I sit here
Contemplating how to conquer my fear
Can I alter the wheel? Or just
Fall down and kneel? I must
Have something to live for, some
Spark to ignite, some
Purpose to endure, these
Pains in the night, still...

I sit here
Searching for a way out of the pattern
It doesn't matter to the scheme, but
It keeps me from sleeping
Scattered thoughts, in a blink
I'm lost again, for naught, cause
Memories are so decieving...

I sit here
Thinking so what if Im selfish?
Are you saying you're not? Ha!
The prospect is childish, this
"Who said what again", nonsense,
Is boring the **** outta me...so

I sit here
Waiting for the reckoning.
Patiently, drifing through this
Time and space and happening,
Chasing pleasures, and vices, no
Remorse when the dice roll
Snakes eyes see through cold stone,
I can tell you arent alive so...

I sit here...

Beautiful sadness,     walk with me awhile
and let me tell you,      stories of sorrow.

who do I ask?
about the sky u call heaven
who do i ask?
about the god that never answers my prayers
who do I ask ?
about the demon under my bed that never lets me sleep

who do i ask?
about my tormenting nightmares
of demons who can cry
whom feel sympathy
who dont know how to lie
who do i ask?
           there is no one
      no one to ask
so i still have dreams about
                                                     demons
              who can cry
                   who feel sympathy
                        who dont know how to lie
it goes against everything I've ever known
but with no one to ask
im on my own