I just want to take a moment here again to thank you all for following my work and growth throughout this journey.
As a creative person and an artist, I get depressed and overwhelmed a lot of the time. I get so many ideas in my head, sticking there like velcro, and poking the inside of my brain until I let them out.
I'm constantly drowning in thoughts and ideas. I try to doggy paddle across the waves, but sometimes they pull me under and I can't breathe for a while.
My art helps heal me, but it also destroys me. I take one step forward, two steps back. And some days, I look at everything I've created and I cry. I cry because I hate it. I cry because I love it so much that I hate it. And that might not make sense to you, but it's how I feel.
Creating and writing helps to get all of the bad thoughts out. But every so often, I just feel lost. Like I'm floating here without purpose, just dangling in the wind and being tangled deeper and deeper into myself.
Some days, I want to call it quits. I want to throw it all away, and say goodbye to everything I've created. Some days I crave to be "normal" and accepted among the majority.
I'm sorry for rambling on, but allow me to come to my point:
You guys keep me going. Your support and interest in my work makes me feel like I have a reason to be here. It gives me back my sense of purpose. And I'm so thankful that so many wonderful people have been following my work. It's an honor to create for you, truly.
Thank you.
-Arlo