The first time I saw you
You have eyes that were so innocent,
Hair that perfectly frames your face,
And a smile gives of an aura
Endlessly making me linger
To your being.

However i doubted that
Not all people can be like you
So a rainy day came
And so does your frown
I observed you passively
Hoping something changes

You were so busy on things
With your hand flicking along
I assumed you were consumed
By the world and its people
I approached to help you and asked
"Are you okay?"
You gave a gesture
Seemingly making it so

Confused by these thoughts
I got tangled unknowingly
You were putting me under
Like i was in a case of plunder
With the whys and hows coming
How can i be so stupid to realize.

All this time i fell
By the time i laid
My desperate eyes on you
Thinking it was me all along
Fooling myself that
You needed help
From all these whelp

In the end of all
It was me who needed it
A help from you
From the world itself
By all the traits you have
To keep me going,
Running,
Living,
Breathing and
Hoping.

That someone like you would save someone like me
In a world that is full of mischiefs and illusions

Same routing, same thoughts,
Leaning to the breeze as i rot.
Manipulated and doubtful,
I never knew that I'll end up as a tool.

Clean intentions but forced movement,
All the tracks are hard to be evident.
Whether to be or not to be,
The word "free" is far as I can see.

Attached strings throughout my body,
Struggling to get them out as a hobby.
Not having any hope as i feared,
Until someone cut my strings and cheered.

Guiding me without attachments,
You lead me to the world of intents.
As i stand up and together we walk,
We both smiled as we continue to talk.

The sound of the nether once sang,
It is a good that we both can hang.
Now i know what it would be,
To feel like what it is to be free.

Started with the light,
Ended with a fight.
Formulated with questions,
Tested with actions.

A being with a weird aura,
Making me tremble with an unusual flora.
Lockjawed and frozen,
She is a being worth knowing.

I lay my eyes into yours,
You lay yours with a smile.
A smile that makes everything fine,
Maybe the time has come to redefine.

I moved a step closer,
Thinking it would be brighter.
From the get-go it got better,
I stepped one more time by making a letter.

You frowned as I gave it to you,
Your friends smiled as i said "i love you".
But you threw it and walked away,
Leaving me there looking like a dog in the rain.

I thought that our mind crossed,
But instead you decided to stop.
I asked myself "why?".
Thinking that this was all a huge lie.

A certain thing that everyone is risking for,
To move forward or just to stay put.

Why would i do this?
Would it please you?
Will it help us to be together?
Will it make us grow better?

No.
Not a single moment was appreciated,
Nor was a thanks was said.

I love you.
I hate you.
I'm sorry.

No more

My being has had enough

Enough of your fake love,
Enough of your hearing mouth,
Enough of your seeing ears,
Enough of your irrational mind.

Whatever it is that you have is still bringing me back,
Knowing my heart says yes but my mind says no.
Even though "enough" is convincing me to stop,
Your faceless smile erases those thoughts.

A body of man, a mind of the dog.
I keep following you around even when I'm still getting hurt.
Maybe "enough" isn't really working to me,
Maybe I should just cut my break-less chain to stop.

A world instilled with chaos,
Viewed by my eyes as the world collides.
I was already being consumed by it,
Until you came with your medical kit.

You showed me a light through a dark endless tunnel,
Like extracting a bad seed in a bottle.
A mesmerizing feeling came upon me,
A reality where now i can be free as i can be.

A life wherein i will die in despair,
Until you came to be my pair,
You never left my side,
Being an angel to be my guide.

Our love rooted to an offspring,
And now we should be ever so caring.
Linking us to become as one,
But the day came that you'll be gone.

You left me making a river of tears,
As our seed is confused of what he hears.
Telling him that you are in a safe place,
Slowly pampering him without a trace.

Memories of us lingers on,
Though i was certain you'll never be fine.
Now i realized i was wrong,
But our love still flows ever be long.

Have you ever felt an urge to scream?
Like you wanted to break the walls of your inner self?
To put your wrong personality,
With love as a thing with irrationality.

Observing from a distance so that you'll not lose,
Keeping yourself sustained with all the things you believe to choose.
Each moment you are lingering with knives thrown at you,
Even if it looks like it is only a few

Traces of the shadow marks your heart,
Consuming and tearing it apart.
Blinding you from reality,
Causing you to be separated from purity.

You wanted to end the pain by killing the source,
Blindly ending it with an unknown force.
Satisfying your voidly desire,
You ended up making a fire.

Even if it is worth the time,
Have I made my purpose clear?

Released by mouth, expressed by the heart,
How long will it take before you start.
Lingering to the things you said,
Condemning my mind like you paid for your debt.

Acting like you don't care and didn't even bear,
Leaning now as you've dared.
Chasing and waiting, things that i do,
All that it is only for you to prove.

Have you ever tried being at my side?,
Thinking all of this is just a stupid ride.
Succumbed and healed by the ropes and chains you released,
Penetrating my skin like thread in too deep.

Channel and protect you for all the things,
Committed as were a ring.
Asking myself what is the worth,
Isn't this just kind of flirt?

The final hour has come,
An unstoppable force will show how it is done.
Sorry is all that I need,
But you didn't care so instead I bleed.

Cute and adorable,
But not the approachable.
A smile that can make the heavens shine,
Oh, how can i make you mine

Mixed emotions commenced within,
Thinking of plans for the world we live in.
Fear and dreads of the past,
I thought not all things will last.

The purity of the heart consumes me,
Not knowing what's supposed to be.
Loving you was all I could think,
Although we are in the process of what to pick.

Tongue-tied and frozen,
You approach me as I'm left unspoken.
The aroma of your hair subsides,
Another moment wasted by the tides

You are one blooming flower,
Nothing can price you, not even a cent or a dollar.
I wish I'd be the one who'll watch you bloom,
Cause losing you will lead me to my doom.