Always crying
Been through *******
Called names
Done with this
Enough of Sadness
******* ****
Gone with the tears
Hate is filling up my ears
In a few days ill be away
Just calm down
Killing me
Lame.
Monumental Emotions
No more of this
Over it
People have feelings
Questioning my existence
Real or?
Sorry for it all
Too hard to smile
Unloved
Very Stressed
Why this
Xd out
Never knowing Y
Zzzzzzz forever

dear past me
you're a ******* idiot
you broke the hearts
you caused the problems
you stayed too high
you spoke the wrong words
you dressed like a *****
even though you really weren't
you disobeyed
you caused hatred
you've also been through a lot
its been a  hard time
all of the *******
all of the pain
all of the sadness
caught in your brain
innocent young you
caught into problems
****, bro
its all passed
we can't solve em
I am the person I am today there's nothing I can
do
I love myself
so ******* thank you
(still have problems, though)

The specks in my eyes
are red
the flowers I see are red
the door I closed is red
chair I wait in is red
the blood drawn is red
the ink of the results
is red
the clouds become red
I run out the door
my face is red
embarrassment
my tears are hot
the stoplight
is blurry
and red
the bottle I buy is red
98% proof
the pills are red
my couch is red
I close my eyes and now
I see black
I hope the roses
are red
place them above
where I rest my head
i awake
"why?"
the lights are fluorescent
my bracelet is white
all I see is white

I'm better
the stop lights are green
his doorstep is shaded
my knuckles bleed
knocking
his face is red
embarrassment
his nose bleeds
red
such as the blood
they took from me
red.

I feel like I'm breaking
I'm together
but I'm down
break-down
train tracks
beat down
rollercoaster
life
up, down
down down
small up
long down
one step forward
four steps back
where the ****
am I headed?

You are born
mother weeps
then smiles
a child
you are raised
alright
then
a sister
two
and older brother
as well
hardship
the foreclosure
apartment
no more farm
grandma
heart attack
saved
brain dead
mold
pneumonia
you
hospital
4 months
near death
RV
coast
side of the road
three years
"we're sick of you"
fire
sadness
loss
homeless
forest and a tent
camp stove
go fund me
not much
new RV
uncle's driveway
finally
months partying
ciggerette addiction
depression
now we hit the road
as far as Utah
now stranded
problems
broke
broke down
fight
attempt to die
trouble
train
back to
California
now I sit here
I miss them
and that's not even the half of the trouble
I've been through
since I was born

This time of night i get in the flow
Words in my mind i simply
just let go
being in this place is a lifelong mind
vacation
its evident that ive got some
Californiacation

Sitting on my floor
blast the tunes and
lock the door
blaze that ****
elevate
expand
your mind

Inhale
This
Medicine

Blazin'

Space cadet
UFO
Abductee

I feel the good vibes