as humans we have
two legs to carry us
if we break one we can still hop around

two eyes so we can see
even if we damage one

two lungs
and we can still breath if one deflates

two ears so we can hear
even if you become deaf in one

then why do we not have two hearts
for when someone breaks our heart

at first on a cite unknown
strangers talk
and i hear
we met I dont know how
she likes my words
and seems cool
her words are sweet and clear
she must have a great life
she gives me hope and reason
a feeling that
someone cares
one true friend even though we just met

so sweet and quite
a face so beautiful
all mine
someone to hold
and cherish
our hearts connecting
love at first sight

in the dark all alone
fingers weak trembling
to light a flame
so he can smoke
lips on paper
fire in his face
he inhales once more
drawing the fire closer
paper disappearing
muscles relaxing
the plant spreads
through his body
in his lungs
hardened from cigarettes
through his blood it creeps
quietly rapidly
with out a peep
the room hazy
distorted
he is relaxed
until the drug wears off
roll lick light
another cycle
repeated twice more
a sound breaks the silence
the door opens
in the gap a silohuette
short
daddy
it cries
the smoker turns away
as the door closes

the next day
with pockets empty he weeps
a child on his leg
no more
no more
a different life he needs
a person he wants
girlfriends, pets, kids
his wife
have all left

in his house alone
fingers weak trembling
to press the trigger
and an angel speaks
No
No
it cant be
what could god want with me
a loner an addict
a failure

his mother speaks
floating above him
no my son
you can be good
try
let it escape
and he tries and fails
repeating what he did before
gun in hand he cries
with his heart
his mind
his soul
his mothers face
the last thing he sees
despaired, she turns away
biting his tongue
fire in his face
he inhales the lead
and an angel cries

i see you over and over again
you ****** me with your touch
encomposing my heart
with your pathetic lies
tricking me into love

my mind swamped
my brain over filling with your words
your touch
electrifies my skin
and i forget
that i promised my heart
not to fall again
but a blindfold
eases the pain

in a class with annoying people
distractions every where
I cant focus on the task at hand
the world surges around me as I struggle
nothing to do

why cant i awake from this nightmare we call life

I have a girlfriend
she is not you
though i often wish
this was not true
to kiss and hug
and be snug
i want to be
my heart wants to be
with a girl who cares
and does not play
with feellings of others
when asked a question
you quickly reply
not let me think
for over a week
i waited
before giving up


destanie
cant you see
that those guys use you
for your body
and that i am different
more of a man
because i am brave
now i know that i often
seem like a creep
but i cant sit here
and le tyou mourn and reep
your heart broken
yet again
by another liar
one who wants nothing
but a one night stand
but your blinded
a veil drawn over your eyes
the world confusing you
so that you cant see
that i wanted you
to be with me
we are both now eighteen
well in a few days
but you dont care
true love is not enough
to overcome
the stuggles
of winning your heart
maybe if i wanted something fake
then together we could be
but ugly and poor
just never goes
with the beautiful and rich
cody will never be
with Destanie

there hate is what powers my determination to strive on

They allow me to see your beauty
But they also allow me to see sin
Hatred and despair
Through these two things
In my head
I can watch as my friends die
As the world brings itself  into
Destruction
I can see love between my lashes
But when I sleep
The horrors of the day
Replay in my
Eyes

the girl that inspires me
and loves me
for who i am

We use to bath in oceans of joy and drown in love while awake even in dreams..
The tides changed the winds not in our favour canon fire amongst loved ones we drift apart in broken parts of a once well held relationShip
Washed ashore in different lands we still hope to find a way to each others arms and be a family once again and be a family once again

in school
at home
in slumber
or wake
I fight
for your trust
for love
for friends
like a boxer
in the ring
blows hit me
left and right
never do I
give up hope
I think of you
and swing

if you don't say it we can be together always

have a good day
rise from bed early
as jesus did the grave
celebrate with love
work hard
at playing
happy easter to everyone!

picking a fruit from the table
a poor man feasts
the theivery
the adrenaline feed him
the fruit just a sweet taste
of the heaven he will now not get
the purity of the apple
and the sugary flow of its juices
the man bathes
his belly swelling
the sweet sinful act


While this poor man eats
alone
Another girl
she cries alone.
Lies alone in a bed of roses
Both were beautiful once,
The roses bloomed
And the sweet girl laughed.
But all days grow dark
And smiles do fade
Until this girl
and all of us
Do cry and
lie
alone.

i am back stronger than ever
i have learned and felt
inspiration flows through me freely
never again shall i suffer from defeat
but shall i achieve sucess in my goals
my thoughts will be different than what most are used to examing
my grammar will be off
my words thrown together
for i have learned
that you can not write poetry
but you must feel it
feel it in bursts of emotions and allow it to take you
to another world where there is no moreworries or troubles
only love
a world of words
that you create

as an addict i go all out. one thing alone does notplease me. so i became addicted to multiple things such as:

writing what i think so i dont go crazy

putting smiles on peoples faces even if i dont know them

having dreams of being rich and successful though it wont happen

believeing in fairy tales no matter how ridiculous

trying to be the best person i can be

caring for people that hate me

but these are only the things that make me high i also am addicted to downers as well:

looking love in the face for it to not recognize you

going out of your ay to impress others

thinking of love and making your heart cry

slamming your head against the wall to try and end the pain

so yes im an addict but who cares that doesnt change who i really am inside. so any thing that life throws at me a grab and become addicted to

in class assigned work to do
distracted
i think of you
wishing i could once more
hold your hand
and be in the high heaven
that i once knew
in class i think of you

they keep you warm
when its cold outside
in a way
protecting you from harm
is it possible
to buy a jacket
for my heart

slit your wrists
tie a rope to your neck
beat you like a piñata
until there are bruises
all over you
until you die
your soul exiting your corpse
I never have to worry
about your actions again

tick tock
goes the clock
seconds to minutes
hours to days
months to years
in time we sit
awaiting what is to come
wasting time with the lady
who runs us all
she abuses us
by threatining to **** us
slowly and menacingly
she creeps up on us
when we least expect it
and moves ever so slow
when we want her to pass through
untill the end we await
with lady time

it is probably the easiest thing i have ever done

sitting here crying
nothing to do
no one around
to hear my screams
as my heart longs
for some good music
my hands wish
for something to hold
my body trembles
as i await
the end of this roaring
noise in my head
telling me to quit
what i have never started

in a room full of people that claim to know me
i feel so left out
there is a spot in the room for me
but it is uncomfortable
with out any one here to talk to
that understands and will listen
I become lonely

confusing
*** is not love
nor is kissing
or holding hands
calling each other
nope not love
spiting an ex
just not cool
fighting with one another
threatening to **** the other
felling bad about it
apologizing
accepting defeat

decades you both awake
smiling
thanking god for finding
the one you wanted
having kids
being sick.
being poor
begging for food
to feed the children

being lost without her
confused without him
two caskets
side by side
for all eternity
this is love

I fall in the dirt
pushing the worms away  I rise
my opponent is scared
knowing my strength he runs
my love  chases the evil
devouring the strong and making them weak
I push them in the dirt

something done when you want them for all of eternity

as the light fills in
the dark empty spots
i finally realize
what love is
you
are love
i lift higher
my soul feeling like
the first time i met you
when my heart began to beat
when i felt like a kid
my life rushes before my eyes
stupid things i did

like letting you go                                                               ­                                Filipendulous
in precipices of nefarous claws.
There you were in my nebulous fogs.
With emerald eyes,
burnished in heaven
smiling,
 buttressing this heart.
Credulity
for love
is the conflagration
that consumes me now.
Could this be fools' love?
Is this true love?

opposites attract you know
positive and negative
from distances
near and far
i seem to find you
right next to me
you dont know it
but as our tension grows stronger
our magnetic hearts
grow stronger
and harder to seperate
all these girls that occupy me
are just fish in the sea
so as i spin
trying to find
what im attracted to
so look out
because im headed to you

i cry when she leaves
her soul exiting mine
when together we are one
one lump that is every thing
that matters
at night i dream
that she is there
beside me
whispering in my ear
her angelic voice vibrating in my ears
her warm touch
from soft hands
like cotton
her red hair the color of rust
shimmers in the light while we swing
in the park
her vibrant blue eyes
peering into me
reading my soul
when she is gone i miss her
but it is when she is here
i miss her the most

Green
With it i imagine things
What to buy
What to do
But when it all comes down
It has no value
Its just a way for satan
To take your soul

you destroyed my life
ruined my hopes and dreams
embarresed me in front of people I know
and strangers as well
now you flirt
once more
wanting me back
I am not as foolish
as I was
before I met you
you want me back?
well I dont want you
the answeer is
and always will be
NO

Love is but the **** of two minds, yet what is joy?
Joy is but the  slaughter of pain which is the reality
Life and death remain the duality but the contraction and the most real delusion all shall know
beyond logic is chaos but chaos is simply defused logic
Stare aimlessly into the nothing that is you and the nothing that is I
We are both the same person I am to you as you are to I
He is to she what she is to he
Our concepts are but smoke in the wind and signify nothing
Bloodshed is our purest form of expression a brutal honesty which is the only real part of our nature
but what is artifical?
The art of ignorance is the most difficult course to master taking generations to achieve
Intellect is the pillow that smothers you as a new born baby in your crib
All who want you hate you and all that Hate you love you with all the kindness in the world
Your weak and made to be destroyed but that is the greatest mercy all shall know
Decay further into nothing your true state and put behind the delusion of all that is knoweldge
You are nothing as am I
Nothing is everything even the flicker of a dying flame carried upon angels wings
A lucky bullet strikes the world at exactly midnight and all that is will be no more but a lingering shadow in a universe that doesn't exist
Every second that passes until the fatal blow is an eternity in the eyes of us mortals
What is mankind but a collection of bactieria inside of an amphibians pupil

one heart
all alone it beats
thump thump thump
against ribs it knocks
trying to break free
one heart
encompassed by flesh
bones and blood
repeating its cycle
continously
one heart
all alone in darkness
its defenders have groups
lungs coupled
ribs
theres alot
one heart
forever alone
it sits and beats
giving life
to those it envies
one heart
it awakens
after never sleeping
and sheds
a ****** tear

it seems that no matter how hard i try
a perfect day can never be
i get bored
and i get lonely
so i go and take pictures
to make a scene that seems serene
is not like it seems
the lightings never right
so changes i do make
and i come to find
that even the best
can not make the
fake world perfect with ease

time slowly ticks away
ever to fast
at the same time
i try to hurry
and let everyone know
before its to late
time is running short
no
go away
i have so many things to do
leave me alone
i dont want to go
i run
full speed ahead
it catches my heels
and then

your beauty is unremarkable
your words make my heart melt
to jump through the screen
and hold you in my arms
I dont know if your some creep
but I hope not
reading what you repost
my heart skips a beat
my eyes swell with tears
I am overcome with emotions
I have not felt in years
can this be real
the start of something
a friend
maybe more

day after day
i rumble on
bags under eyes
getting bigger and bigger
i cant think
i cant sleep
my body deprived
of its comforting sleep
during the day i dream
about what its like
to rest my head
on a soft cool pillow
and dreasm of
sweet dreams
during countless
sleepless nights

Walking around no matter where I go
Thoughts of you rummage through my brain
Stuck in there by some unknown glue
People cling to me
Asking for help
Knowing I will listen
As a stranger in a familiar world
I am still surprised
How quickly comments can stick
Like dirt on the body when wet
The mess made bigger when I try
To rub you off
And you become even more
Sticky

i walk on the unsteady floor
the sandy bottom slowly
moving beneath me
wildly i loose control
my feet slipping
i fall down
tearing up my body
the tears i push back
making the sea any wetter is not needed