I'm spending with you

Too sad
to say goodbye

Too late
To leave

Too much fun
So you stay with me

Too in love
To not tell you
I'm in love with you
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