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Derekis Sep 26
Here comes that time again,
the time to feel so ashamed.

Again and again.

This feeling takes no change,
but why does it stay the same?

That fraud, feigned smile
tries to win me again in vain.

Mistakes have been made
and I just feel so drained.

Stop linking your lies in an endless chain,
wanting to confuse what is in my brain.

Drop all this false pretense,
dont you know its a weak defense?

You know I dont like to blame
but I just wish I could say the same.

I am not a pawn in your stupid game
or some dumb pet for you to tame.

Oooooh..

... I ... have ...

Nothing to give.
Everything to take.

No time to live.
only this heart to break.

I wish I could just run away,
learn how to stop being the prey..
But I live in this world, full of grey,
with these feelings made of clay.

I feel so ashamed.

Again and again.

Ooooooh...

How I wish I could be strong again,
Cut these chains of lies and feel again.

Destroy those that keep me insane
and control me in this delusional rain.

I want to cure myself and stop the pain.
Just forget you so I can change again.

so I can finally stop being ashamed...

Again.
Derekis Sep 15
It started long before me.
I never saw it coming.

That distance.
The promise.
A state of isolation.

Inside my darkest nightmares,
those things still crawl inside me.

The answer.
Persistence.
The trait of stagnation.

Still I do my duty.
Rejection.
Deception.
The breaking.
Of heart and promise.

A hope is cast in darkness.
A ritual born of circles.
The sadness in madness.
Feels like I'm gone forever.

Sometimes I hear them coming.
Shadows that smile in torture.

It's over.
Come slower.
Protect me.
Forget me.

The hate I hate believing.
The date of fate is leaving.
It's now time for grieving.

I'm gone and back.. again.
Derekis Jun 18
Lets go fetch the rifle now,
there's something in the yard.

The moon is clear,
the dog is on guard,
the windows rattle.

It is coming from the trees.

Chain the fence,
bolt the door,
secure the homestead.
That thing will never leave.

The dark is scratching the walls but how?
The culling of the herd is now.

How did you curse this place?
Strange ghosts of family past is what we used to believe.

There are strange lights up in the night sky,
screams come up the wooden floor,
claws gnawing the inner door,
floating 3 feet above the ground,
the reaper, his prey, has found.
Derekis Jun 18
Angel caido con alas cortadas,
maltratada por hombres de dos caras,
viajando por la oscuridad,
buscando ayuda con dificultad.

En un bosque sucio y desolado,
escapando de tu pasado,
haciendo caso de ese extraño llamado
y esperando un diferente resultado.

Este profundo pantano,
forzandote la cansada mano,
tratando de sobrevivir en vano,
las mentiras del tipico villano.

y yo sé que tus alas cortadas
y tus miradas determinadas,
hacen de tu vuelo algo errado
pero tu escape, alcanzado.

A un lugar donde el festin es sin fin.
Un lugar donde sonrie el serafin.

En estos tiempos donde la oscuridad
es siervo del cielo nocturno y de nadie más.

Por ahora, mañana mi espiritu cantará.
Pero hoy mi cuerpo se dañará.
Sé que el viento me alcanzará.
Derekis Jun 18
By fate or coincidence,
pride and greed around the table,
faith has gone away.

Chasing the ghost of you,
shadowing the memories we grew,
time will only tear us apart.

What has happened to me?
Loneliness is just a mad scream.
Writing just to be free,
from this long and empty dream.

Where is the light that I pleaded for?

I shouldnt cry for yesterday,
there lies my hidden world
that somehow,
I managed to survive.

Windows show a bright sky ahead,
past dark clouds and broken clocks,
there it lies, the ordinary world,
that other people live by.

And as I try to make my way
in this new scary world,
somehow, I know,
everything will be purified.
Derekis Jul 2022
Deep inside you awaits this light
Looking for a way to come out and shine
Fighting for its place in your life
Waiting for its time to show you all its pride♫

Deep away into the night,
know everything will be fine.
A spark that will end your strife,
rising up higher to let the world know you've tried♫

It will make you strong!
Brighter than the sun!
Let it dawn inside you!

All those tears you've shed,
All those fears you' ve led,
they will make you blossom with beauty!

There may be confusing times,
when you feel lost and alone.
Just look around you.
In you they believe!
You can make it shine!

Everything you've dreamt,
Everything you've shared
Gives that sparkle your beauty!

They will make you strong!
Brighter than the sun!
Let it dawn inside you!

You can make it shine!
Make it shine so bright!
Give your life that sparkle of beauty!

Everywhere where you go!
Anything you can!
Anytime you want!

Go out there and let it shine!♫
You can do it!
Derekis May 2022
I have changed, like you've changed.
In shadows and wrapped in lies.

This concrete heart, still estranged,
searches for stars in black skies.

I feel it deep, unbeating.
I've tried for it become alive.

Trying to stop the bleeding,
I've learned to cry,
I've learned to mourn,
for one day, this love to revive.

Your distant name, I can now hear.
In silence, without violence.
A fading smile that shows no fear.

The bright sun, embracing light.
Bringing hope, dispelling fright.
Letting old love come racing through.

Come starfire, wildfire..
Burn long enough to make pain stop.
I'm here but I can't apologize enough.

Now there's no more shadows, just further lies.
I still ask, who will come to rescue us?

Whoever arrives, I hope they take us to where we need to go.
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