Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
Money in the pocket of the biggest shareholder

Day by day, we grow older
Love is lost, hearts grow colder

So while you still can, you should hold her
Say what you feel, before you wish you'd told her

Don't stash your dreams away, in that folder
As you care less what they think, you'll get bolder

Listen to those, who need a shoulder
Let her live, don't try to mold her

Don't sell your soul, for something golder

If you ever had the choice
From two rainbows in the sky
One was filled with money
Treasures of such delight
But in the second rainbow
Is where you'd surely go
A rainbow filled with so much love
You could surely not say no
Now take a look over there
There surely is no need
The people in the first rainbow
Driven by selfish greed
But now that I have chosen
The gift that I bestow
Now make your choice and tell me
Where you chose to go?

“**** yourself” you *****
From the drivel in your mind
It's in your human nature
Apart of your design

Showing a side never seen
From the venom you spouted
A character that's truly evil
From the words that you shouted

It's perfectly clear for all to see
With my brother like a puppet
You pull the strings, he dances
And you really truly love it

His selective hearing now kicks in
With a blank expression on his face
And his verbal lack of words
Only to diarrhoea he can't relate

Your both a waste of space and time
I cannot see the point any more
I speak but nobody can hear me
I'm banging my head against a wall

Your a son to be ashamed off
And the saddest thing is my mother
You show no compassion or love
And your supposed to be my brother

10/11/015

This poem is for my dearest trusted friend
For when my life finally comes to an end
Over the years we had times good and bad
Your always there in times when I felt sad

In recent times I've been losing all my hope
Let down by my brothers I just cannot cope
It's not your fault you always did your best
Through everyday life we both had our tests

I keep on trying and I think I have more to give
But some days I feel I have lost the will to live
It's painful and I don't wish to make life hell
I just cannot find the words to you I can tell

You had times as well my dearest trusted friend
To stand by you as you felt life had reached it's end
Over the years we had times good and bad
But I was always there in times you felt sad

My dearest mum I can't even look you in the eye
I see Dementia tare you apart, and it makes me cry
I see you slowly moving towards another place
And that will be the day that I cannot face

My dearest sister over the years we had difficult times
Other family betrayed me, drinking alcohol was my crimes
But these last few years you always been around
With your visits to put my feet back on the ground

It's everyday life and who knows what will come next
If we can face any more of this and life’s daily tests?

When we meet again
It will never be the same
In the arms of Lord Jesus
From the moment you leave us
Life can be so unkind
When dementia takes your mind
Slowly dismantles your world
Mother to five boys and a girl
But now in silence most days
When I speak you have little to say
You struggle more to take medication
Memories of dad you no longer mention
With food you now eat much less
Carers now help you each day to dress
It pains me each day with what I see
As I can see, I'm slowly losing you and me
Nothing will mend my broken heart
You are my world that's falling apart
When you leave it's to a better place
Our Lord will give you a warm embrace
Just remember when you look down up above
I always cared and gave you a sons true love
There is nothing I can do about floods of tears
For in my heart forever I hold you dear
Just remember mum through good and bad
The happiness as well as times when sad
For now by your side forever I will stay
Until your starlight fades away
Till one day all life comes to an end
Poetry I will write till we meet again
And until we meet again
Life will never be the same

8/11/2015

Remnants of life scattered afar
Heart broken, burnt and charred
Fragmented thoughts, emptiness
Desolated by others sinfulness

Mole hills turn to mountains
As light turns to night
No one hears me shouting
As I slowly lose the fight

Desolation is my name
Betrayed in stormy rain
Wrapped in the devils chains
It always ends the same

Only for now will I remain
In someone else’s game
Slowly my life begins to drain
I can't take this emotional pain

Desolation remains my name

Forever...........

5/11/2015