I'm a difficult person,
I admit it.
Sometimes I don't take the words of other people just because of little things about them.
But that's how I'm.
And when a rebellion of voices is in my head,
I start panicking,
I start searching for help.
Some people keep talking with me until I'm calm,
They try to understand me,
Even when I don't understand myself.
And other people just go away,
Stop talking with me,
And call me crazy and stupid,
They give up on me.
I understand them,
If I could I would give up on me too.
But I can't,
And there are people who don't want to give up on me,
They make me see I have some value left,
That's not bad being sad,
Or making mistakes.
We are human beings that's how we are.
So stop expecting me to be perfect,
Stop saying I'm not worth of it,
Because I am.
I have people to prove it.
And if you don't want to stay in my life because of one bad moment of mine,
Then that's your problem,
Not mine.

Maybe I was just drowning in the thought of you,
Of what I made myself think was you.
I didn't see any flaws
And if they tried to appear I'd just cover them with tape and say they were okay.
That I was fine with whatever pain you made me go through.
But that's a lie only I can admit.
It was a truth for so long in my head,
That I didn't really know the possibility of this.
Of all this being what it is.
It's all inside my head,
That "I've never loved someone like you",
It's all in my head.
Ate me alive for 3 months,
Until now,
When I realize,
I'm not your food,
Or anyone's food.
I'm not food at all.
And I'm not going to let this feeling eat me anymore.
I quit love.
I quit this self lie.
I hope I don't ever see you again.