By:D.E.T
Date: 12/22/15
Hate to see that frame
And know that my face ain't the same
Cuz I know I am dying slowly
And lonely
But that's just the truth
Sometimes I wish I could re-do
Myself
Cuz I would create a strong shell
To protect myself
Yeah, there was too much weight
That I wanted to escape
From
But there gotta be some
People who beat hell out of me
Yeah, cuz they want me to be
Something that isn't me
Yeah, tell you this
Sometimes I miss
My smile
Cuz as I walked the mile
I realized
That the file had real lies
As I begin to look at the lines
My tears made me go blind
And erased
My smile I had in my face
Yeah, as people in my school
Who were trying to act cool
Told me to go commit suicide
I took a side
And that slid
To realize that if I committed suicide
My whole family would cry
And as I visualize
No! I won't **** myself
Cuz I am here for a purpose
And those who thought
I was worthless
End it up plotting dots
Yeah, hate to know
That I could've save myself
But I was too focus on my fears
That made me drop tears
Yeah, every night I had nightmares
That turned up my fears
To speak up
Tell you this
Sometimes I just wanted to disappear
And appear
In a lonely world
Where I could feel that happiness
But what happens
When you are so, focused
On the fears
Makes your spirit
Get the ticket
To know that if you speak
Yeah you will kicked
And picked
But though I was split
I begin to flip coins
And take turns
To see if that would change the things
But it did nothing
Not till that day
The sky was gray
Yeah, this bullies
Were behind me
Yeah I ran fast so, they don't find me
But they got me
And began to kick me
And pick me
Yeah, that's where I realized
In my own eye's
That I had to fight back
Yeah, they got that smack
Didn't care if my bones cracked
But they got that smack
Cuz I as tired that I acted weak
Cuz I didn't speak
And after that day I realized
That there was hope
In surface
And yeah I begin to face
The fears
And the doors of happiness
Begin to appear
I wrote this poem to make everyone realized that they are not alone and I wrote this poem to based on a experience that I went through but till I got tired I decided to speak up for myself. And thanks my parents I was able to smile again. :) So, speak up up cuz you are not alone:)