As I watched you slip away
I hoped we would meet again
Through all the pouring rain
There was a ***** of light
And you where shining bright
I held you in my arms once again
And I hoped this love would remain
The love I so truly cherished
Spoke of which such merit
Cradled and whispered I love you
To you I gave my heart so true
I dreamed of all the times we shared
And my heart I gave to you and bared
I wanted it to last forever this time
And together we would always remain
Then one day you left me all alone
Freezing cold like winter to the bone  
As I watched you slip away
Emotional turmoil once again
Again……

David Swinden 23/1/2018

I have waited for so long
Its been a long time coming
Same old day and routines
That arrive with each morning

Same old typical weather
Nothing ever seems to change
Life still goes on around me
And in my heart you still remain

Everything seems to have stopped
But people keep running around
Who is left to pick me up
When I fall and hit the ground

Naked is my soul bared
Fragile is the hearts desires
But the devil is making my rules
And everyday he breathes fire

With poetry deep in hibernation
Poetry has been my lost in me
My outlet has seen barren times
Like a ship that’s lost at sea

David Swinden © 13/8/2017

My heart is broken and it will remain the same
I will never recover through all the wind and rain
Darker times are here forever till my last breath
The tears I cry will bleed until my own death
The place called home is like a graveyard
It will always be your home, it tears me apart
Everywhere and everything is a part of us as two
I close my eyes and empty mind, but I still see you
You never leave me I want the pain to stay forever
It would never feel right anyhow now we're not together
Do not think you were not loved, just see the tears I cry
You know when you're in heaven, I will mourn for you till I die

David Swinden © 29/4/2017

You are always with me wherever I go
In winter time the cold winter snow
Spring time flowers in a gentle breeze
You are with me forever and never leave
The summer is warm the grass green
Your the beauty of nature always with me
Autumn brings beautiful colored leaves
As nature slowly falls gently to sleep
You are my true love and you always will be
Natures true beauty you are always with me

David Swinden © 7/4/2017

She listened to the Saturday afternoon rain
Dreading her broken heart would remain
Her love was cast into the darkest of nights
Like a flower starved of nourishment with no light
The pain was true you could see it in her eyes
Trying to hide emotions her face couldn't disguise

Into her life walked a man with a different personality
Wanting to show her how true love should be
But she needed sometime she was scared it would be the same
Dreading her past emotional turmoil, herself she blamed
But his hands soothed her bringing her peace and serenity
And slowly with time, maybe true love she could see

She remembers her previous partner beat her with his fists
Now a real lover soothes her with the tenderest kiss
And all the scars and tears her previous had left behind
Now immersed in true love she thought she would never find
And after all the cheating and lies her previous partner would do
Now all she hears are words of undying love “I will always love you”

She needed his love and he cared honestly and sincerely
He could see the pain in her eyes and that she suffered deeply
He only wanted true love and to heal the pain she felt
And that eventually in his arms her heart would finally melt
He would wait forever healing the scars that remain
Together lovingly watching the Saturday afternoon rain

Happy endings do happen.
This was my first post on Hello poetry when I joined up here.  
24/11/14 David Swinden

I want to share my love so deep
If I gave you my heart
Would you give me yours to keep
Bringing us together across these miles
Filling this void with endless smiles
For eternal love never to part

Feeling your warmth is all I dream
Caressing all your love
Sent across this great big stream
A special feeling from way up high
Like the stars in the midnight sky
Together we’ll meet and bond our love

So when the day is finally here
And your standing by my side
I will whisper gently into your ear
And make it all so perfectly clear
Your the only one I would shed a tear
The thought of losing you tears me up inside

So keep my heart and hold on tight
There is no such word as never
Everything will all come right
Just know there will soon come a time
I will be yours and you will be mine
So think of us as love that lasts forever

2001 my first ever collaboration CJ now posts on here check her out :-)

I’m still here even though I’m no longer by your side
Living in the care home, you never leave my mind
This house is empty but your chair is still in place
Every time I close my eyes I forever see your face
Your bedroom is cold the wardrobes are now bare
You may not be here but I will always love and care
If I had one wish I would forever bring you home
I feel the guilt without you here living on my own
The days that pass by some are good others bad
I look through pictures old they make me feel so sad
Your health became to much you could not stay with me
And it breaks my heart so I pour my feelings into Poetry
Tomorrow is Mothers Day, I will bring you some cheer
Please don’t think that I have gone, for I’m still here

David Swinden © 25/3/2017

Hope you are all having a lovely weekend take care :-))))

Sometimes I often wonder what life brings
When your heart no longer wants to sing
Some days I think deeply and wonder why
I no longer laugh and all I ever do is cry
Wounds never seem to heal scarred forever
Is this my life for real with no endeavor
I am a pebble on this empty beach
Battered by the waves filled with grief

My crying heart screams out in agony
Sadness what spell have you cast over me
I am a shadow of my former self
Yesterday's happiness sitting on the shelf
I stare off into this night of misery
Will I live again to taste calm seas
Ripples of waves flow to the shore
May I touch love's kiss once more

Thanks Maxine. Maxine is a poet I collaborated with on another site. Maybe she will join here now :-)

I find it hard to write these words down
My world is empty now your not around
I only wish to continue with my life
But it’s difficult with the pain and strife
This house is a cold and lonely place
All your past memories I constantly retrace
I turn and look at your empty armchair
My world is broken now your no longer their
In the good times we would talk and confide
But now your gone my heart has finally died

David Swinden © 9/3/2017

Her room is now empty, no longer here
The mother I love and hold so dear
She has moved out, into private care home
In this big empty house I now live alone
In her vacant bedroom there is a Jewelry box
On the table are her old winter socks
I open the box and take a peek inside
Trinkets and bracelets fill me with pride
Inside the box I find letters from her past
From dad saying our love will always last
Written in the 1940s he spent many years at sea
He fought for his country in the Merchant navy
So personal she kept them all these years
Her whole life in this box brings me near to tears
Her memories may be gone in Dementia she is lost      
I will forever treasure her life in this Jewelry box

David Swinden © 13/2/2017
I love you Mum forever

Tomorrow from home it will be our last goodbye
Already I can feel the tears swell in my eyes
It will be a  difficult  day but its one I have to face
Memories of many good times that I will retrace

Your Memories are vague now day is night and night is day
As time has passed dementia has made you this way
It pains me but the doctor has left me with no choice
I will cradle all your past times and hear your voice

One last night and It already feels like you know
Although not everyone else seems to think so
The care home looms like a big dark cloud
The emotions inside, I want to scream out loud

When tomorrow arrives it will be your final abode
A one last I love you one last loving hug and hold
After six years of loyalty to the Mum I have loved and cared
Rebuild my life, wipe away the tears, on good times we shared

David Swinden © 7/2/2017

Poetry pen name Emotional Man

Forgive me some days are better than others
I have a problem with less supportive brothers
They do very little and live in there own bubble
Can never be found with the first sign of trouble
Only complaining about monthly financial figures
Interested only in mothers passing, what will it deliver?
Truly pathetic as this is supposed to be about family
Yet others look in and see how dreadful they can be

David Swinden © 11/12/2016

A city to be proud of are nick name is Scousers
Do you remember The Beatles in flared trousers
The Soccer and songs of “You Never Walk Alone”
So many songs include “In My Liverpool home”
Two great Cathedrals that light up in the night
And John Lennon airport where you catch a flight
With two big soccer clubs there is intense rivalry
But when it’s all over there is plenty of camaraderie
It’s a city of culture with museums and History
It’s my Liverpool home, where i'm proud to be  

David Swinden © 6/1/2017

Today a review with the Doctor took place
She looked on unknowingly smiling face
She now needs twenty four hour care
For her to stay at home would not be fair
He suggested I look at some care homes
Soon it will be an empty house, all alone
It’s out of my control and nothing I can do
But remind Mum “I will always love you”
I want her at home, no other place to be
Now all I can do is write my feelings in poetry

22/12/2016 © David Swinden

Last week we went on holiday to Denbigh
And just for a few days my mother came back to me
Not leaving any food everything on the plate was gone
With my two friends she even said “look that’s my son”
She couldn’t stop talking although she didn’t make sense
It brought my mother back to my heart I felt less tense
I have never seen her like this for so many years
Rekindled many memories almost brought me to tears
She was answering simple questions clearly to my friends
It was a week to rejoice and enjoy I never wanted an end
But where back home now just the two of us in solitude
And even in one day I have noticed the changes in her moods
The week in Denbigh is where she was evacuated as a young girl
Now I can see her drifting away again into her dementia world
It was a great time that we had but this still breaks my heart
But there is nothing I can do as once again we drift apart

David Swinden © 23/10/2016

With it just being the two of us she misses the benefit of a group of people.

Changing places finally bursts my bubble
My childhood school has now turned to rubble
Memories where good in the 70's at Birchfield School
Learning to swim in the down stairs pool
Free milk during the morning break times
Mr Blackmore plays songs of rosemary and thyme
At Christmas the hall would fill for the pantomime play
The school has gone now but the memories never go away
But now on Facebook friends share memories old and new
Those childhood days so precious to us all in Liverpool

David Swinden© 20/10/2016

A little poem about my childhood days at Birchfield School

The clock it ticks but time never moves
I live each day writing my darkest poetry
And when I sit and pen my muse
I ask in life, what has happened to me?  

I long to write something beautiful
But loneliness keeps my heart in prison
The darker nights they will soon arrive
I ask what kind of life am I living?

My body is worn and deeply scarred
With each day I feel more drained
With my heart ripped from my chest
How long in this life will I remain?  

I wish the cards could be re-dealt
I just don’t want to be by myself

David Swinden©1/10/2016

A prisoner through my eyes I see
In darkest black says it all to me
Like a lonely ship on the open sea
With nobody around no longer free

An open heart that remains hollow
Is the bitterest pill for one to swallow
An empty soul will always wallow
No soul mate around no path to follow

Loneliness in the depths of despair
In need of love somebody to care
For those looking in my world I bare
Lonely am I, with nobody to share


David Swinden © 2/7/2016

The smile and pain you show outside hides the pain within
It hides the drink and smoking till you commit another sin
Cancer is your many demons it invades your soul and heart
An invasion of your world and it rips your life till you depart
The demons never leave and each day it will surely change
But deep inside your hopes fade and the demons still remain
With every new day that starts a new hope will now begin
But before the new day has ended you commit another sin

David Swinden © 19/9/2016
Fictional I don't smoke.

You should never love a poet
Where complicated creatures
Forever changing personalities
With many different features

You should never love a poet
We have darkness and devotion
Sometimes difficult to read
With forever changing emotions

You should never love a poet
They can write a lovely verse
But like the wind they can change
With verses full of hurt

You should never love a poet
Just read these words from me
Everything in life is second best
Our first love is writing poetry

David Swinden © 3/9/2016

When you go to bed at night
And slowly fall asleep
Reflecting on the days turmoil
All the pain and grief

You sometimes wonder how
This life could do you harm
It’s the way the cards are dealt
When all you want is calm

Some days are better than others
But it always seems to rain
And you always carry on
In this life you still remain

You stay loyal to all
And you often wonder why
There are no smiles on earth
You could find peace in the sky

David Swinden © 3/9/2016

Finally after six weeks with writers block a new poem!!!! please don't leave me again poetry

It’s my world through my minds eyes
Don’t assume anything about me or tell lies
It’s my life to decide the things that I choose
Don’t judge my life, try walking in my shoes

You haven’t lived my life, known the pain I feel
Walked the same journey, seen my life for real
Known my pain of loss, sometimes in life you lose
Don’t judge my life, try walking in my shoes

Try Walking in my shoes

David Swinden © 24/7/2016

If I could imagine my most perfect place
A scenic garden with the sun on my face
Just in the corner stands a willow tree
Beneath shaded branches writing my poetry
Flowers are plentiful roses and Yarrow
With songs of nature Blackbirds and Sparrows
A beautiful cottage painted white
With all of the rooms filled with daylight
In all of my thoughts it’s the place to be
Where I can immerse myself in poetry

David Swinden © 13/7/2016

A mother’s love will last forever
Sweet children fill her with pride
As a child you know so well
In your mother you can confide

She is always there and loves you
In the good times and the worse
And will always listen to your needs
Pick you up when your hurt

Sometimes things may seem unfair
You have to withstand this test
She is not doing this to hurt you
With love she only wants the best

A mother’s love is meant forever
And it shows with all her tears
You will always be her baby
She will wash away all your fears

David Swinden © 1/7/2016

Be happy in life nothing is perfect
Enjoy the world it really is worth it
Many barriers faced make you sigh
Sometimes you smile when you want to cry
The journey you face is your little world
So open your heart be it a boy or a girl
You will have days filled with heavenly bliss
The embrace of a lover with the sweetest kiss
Days with the loss of family or a close friend
Your heart breaks in two and you wish for the end
It’s life’s journey with many twist and turns
Sometimes you will find your fingers get burnt
It’s just everyday life with it’s ups and downs
Some days you swim others you will drown
Just be happy in life nothing is perfect
Enjoy the world it really is worth it

David Swinden©27/5/2016

There is a storm within my soul
And it never seems to cease
The thoughts I can’t control
I never find my peace

Endless torrents of rain
Tidal waves of emotion
A prisoner in dark refrain
Emptiness without devotion

The darkest clouds that gather
Brings tears that will flow
It’s my only kind of weather
The thoughts nobody knows

I listen to stormy seas
Nobody can hear my voice
It brings my life to it’s knees
This life was not my choice

When your soul begins to break
And you breath a final sigh
It’s your life’s final fate
And it's time to say goodbye…..

David Swinden©24/5/2016

Spare a thought for people
with depression who live in
silence and invisible to those around.

No words of wisdom spoken the silence said it all
I knew it was coming when I took your call
My heart broke in two, I always loved you
No more warming embrace, emptiness in it's place
I will never love anyone like you again
For now in mourning the poets pen remains

David Swinden©

In the cycle of life a new born will breath
And depend on it's parents for all it's needs
A precious child will learn to speak and spell
And build friendships at school that eventually gel
One day they will grow into a young man or girl
Learn to live independently free in this world
Build loving relationships and have their own child
And some will split up and others reconciled
And as years pass by we slowly grow older
The cold winter nights will seem even colder
In this cycle of life we all live and breath
And our day will come when it's time to leave

2005 David Swinden©

Wish I could write something new just not happening for now.

Nothing is hidden it's all there to see
Every living breathing fragment of “me”
I can't hide my feelings they show for all
It's who I am from standing to fall

My heart is made of glass and on display
I hope my words will heal “me” someday
It's a dark sided show for all that read
Writing verses as my glass heart bleeds

Poetic darkness as you watch “me” fall apart
It could only be “me” with my glass heart

David Swinden 25/12/2014 ©

I knew how bad you where feeling
With your heart so full of pain
The tears filled up in your eyes
Till they flowed like heavy rain
I gripped you tight in my arms
To share your pain so bad
I wish that I could do much more
Now the two of us are sad
But I will never let go
I'm the type that always stays
For I'm not the type of man
That will turn and walk away
I will never leave you in darker days
Just when you need a friend
For when you need me by your side
I will stay until the end

2005 David Swinden©

Do you always lock yourself away
When people try to talk
With the pain that always stays
Don't turn away and walk

Please tell me why your hurting
Don't live your life in silent pain
When I try to talk don't draw the curtain
Don't live your life in refrain

Oh please will you talk to me
Tell me why you suffer deep inside
Just let me in so I can see
So I can heal your wounds
And give you back your pride

Oh please cry for me let it all go
Share all your pain with me
Then you will see I care for you so
Just trust me please and you will see

This friendship and trust I give you is all you ever need

2001 David Swinden©

With each moment that passes
I would wait but only for you
All the colors of a rainbow
Describe your personality true

Always thinking of you and dreaming
I just sit and wait through day and night
Waiting..... Yearning.... my soul burning
Wanting..... Hoping.... My feelings churning
To feel your touch that brings me light

On the edge of forever but still I wait
Dreaming of no more tomorrows
Hurting.... Hoping.... Wishing.....
Emptiness I feel pain and sorrow
But still I dream it's never to late
But still I wait but only for you

2005 David Swinden©

Mum please will you forgive me
Sometimes I really want to scream
I often wish I could walk away
And live my perfect dream

Your dementia can be testing
Some days are worse than others
You behavior routines are erratic
And they really make me shudder

Please mum I really love you
I only want to care
It’s not your fault it’s my mind
Some days I’m going nowhere

Some days I often wonder
How much more I can carry on
With all my heart I don’t give up
To be your loving caring son

The many nights of sun-downers
Are breaking down my health
I know that if you had a clear mind
You would change the cards dealt

We will live each day at a time
I Consider words I don’t dare
If one day and it breaks my heart
If your final journey is in care

David Swinden 4/4/2016

Paradise that lives in the heart of a poet
Verses that spill forth don’t you know it
It’s a mystical beauty changing all day
From morning till night on this peaceful bay
From scent of the waters and the cry of a gull
The far distant ship the grayness of it’s hull
Cloud painted patterns from an artists brush
The words of a poet with sweet words of love
Home by the sea brings all kinds of emotions
Like the flow waves a rhythmical motion
From the seashells on the gold patterned sands
Two lovers strolling the beach holding hands
With pen and paper it’s my only place to be
My perfect place to write is home by the sea

David Swinden © 23/3/2016

Somewhere over a rainbow another place to be
Beautiful golden beaches, blue waves of foaming sea
Evergreen trees and roses red vibrant colors beautiful
Starfish drift in with the tide apples trees spawn fruitful
Unspoiled by mankind’s destructive industrious ways
Seals live in peace in winters cold, not being sleighed
Forests remain intact not butchered and turned to paper
Natures life survives in a world that’s much safer
Butterflies dance birds sing in springtime breeze
Somewhere over a rainbow another place to be

David Swinden © 3/3/2016

When I reflect on what I see in me
I see a person trapped as low as can be
A prisoner like a bird in a cage
On the outside peaceful, inside a rage
It’s hard to put into words and explain
I can’t find words to describe the pain
I’m lost, my world is an empty place
I look in the mirror and see no face
I live in the past with my childhood days
Remembering yesterdays smiles lasting always
I was going to be an astronaut with the stars
Not a failed life with no destiny to chart
A single person was this really meant to be
Is my only true love to be writing poetry
What I see in me is dark for those who read
These words are true and from my heart they bleed

David Swinden© 29/2/2015

Memories never fade since the day you past away
Ashes scattered amongst spring flowers that sway
It was your favourite place you spent time in summer
With dad now the two of you are together dearest Mother
In those beautiful Ornamental gardens ice cream in hand
Behind the trees you hear faint music from the bandstand
Birds singing all day and squirrels forage amongst the grounds
A symphony of natures beauty brings peace to those around
Now the two of you are together again I have nothing left to do
The only memory I have left is a photograph of you

Fictional for now. My mother has Alzheimer's.  

David Swinden© 23/2/2016

My life has faced some hard times indeed
An emotional roller coaster made my heart bleed
When darkness arrives on my final day
It’s “goodbye dear world” last words I say

My final journey is to heavens gates
My road ahead is all our fates
The day arrives light shines from above
God is waiting to share all his love

Past friends and family are waiting for me
Many tears where shed when I was lost at sea
In heavens world all pain is banished
My past loved ones whom had vanished
They wait for me with tears in there eyes
It’s a different world full of surprise
It’s a world of beauty to have and to hold
Where every second is precious as gold
I look over my shoulder at dear mother earth
I shed a tear for loved ones still down there
One day you will share the same journey as me
When it arrives together we will be
It’s a place of beauty love is everywhere
We speak of memories the good times we shared
On the final time that you sleep in your bed
It’s the final journey “it’s your road ahead”

David Swinden© 19/2/2016

The funeral took place on a beautiful sun kissed day
As the mourners gathered, in pain with nothing to say
The coffin was draped in flowers in words of mum
Many tears rained but in blue skies remained the sun
The priest paid tributes of past days in her life
And spoke of her marriage sixty years a loving wife
It was so painful as alzheimer's slowly crumbled her
Slowly her thoughts turned to clay, going nowhere
A prisoner in her own brain she sat with a vacant stare

How can there be a god when someone’s life ends like this
On that night she slowly faded her children gave her a kiss
In the final moments it was goodbye to the mum they miss
In the arms of angels for her final sleep in peace and bliss
The children she gave birth too where five boys and a girl
She has now made her final journey and left this world
But her memories remain intact by those left behind
Her love still lives on although it’s painful in all there minds…...

Fictional for now.

David Swinden© 14/2/2016

Cancer my barriers you are breaking down
I keep on swimming until I drown
Biopsy results with cell abnormalities
Is it the start of another fatality?  
Again I'm waiting for more test results
I keep on searching... is it all my fault?
So many questions but silence remains
In emotional turmoil I feel the strain
As they continue to run more tests
I will remain under constant threat
It's a question of time and falling down
I will keep on swimming until I drown

4th February Cancer Day

I wait for you on a cold winters night
My breath visible in the stillness
But patiently I wait for your warmth
Your smile... Your touch... I want...
Each piece a part of a special puzzle
That enraptures and fills me with delight

In the shadows I see you approach
I want to rush over to you and embrace
But this one single moment I wont encroach
My heart begins to race my breath more visible
To hold you in my arms this moment unlivable
I wait.... You smile.... as you draw closer.....

I cherish this special moment within my reach
Sapphire eyes and crimson lips in moonlight
I trace my fingers down your face.... so beautiful
My body shakes with just one touch.... precious delight
Savoured.... Cherished.... special moments adorned
Before the kiss on your crimson lips a new love is born

David Swinden©

Broken Heart

No words of wisdom spoken the silence said it all
I knew it was coming when I took your call
My heart broke in two, I always loved you
No more warming embrace, emptiness in it's place
I will never love anyone like you again
For now in mourning the poets pen remains

20/11/14 David Swinden©

Light My World

Your beautiful and serene as the oceans
Causes my heart to race, fire up my emotions
You light my world with your radiant grace
I dream to gaze at your beautiful face

14/11/14 David Swinden©

Vanquished Of Love

A soul with no love starved of all feelings
Cast into dark stormy seas tattered and reeling
The tide and the waves draining its blood
This poor dying soul vanquished of love

22/4/2006 David Swinden©

The Last Beat of the Heart

A heart torn apart Broken and battered
With life’s dreams utterly shattered
Dark days with biting ice cold nights
Where dreams face a death with no more light
Here it lays suffering devoured of its life
With one last beat begone all of the strife

22/4/2006 David Swinden©

Wishful thinking of us entwined
Romantic meals we wined and dined
Such perfect times that we both shared
Promises of love that we both shared

Holding hands our love so divine
Wishful thinking of us entwined
Under full moon we planned our dreams
Romantically and so serene

Ecstasy with a single touch
Pleasured, enraptured by our love
Wishful thinking of us entwined
Words of love for you, I would find

Dreams we cherish sometimes die
The ones we loved have chosen lies
My broken heart for now I pine
Wishful thinking of us entwined

If you ever had the choice
From two rainbows in the sky
One was filled with money
Treasures of such delight
But in the second rainbow
Is where you'd surely go
A rainbow filled with so much love
You could surely not say no
Now take a look over there
There surely is no need
The people in the first rainbow
Driven by selfish greed
But now that I have chosen
The gift that I bestow
Now make your choice and tell me
Where you chose to go?

“**** yourself” you *****
From the drivel in your mind
It's in your human nature
Apart of your design

Showing a side never seen
From the venom you spouted
A character that's truly evil
From the words that you shouted

It's perfectly clear for all to see
With my brother like a puppet
You pull the strings, he dances
And you really truly love it

His selective hearing now kicks in
With a blank expression on his face
And his verbal lack of words
Only to diarrhoea he can't relate

Your both a waste of space and time
I cannot see the point any more
I speak but nobody can hear me
I'm banging my head against a wall

Your a son to be ashamed off
And the saddest thing is my mother
You show no compassion or love
And your supposed to be my brother

10/11/015