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Aug 2022 · 582
Himeros' Hymn
Muse Aug 2022
Aphrodite have I done you so wrong

That you enamore me in loves somber song

Yet leave his holy heart unignited

Cursing me with burning affection unrequited

Why allow me to be denied Anteros

And Eros strike me so cruelly with arrows

That I must make Philia to be enough

When what I desire fervently is his fleeting love

I see now goddess that I you must truly despise

For you sent forth Phobos and Deimos to terrorize

Until I found my heart to be ragged and maimed

Still for their sake I find myself acting as if it's the same
Aug 2022 · 116
3 of Swords
Muse Aug 2022
So now I go free from star-crossed crucifixion

A broken heart like broken bones leaves me frail

Woe to be crippled by lost loves malediction

This torturous pain I try to belie to no avail

As if into my chest swords were so cruelly cast

A crown of thorns bound tightly round my head

My truest heart beats desperate to outlast

The purging of loves poison that I had fed

But I feel like this sorrow is swiftly killing me

Like I'm being pulled and torn from within

By Nightmares born from my sweet reverie

And devils oh so eager to punish my sin
And then only a few weeks later he and my friend started talking they asked my permission because they didn't want me hurt and what was I supposed to do tell them no?
Aug 2022 · 97
Enough
Muse Aug 2022
I know you're not ready to give the love I ask

So just hold me steady and let these moments last

Where you are my friend, my hope, my dream

The one to send when fear is pulling at my seams

And I'll do my best and I'll hold my love

Close to my chest and make it enough

Until you can share the same love as me

Just be right there and I'll believe

That if that day can never happen

I'll be okay as long as you're my friend
And when I told him I wanted to be more than friends he said he wasn't ready to be that with anyone rn
Aug 2022 · 97
Bargaining
Muse Aug 2022
I know this script may end in tragedy

Yet still I play the role that Eros casts

Following the fragments of future and past

Drawn forth by your entrancing melody

I know you come forth on winds of Chaos

Yet still I desire to dance in your storm

Until our fickle hearts in disdain betray us

For a moment let me know your form

I know you can't be mine and mine alone

Yet still this feeling swirls and swells

So be mine for moments carved in stone

Moments for which my soul would gladly endure hell
But he still warned me I'd get hurt and I still sought something
Aug 2022 · 93
Eros
Muse Aug 2022
How I dream to be drunk on your kiss

To be enraptured by dionysian bliss

Free to proceed with unbound desire

To let every touch fill with voracious fire

Stolen from gods and placed in hands

Burning to know your sacred lands

To hear your heart beating in your chest

To feel your lungs fill with bated breath

Your mind your body your soul unveiled

Along with the banes and blessings entailed

Yet for all my wanting I'm filled with fear

If my wish comes to true you'll disappear
I think it hurt more that at times he encouraged my pursuit and dissuaded me from the idea of never
Aug 2022 · 114
Confessional
Muse Aug 2022
I come to you without pretenses or expectation

My truest feelings displayed unbelied

On my sleeve my truest heart I wear emblazoned

Without posture or playfulness or petty pride

What so entangles my mind when you are near

Like a crown of flowers or thorns wound round my head

Dispelling thought clouding reason subduing fear

Enchanted I wander to follow loves sanguine thread

Marching toward my star crossed crucifixion

Of which I shall gladly endure endless hours

For I seek no cure to remedy this sweet affliction

And with joyous praise fall to your powers
So I'm a little broken hearted rn and decided to move all the poems I wrote for him here so they can just exist
Sep 2018 · 143
Imbalance
Muse Sep 2018
I spend days at a time trying to forget I was his second choice

I hate the way he worships Seth with such admiration in his voice

A ******* paragon an idol to him an affection I could never attain

No matter how hard I try to be equal in his eyes it’s all in vain

I love this man more than any other that’s walked into my life

Being reminded I’ll always be second best just twists the knife

The way he said “When we go to visit him don’t be mad at me”

Filled me with rage and pain what else does he expect me to be

A man who couldn’t love him back will always mean more to him

Than the man who would sacrifice his heart, his life, his limbs
Jun 2018 · 195
My Love
Muse Jun 2018
Why do you carry the weight of the world in your hands
Do you think that I don’t see or I can’t  understand
Please just share the weight of the burdens inside my love

Is the crown you wear upon your head growing heavy
I often fear that it’s weight on you may be deadly
Please I beg just let go of your foolish pride my love

I know you feel like you must walk this road on your own
Don’t you see I am here you don’t have to be alone
I will always be their waiting by your side my love
Jul 2017 · 462
Ancient One
Muse Jul 2017
Oh Ancient One of times long ago
Your many faces we long to know
Oh horned one of wild woods
He who stalks on cloven hooves

We call to you Youth of the trees
We hear your name sung on the breeze
Horned Prince,Hunter,and Prey
Rising Sun of a new day

Oh Ancient One of times long ago
Your many faces we long to know
Oh horned one of wild woods
He who stalks on cloven hooves

We call to you Lord of the hunt
We see your face in the forest Ancient
Horned King,Father,and Man
Midday Sun in which we stand

Oh Ancient One of times long ago
Your many faces we long to know
Oh horned one of wild woods
He who stalks on cloven hooves

We call to you Sage of the wild
We seek your wisdom for we are like child
Horned Shaman, Hermit, and King
Setting Sun and darkness you bring


Oh Ancient One of times long ago
Your many faces we long to know
Oh horned one of wild woods
He who stalks on cloven hooves
Jun 2017 · 418
Ode to the New Moon Goddess
Muse Jun 2017
Dark lady of the crossroads 

Within your storm illusions erode
Stripped clean of our walls we stand

Skyclad we take thy fiery brand

A mark upon our brow illuminates 
In our inner darkness we meditate
Guided by your torches we travel
In your labyrinth we quickly unravel 

We are your children pull us tight
So we may explore the labyrinth this night
Mar 2017 · 343
Venus
Muse Mar 2017
He is Venus incarnate on this mortal plane

Yet finds nothing in himself plagued by darkness and pain


Every passing day is a constant fight in his mind 

Every lonely night is a hell with no light to find

If only he could see through to his warm glowing core

So he could see that beneath his flesh there is more


Underneath the flaws that I can’t see but he fears

That light that’s been buried by the burden of the years


If I could rip away the lovely flesh that holds you bound

I'd show you that beneath it all is where your beauty is found
Feb 2017 · 261
Untitled
Muse Feb 2017
It is the root of all suffering
The poisonous bud blossoming
It's tendril will choke and consume
Reaching deeper leaving no room
The leaves will devour every light
Bittersweet berries a deadly delight
I am the root of all agonizing pain
My poison a potent drug to abstain
My tendrils I will be thy blissful doom
You are that which I crave to consume My leaves will steal your lovely lights
The bitter berries my horrid blight
Feb 2017 · 203
Untitled
Muse Feb 2017
I am afraid
I panic as I try to explain through razor blade words that catch in my throat
Each emotion becoming another grotesque indistinguishable note
Sleep no longer grants a repose from the never ending march toward death
It has only served to isolate me when I awake struggling for breath
I can feel the weight on my chest grow heavier with no rest
Like a witch with stones piled on her caving chest
I'm at the edge of the abyss unsure if I should  jump or turn to flee
If I plunge into the darkness will there even be a memory left of me
I am afraid
Sep 2016 · 364
Mullato
Muse Sep 2016
Where do I belong?
For my kind the lines blur
I say I'm black I'm wrong?

Then how can I be right?
For my kind it's so unsure
To the others I'm not white

All this I could easily bare
If not for the hate and slurs
I know I don't fit anywhere
Sep 2016 · 276
Untitled
Muse Sep 2016
You can hate me all you want
You can curse my very name
You can spit venom in my eyes
But it won't change a thing

You can scream and cry and taunt
You can yell I'm not the same
You can spread your little lies
But you can't change a thing

I've left you broken
I've left you alone
Words left unspoken
I've been so cold
There's no turning back now
Now I've gone to far
I'll leave you in pieces
To find who you are

You can say it's all my fault
You can say you're not to blame
You can weave all your little webs
But it doesn't change a thing

I've left you broken
I've left you alone
Words left unspoken
I've been so cold
There's no turning back now
Now I've gone to far
I'll leave you in pieces
To find who you are

I can hate you all I want
I can say I'm not to blame
I can spit venom in your eyes
But I can't change a thing

You've been left broken
Who left you alone
Words we left unspoken
I was so cold
There's no turning back now
Now we've gone to far
I'll leave you in pieces
To find who you are

One final question
Before I let go
When I said it was easy
Did it hurt you to know
That I was so cold
Aug 2016 · 222
Untitled
Muse Aug 2016
Witch of Inferno
Lays dormant in her tomb
Sealed in the impregnable womb
Wrapped in the veils of the Cocoon
To escape the fluttering of small wings
The keepers of souls and lost things
Queen of the night her left eye is the moon
With it she cast this enchantment to hide
The Shadow inside
Child of the stars it's eyes are the world
The Light shone
With it he played this prayer alone
King of the day his right eye is the sun
The givers of souls and secret things
To dance the whispering of slithering
Wrapped in the coils of the scaled ones
Revealed on the shimmering lake
The blessings of being awake
Saint of Paradiso
Muse Aug 2016
The boy enters into the dark Cathedral
An ***** plays a melancholic nocturne
Calling up from the dark depths tendrils
The boys chest pulls and stomach churns
Down the dark church hallways he is pulled
Out an ornate door to a sepia  courtyard
In the center there stands a stone Bull
It creeks and crumbles as he enters the yard

"Let the first trial begin"

The beast it charges rippling with strength
The boy can hardly dodge it's advances
He quickly tires as his power fails at length
He succumbs to it as they take their stances
The Bull runs the boy through his back
Feeling the horn's vile splendorous horror
The boy is newly awakened by the attack
He falls forward to mourn in revel in gore
"The first trial now ends"
The Bulls lust now satisfied returns to sleep
The boy now reborn rises to his sore feet
Aug 2016 · 513
Hello
Muse Aug 2016
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
Let me start by saying

Hello
Is it me you're looking for
For I have seen you in my mind
And I have felt you in my soul
Perhaps the heart is blind
There is only one way to know

May I try to win your heart
Though I haven't got a clue
Let me start by saying

Hello
Is it you I'm searching for
For you have a place in my mind
And I have given you my soul
Perhaps your eyes are blind
So instead my soul will show

As I try to win your heart
I haven't got a clue
Let me start by saying

Hello
It's not me you're looking for
For I have no place in your Sphere
And my soul dwells outside of light
Perhaps I keep my heart too near
But I am afraid to let it go

So I can not win your heart
For I never had the vaguest clue
Perhaps I should have whispered
I love you
Sopor Aeternus was my inspiration in the form of her cover of "Hello" by Lionel Ricchie as I try to work through some heart gunk
Aug 2016 · 318
Devil's Vessel
Muse Aug 2016
Sealed within the metal vessel
Is the beating blood of ancient Devils
Pressing against the fleshy womb
Scratching upon their boneyard tomb

Free us from this prison cell
All the secrets we can tell
Who you are where you belong
Just drag the cold steel key along
The door opens their forms revealed
Crimson Devils names concealed
They shackle the wrists with chains
Torment the vessel with searing pains

One whispers words of doubt
Two draws the life out
Three pukes evil in vessels eyes
Four waits for vessel to die
A painful Death awaits
As the vessel cracks beneath the weight
Broken and beaten it crumbles
Jul 2016 · 559
Untitled
Muse Jul 2016
I don't know the world just seems to be spinning to fast
Losing touch as time lose sense of future present or past
A child stood before a mirror filled with aspiration
A highschooler laid in bed his head filled by frustration
As he watches years of studying steadily fall apart
Trying to piece it together with nowhere to stary
An adult now looking back through the passage of time
struggling to find the answer to "Were those dreams mine?"
Jul 2016 · 590
Malevolent Beauty
Muse Jul 2016
Enchanted queen bound in lace
Sleeping Beauty trapped in a maze
A garden of rotten flowers bloom
Her dreams the nectar they exume

In her garden veiled in mist
She calmly awaits to be kissed
Such a beauty robbed of breath
Cloaked in incense to hide her death

A lovely flower, come and see
As the perfumes waft enchantingly
To ***** out the light her prince carries
The healing light to cure her dreams disease
The evil spell of the black bird faeries

No there is no turning back
Once he has fallen for their trap
If he is faithful to her bliss.
Then she will be awakened by a kiss

Poor maiden dreaming in her cell
She knows the darkness very well
and all the spells the magpies sing
For the enchanted prince charming

The veils unravel in her hold
She is the goddess that unfolds
Mystic beauty caressing
Dark witch faery claims a king
Jun 2016 · 365
Sopor
Muse Jun 2016
The cradle rocks from side to side
Sleep and Death lay together inside
Singing their favourite lullaby

When your heart is heavy
When your mind is full
When your body is weary
Your spirit we will pull

The cradle rocks from side to side
Sleep calls dreamers to lay beside
Singing his favourite lullaby

When your heart is unspoken
When you mind runs astray
When your body is broken
Your spirit I'll call away

The cradle rock from side to side
Death calls the lost souls inside
Singing his favourite lullaby

When your heart is cold
When you mind fades away
When your body is old
Your spirit I'll call away

The cradle rocks from side to side
As I walk among those it calls inside
Singing my favourite lullaby

My heart is heavy and unspoken
My mind is full and runs away
My body is weary and broken
My spirit please pull and call away
My heart is not yet cold
My mind is not yet faded away
My body is not old
Yet my spirit longs for the day
Jun 2016 · 407
Cornucopia
Muse Jun 2016
I eat unendingly some days
Gorging myself on sweets
Swallowing down meats
Yet the hole never goes away

I stand before a looking glass
Revolted by my bulging flesh

I forget to eat some days
Ignoring the pangs of hunger
Until I can take it no longer
Yet the hole decides to stay

I stand before a looking glass
Hoping to love my ugly flesh

I eat unendingly some days
Sickened by my pig like body
Disgusted by my ******* gluttony
Yet the hole eats away
May 2016 · 2.5k
In The Cradle of Morpheus
Muse May 2016
The soul speaks only in whispers now
As it passes through the veil
Stay beyond the reach of death somehow
On your journey to prevail

To the cradle of Morpheus
The keeper of your dreams
Much like the journey of Orpheus
You traverse Hades streams

The soul creeps slowly through the gates
As it enters the world below
Stay beyond the eye of the all seeing fates
If back home you hope to go

To the cradle of Morpheus
The keeper of lost things
Much like the journey of Orpheus
Who played upon his strings

The soul silently to the cradle does sneak
As it peers at the sleeper within
Beyond the reach of the living world is what you seek
Climb in the cradle of Sleep and his twin

In the cradle of Morpheus
The keeper and his twin
Much like the story of Orpheus
You may not win

The soul climbs in and is filled with fear
As it hears that silent breath
Beyond the veil these twins draw near
In the cradle you will find Sleep and his brother Death

In the cradle of Morpheus
The keeper of lost life
Much like the story Orpheus
The man who lost his wife
Morpheus and Thanatos are two twin deity in Greek myth presiding over sleep and death respectively. Often in art they are confused with Eros due all three having wings
May 2016 · 872
The Crone
Muse May 2016
Lost in the labyrinth of Hekate
At a triple crossroads dance with me
As the New moon watches from up high
And her black birds cackle in the sky

As we dance a circle among the trees
Lost in the Labyrinth of Hekate
At the crossroads will you work your rite
As her black hounds circle tonight

By starlight will you call the Queen
Are you afraid to dance with those unseen
Lost in the labyrinth of Hekate
Owl Serpent and Horse are she

Will you slip into her ancient trance
As the Crone Witch joins in our dance
As is our will so mote it be
Lost in the Labyrinth of Hekate
Hekate(pronounced Heh-Ka-Tee)is an ancient Greek goddess often worshipped by Witches as a Dark or Crone goddess
Muse May 2016
Long ago he told me blood was the currency of souls
In those illuminated moments I was whole
As if under baptism I was bathed in flames
And over my soul a transfiguration came
As our blood on paper rose with the smoke
A bond of blood once a contract now a joke
As he keeps walking with a holy grace
I wallow in my self pity wholly a disgrace
As I realize after so many years they were only gestures
Every touch every kiss every word said by the Jester
Apr 2016 · 255
Untitled
Muse Apr 2016
Let the rain pour down on me
Wash away the blood on my knees
Because I've been praying so long
And I'm just not that strong
I've waited for heavens light
Waited for it to shatter the night
To sift through these empty eyes
And dig through my sad disguise
I've already fallen from gods grace
And into darkness' silent embrace
To a world of empty dreams
A heart torn apart at it's seams
God lay me down to sleep
With only my lonely dream to keep
Save me from this empty fear
Show me that you are here
Give me one reason to pray
Give me one reason to say
"God save me from my sin"
Maybe then I'll believe again
Apr 2016 · 379
Possession
Muse Apr 2016
There is a darkness living inside me
I thinks he's been there since I was three
He laid dormant when I was five
When I was thirteen he came alive
At first he was weak barely a noise
But soon he became an ever present voice
He started to show me I was alone
He told me this world is not my own
I was separated from the other empty shells
I was locked in my mind a personal hell
The demon began clawing at my flesh
He became a force I could hardly supress
He crashed around inside my head for days
He became a force from which I couldn't run away
When I was sixteen I began to find some reprieve
But now that I'm eighteen I see he'll never leave
Mar 2016 · 380
She-Wolf
Muse Mar 2016
We call her under full moons light
The blessed beast of the night
We dance around the blazing flame
Call the blessed goddesses name
She comes cloaked in white wolfskin
The Lunar goddess of our Coven
We are drawn into her mystic trance
She joins us in our wild dance
Through the night we twist and turn
Our souls reach for the life we yearn
Mar 2016 · 276
In This Prison Cell
Muse Mar 2016
It's getting so hard to see through the haze
Distorting their faces until I avert my gaze
It wraps itself around the mind I call home
Enchanting my eyes to seeing only monochrome
It sits on my chest to eat my dreams at night
So I force my eyes open until they see light
Reserving sleep for the safety of the day
Waking to find I'm wasting my life away
Mar 2016 · 226
Untitled
Muse Mar 2016
I feel like I'm running in place
And when I reach a steady pace
I feel like I always fall on my face

I feel like I've been falling forever
Wondering why I can't get it together
I'm just waiting for it to get better

I just wish it would stop raining
That my dreams would stop fading
Then maybe I could stop my petty Complaining
Mar 2016 · 291
A Poem About A Lily
Muse Mar 2016
She sits in darkness dancing with death
A death in her family and a friend last breath

She is afraid of being alone with her thoughts
Thoughts of suicide is all lonliness brought

She is told that she is beautiful by men
Then comes home to a family who contradicts them

She feels hated by her brother and even her mother
A mother who treats her like **** unlike any other

This is the life she's excepted she calls it luck
Bad luck gave her a world where no one gives a ****

She believes her life can't change sufficiently
But I think one day she may see differently

There may be hope when she talks about dreams
Maybe her future isn't as bleak as it seems
Feb 2016 · 402
The Gourmet
Muse Feb 2016
Prepare yourselves for the most spectacular feast
We have assembled only the most remarcable meats
First on tonights menu we proudly present misogyny
Now I know what you're thinking misogyny is so 1920
I know it may not look like much but it has a prevelant flavour
Next up we will be eagerly serving poverty
I know you don't like spilling your wallets for paucity
But a helping of this meal is a good impression to savour
Our third delectable course of the evening is racism
Now I know how you all prefer dressed pigs
Regardless this dish has a lovely taste remenisent of slavery
Our final irresistible dish of the night is war
This meal is very complex a mix of racism and patriotism
It's a dish no biastophiliac could possibly pass up
With that we conclude our all American Repulsive Eaters Feast
Feb 2016 · 639
The Ghoul
Muse Feb 2016
There are rumors of a ghoul
Who stalks abandoned places
They say he is never full
And he wears many faces

He can hide in a memory
While you visit a loved ones grave
He can hide in the obituary
Of someone you couldn't save

He can feast on the living
While he is fed by the dead
He can constrict your breathing
If he can get into your head

He can eat away dreams
And leave behind despair
He'll split lips at the seams
To hide that he's there

His games are the worst of all
He'll pretend to be gone
Then laugh as you fall
Then he'll keep feasting on
Feb 2016 · 391
His Hourglass
Muse Feb 2016
He wants to be a soldier
To die for his flag
To find a purpose
To be a hero
To help
To save
Someone
To save
A friend
His nation
To find meaning
Something to die for
He wants to be a martyr
Feb 2016 · 763
Pandora's Box
Muse Feb 2016
Lust, Wrath, Envy, Passion
Aren't just a passing fashion
Don't try to fight your sins
Embrace the beast within

Open Pandora's box
Discover what it unlocks
Why are you afraid


Greed, Pride, Gluttony, Consuming
Break the guise you're assuming
Don't get caught on their hook
Don't be a slave to a book

Open Pandora's box
Discover what it unlocks
Come on break the chains

Sloth, ***, ******, Magik
What's life without a little havoc
Don't let them decide who you are
Sin is fun if you don't go to far

Open Pandora's box
Discover what it unlocks
Take control of your fate
Feb 2016 · 453
A Nightmare Preffered
Muse Feb 2016
My dreams have been deferred one too many times
I'm beginning to wonder if those dreams were mine
Dried up like a raisin in the sun
A festering wound starting to run

My dreams have been deffered
By the nightmares I preffered
Over the reality
Of human suffering

My dreams have been deferred one too many times
I'm beginning to wonder if those dreams were mine
They stink like rotting meat
Rot and sugar over bittersweet

My dreams have been deffered
By the nightmares I preffered
Over the hypocracies
Of human niceties

My dreams have been deferred one too many times
I'm beginning to wonder if those dreams were mine
They're a sagging heavy load
That I fear may explode

My dreams have been deffered
By the nightmares I preffered
Over the insanity
Of human society

My dreams have been deferred one too many times
I'm beginning to wonder if those dreams were mine
Largely inspired by Langston Hughes "A Dream Deffered"
Feb 2016 · 733
Atman
Muse Feb 2016
Sahasrara
The Universe opens your mind
Ajna
You're Eye is no longer blind
Visuddha
The Truth breaks all lies
Anahata
Love is an eternal tie
Muladhara
Strength comes from within
Svadsthana
Pleasure is found when forgiven
Manipura**
The Self is greater than Fear
Constructive critisism, and tips are welcome(obviously) This was more of a quick thing I may come back to it later
Feb 2016 · 317
Night Travels
Muse Feb 2016
I remember a dream I had not long ago
I sat with a stranger that I seemed to know
We spoke about the stars and the planets
We talked about Gods and who planned it
We questioned if we are slaves to destiny
We shared the answers of lifes mysteries
Then the darkness cracked releasing light
Our time was up, but we tried to fight
We suddenly realized we've been here before
The he said you were never afraid to die before
So I let go and fell off of the black stone
Through the light and awoke all the answers gone
Jan 2016 · 432
Untitled
Muse Jan 2016
The peace that I hope to find
I find within my own mind
But as soon as I start to dream
The dreams I dream are filled with scream
I struggle to hear my thoughts
These peaceful thoughts I had sought
Filled with silence cloaked in peace
The tranquility just beyond twisted trees
The place beyond the shadow men
A quite meadow or peaceful glen
Vibrations I to ride until I ascend
Upward away from spectres  I descended
Jan 2016 · 278
Wayward
Muse Jan 2016
I sleep all day to avoid the light
Wasting away the the winter night
Mantras and meditation try to revive
The deteriation of my will to survive
Om gam ganapatye namaha
Dec 2015 · 280
Confession
Muse Dec 2015
She was only a ten year old
Suffering as the cancer took hold
It started to show when she was nine
At the time she still managed to shine
Even though her eye was now lazy
It never bothered the little lady
Her headaches never went away
As she lost her childhood every passing day
She was only ten years old
She lay there as her body turned cold
A summer spent trapped in a bed
In a body where hell was her own head
I think I killed her with my last words
What I whispered was the last she heard
Before she inhaled deeply and started to go
The rattles began and her pulse started to slow
I whispered "I love you; it's okay if you go"
With her birthday approaching someone had to know
So I don't know if this could trigger someone, so warning I suppose.
Dec 2015 · 343
Faces
Muse Dec 2015
Who am "I"
As if a personality is a singularity
Am I the Pierot walking the tightrope
Am I the Ghoul eating dead memory
Am I the Well waiting to be fulfilled

The Pierot wears a lovely mask that smiles
But under it he is afraid of falling
The abyss below is one that falls for miles
But when he walks or falls he is alone

The Ghoul haunts the graveyard and battlefields
Knawing at dry skeletal memories
Trying to swallow emptiness that will not yield
As time passes by in a field of headstones

The Well has been polluted for many years
By wishes and secret desires thrown in
All their secrets and wishes ****** onto its ears
It is fullfilled by desires that are not its own

Who am "I"
As if I could find a singularity
As if the Pierot was all
As if the Ghoul wasn't starving
As if the Well wouldn't poison my thoughts
Sep 2015 · 537
Why I hate August
Muse Sep 2015
I just watched the years pass by
God it's amazing how time flies
We're not staying up all night long
Well I guess that's wrong
I should've have said together
I remember when that meant forever
Promises bound in blood and kisses
Am I really the only one who misses
Them,You,Me,Us?


I
May 2015 · 386
Reaching For Heaven
Muse May 2015
There's a stone in my throat
And I fear I may choke
In this hell that you built
I am burdened by guilt

There's a beat in my heart
And I feel it may start
In this hell I've been placed
That I don't wish to face

There's a note in my hand
And you may understand
Why I don't belong here
And chose to disappear

There's a blade at my wrists
And I fear it persists
To beckon my soul home
But I would be alone

There's a voice at my door
And I sob on the floor
As the blade falls away
She whispers it's okay

There's a hero weeping
And she's the one keeping
Me reaching for heaven
As we fight depression
Warning: Includes self-harm and depression
Mar 2015 · 698
Bloodline
Muse Mar 2015
I'm a perfect cocktail of disgrace
A destiny of betrayal is in my face
And in my blood it's like a tapestry
A bloodline binding my family tree
I carve the mark of Cain in my skin
In a vain attempt to drain away sin
Praying I don't break and tear a vein
Though maybe I would break the chain
Freeing generations of broken souls
Spilling my blood may pay our toll
Or will my disease simply transcend
Spread like a virus to family and friends
Warning: References to self-harm
Mar 2015 · 665
Wasted Virginity
Muse Mar 2015
A symbol of innocence wasted
On you when I should've waited
But in the moment I didn't care
I just felt comfortable there
No voices saying I fat or ugly
Just hands that would feel me
A mouth that brought me release
A body I could only try to please
By submission I could be enough
Even for a moment I had his love
Or some semblance of affection
To spare me my mental afflictions
The irony of this illusion I trust
Is the clear reality of our lust
Dec 2014 · 585
Guilty Crown
Muse Dec 2014
Automatons grind and roar
Miasma's drive us to the floor
Enslaved by the kings guilty crown
Ritual sacrifice to keep us down
Insidious engines spewing smoke
Clawing at our burning throats
As the people lose their hold

Television leaves us dumb and idle
Hail the mechanical gods and idols
Everybody bow to the iron cold

Give up freedom and you'll be fed
Refuse and they'll paint you red
Eat up their poison and their lies
Accept their disguise and evil eyes
Take in the eagle your soul is sold
Dec 2014 · 395
Mother's Cigarettes
Muse Dec 2014
I feel like dying wouldn't suffice
As every puff robs her of her life
It's not a knife but it's still suicide
Each puff like taking in cyanide
But she keeps inhaling the smoke
As her children watch her choke
Knowing if she dies they'll be alone
Seeing her depression has grown
She hides behind a drawn on smile
She is walking a thousand miles
Trying to get to were she needs
With each step she starts to bleed
Still going as gray hands hold her
And the poison stick still smolders
Cigarettes and suicide is referenced as a simile
Jan 2014 · 1.3k
Sober
Muse Jan 2014
I want to get drunk tonight
To drift away on the stars
I want to feel the dizziness
And watch the blur of cars
But I'm still sober and awake
Not watching stars blaze
Not feeling the giddy buzz
and still seeing your face
****.
Why can't one drink do it for me
References to alcohol sorry if it's a problem
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