The pain won’t stay
So long
See you in May
Just not today, myself to betray
Lose myself indulging in what’s not spoken
Losing grip of the entirety of this moment
The only regrets I have are the ones that make her upset
is this a phase
false love to praise?
am i insane?
insecurities i can't restrain
is this a test?
one I can't retake?
is this a game?
one I cannot play?
when will it pay?
in debt til I decay
what should I say?
it's wrong to hate
the obvious is said
complications in my head
resulting in my death
it's life or lead
but what's to complain at the end when I wake up in a bed

too many use of drugs i just want to see you girl
every second i gasp for your energy
breathing through my misery to catch some of your insight
melting with the thought of us together
how can i disconnect from what i truly need?
no kind of practice can enlighten the animal within
in the void i just capture myself in states of awe, my ego swells
amazement in my self, i need to stop that man
can't handle too much of me, i guess that's why there's a trinity
don't need that kind of comfort i'm one with fear and awkwardness
one with the insecurities that used to penetrate in my day to day
one with the negativity that used to hold me back
but i had to learn to push myself beyond my "self"
every single kiss i see through my mirror girl
every single glance my mind stop and spins around a pole that last's forever in rotation
trying to find the end but you left me with nothing but beginnings girl
a new approach i see myself going after the gun blow
everytime i see you, we're in the midst of blow
but why cry? i love you

You can't pass by and sigh/
The water runs over waters like the *** /dripped down your face/

Haven't ate in 19 hours////

I love the sound of your mind/
Your wind never dies/
When do you not ******* away?/
I can't stay and no I cannot say why/
these eyes begin to cry when I realize what you are to I/
Just know that I am near, so is death/
And love doesn't begin, nor does it end/
We just **** and I put my hand on your face/

The people wonder why we ever came about

Time doesn't come with a why it happens
There's no book to find answers for the reasons we question

Shouldn't we be aware of this?/
That to love is not always bliss/
Sometimes your presence won't mean much to me/
My face aches whenever the vibe is dead/
But the experiences are worth listening to/

The moment fly out of our hands and merge within the books of our existence/
Distance is nothing you say, but I can't bare the idea that you are not there/
A 15 minute car ride is already too much/

And I love you too much

12:51 AM
Planet Earth I think

1/18/2017

Don't make me mad

I'll just repeat that again, like always