Castles and kings collapse
Leaving them to sift through
The wreckage of the apocalypse

Armies are cut to the ground
Painting with sanguine swords
A silent world where there is no sound

The red sun begins to set
As doors close on this world
Leaving the corpses God forgets

Feet scorched by the raging flame
The pain tells her she's to blame
To her day and night are the same
When shadows call her name
But she'll keeps dancing on hot coals
Until the hellfire swallows her whole
When the darkness consumes her soul
She'll gain back the repose they stole
Dancing across her skin the fire sings
Of magic and otherworldly things
And she welcomes what it brings
Dancing with the fires sweet sting
The fire raises to the dark sky
With it she and her dreams fly
Then she utters in a joyful sigh
Goodbye

I feel so helpless and weak
Taking words that they speak
I just smile saying I don't care
While I wish they weren't there
So I could let my guard down
Letting my confidence drown
It's not as bad as it seems
I've just lost my self-esteem
I wear a smile to hide it
I honestly feel like ****
I want to be strong like you
I want my smiles to be true

I tried to talk to you to ask you why
To find why you told me goodbye
Why am I so stupid and useless
Why can't I be more selfless

Will I ever know why we died
Will you ever tell me you tried
Or that is was me that I failed
Just tell me this ship has sailed

Did you mean it do you hate me
Or is there something I don't see
Am I really that imperfect to you
I would try and fix it if only I knew

So I could stop crying in my room
Praying roses don't start to bloom
Fed by tears rolling down my cheeks
Did you hate because I was weak?

Today I slept through the rain
And in my dreams lost the pain
I said the words I needed to
And I got to hold and kiss you
But alas when I awoke it was gone
from the lake of sorrow was drawn
Waters filled with potent venom
To make true smiles evermore seldom
Tonight I'll lie awake with our sketchbook
And I'll draw back the repose you took

I am not one of them nor will I ever be.
That is the truth.
I am a loser; worthless
Are things I am not.
Popular and hot
Are words that spell me.
Weak and ugly
I scorn them.
Beautiful people
Like me are uncommon.
Ugly losers
I am beautiful.
I hate lies like
I'm a *******.
They tell me
I am not one of them nor will I ever be.

Do I really look like that man
I want to be a better image
But I am unsure that I can
Can I defy my lineage
Fathers leaving sons alone
Saying I love you son
Am I him in a lighter tone
Can I ever love anyone
Does my blood bind my chain
Does my reflection make me
Is his flesh my mark of Cain
His reflections all I see

Elohim have you forgotten the prayers of your people
Avinu what happened to those praying under your steeple
El Shaddai did you leave them to hang from the rope
Adonai did you care that the bullets their only hope
If you're almighty give them the strength to stand
If you're all knowing see their pain and lend a hand
Is saving a life stealing free will in the eyes of the lord
Can you not speak as you did to Moses and lend kind words

Wouldn't it be sublime if we could fly
If the world were mine we'd soar 'til we die
Like fairies we'd fly swift as the shadows
Going anywhere that the wind does blow
The fragrance of the fields below give way
Among flowers we the lost ones do lay
Through the forest we the dreamers bring light
Then like phantoms we run into the night
Our scars are no longer there when we dream
We are happy when we dance in Alfheim

We live in a world where society decides what's real
A world where you are told who you are and what you feel
If you're anorexic or you cut you're an attention *****
And they try to beat you down until you can't take anymore
Or if you get pregnant and are still a little young
They say she's probably a **** and drug addict and high strung
Not realizing that it's really not even their place
Even if it was at least have the guts to say it to someone's face
Instead of judging their live evaluate yours
Stop whispering he say and she says behind closed doors
So what if they're anorexic they're in pain
And if they cut it doesn't mean you can call them insane
Because it's not even your place to say
Shut the hell up stop acting arrogant and move out my way
You are not them you are you
You don't have a ******* clue about what they've been through

Fairy in the sky grant me one wish
Purge me like a sinners soul
My one last wish is this

Castle in the sky of you I dream
Reach for you to make me whole
With wings made of moon beams

Lost in a field of roses I stand
Bound in black bitter rose vines
Reaching with sanguine hands

No more magic left within me
I can never make you mine
To blind for me to see

We build these walls up around us
Reset as we fall into the dust
In this game we keep running away

Run from the monster behind you
Wrong turn and it finally finds you
There is no more running on this way

In this labyrinth of these lost hearts
Thin as fabric we lose our parts
Reaching for a castle in the sky

Dreaming of cerulean skies
Wishing like a fairy I could fly
Reaching for that castle 'til I die

I was once told God loves everyone
So why do I see so many wanting to die
Why doesn't God here them as they cry
When all they really need is someone

I don't want to see them fight themselves
Nor do I want to see their world crash down
I don't want to watch a friend start to drown
Because they feel like a doll left on the shelf

I don't want to put faith in Gods hands
When he might come a little to late
Because they were left with only hate
And were so hungry they couldn't stand

I don't want to watch someone die
Because they think they're fat
Why won't God fix that
No point asking why

You left me with hate inside me
A hate I never could seem to see
The hate which you passed on
When you wished I was gone
You made me shatter the glass
A red ribbon and dark road pass
Two years and still I won't bleed
And still I feel it's what I need
A few faded scars and one strong
Oh that a cat scratch nothing's wrong
I smile but they don't believe the mask
Fade away memories that's all I ask

God said partake only of the tree of life
For the other brings only death and strife
But how can knowledge be called as sin
I say bring death and strife let them in
For death is a worthy price for free will
I rather starve and know it then eat my fill
I refuse to follow blindly in your Lord
I would rather fall upon a rusted sword
How can one see the light in such a way
How does one like you look forward to day
Believing your soul is not in your hands
And as swiftly as you were made you are sand

I want you to know that I do care
No matter who you are I am there
Maybe it's my own selfish needs
To want to not let you bleed
But please whoever you may be
Smile just a little while for me
I know it's cruel for me to ask you
For this is something you're scared to do
Because it's only for a short while
None the less will you smile
Even if it causes pain and woe
It's not as perfect as a scar I know
Please just fill my selfish request
Don't take your last breath
Someone does care they do
No I may not know you
But I care if you live or die
Even if it's selfish it's not a lie

Help me 'cause I can't move on without your okay
Your body soul and heart is mine isn't that what you'd say
I remember when I wasn't met with uncaring eyes
When I never had a reason to break and cry
Maybe I still don't maybe I'm just unstable
But I've tried to get over it I'm just unable
Is it attention seeking if I keep it inside
If all I do is lock it up and make it hide
All I need to know is why do you hate me
Was it something you hid to no can't be
Maybe just maybe I'll know for sure
Maybe I should knock on his door

I listen to my radio and hear your voice in the songs
And I lay in my bed wondering what went wrong
On that summer so long ago
It all seemed to go so slow
I remember you touching me tasting so tantalizing
Lips pressed on my neck were we just fantasizing
Soon summer passed by
We wouldn't even meet eyes
And I remember you hating me hurting so humiliating
Words cut into my skin were we just a summer fling

You call it righteous and holy to judge another's love
Then you try to justify it as the word of God above
And as you ridicule your peers they cheer you on
Leaving him or her wishing they were dead and gone
Yet still you continue screaming out queer and ***
And it wears down on us until our shoulders sag
But still it is thrown in waves that persist
Until one of us tie a noose and slit our wrist
Then you ridicule us still calling us week
When safety from your words is all we seek