Hi,
My name is Haiven
And I'm a *****
But not your typical old school witch
I'm one of those people that intend to twist
One of those girls with a poisonous kiss.
I'm the one you will definitely miss.

But you won't. I can't tell
You sometimes wish I'd burn in hell.
Maybe even locked up in a old ***** cell

But hey look I'm unique
I won your heart can't you see?
I hold it in the palm of my hand and squeeze it as tight as I can.
But yet you won't break.
Aren't you tired of this ****** me?

Aren't you tired of loving me

Why aren't you tired?

You always tell me reasons why I'm not good enough....Without evening knowing it.

Why can't you accept me like I do you.
Can't you tell we are one of the same two?
Oh right we don't get along.
But why do you think I'm writing this poem?

I try to communicate but you end up turning me away. I may be crazy but who needs medication anyways

Oh that's right,me.. you remind me everyday.
Telling me how I need help.
And You tell me things might not work out.

But I just smile and I'll say "okay I'll do it for you." But if I ask anything the day will rue.

Sometimes i wish things will be the same..
Hopefully we are just playing games
Maybe one day we'll  both be sane.

Hi
My name is haiven
And I'm a *****

Brown eyed angel
Sent to untangle my tangles
Shown me the lives I would have in different angles

Trying to Beat my addiction like Cain did able
2018 was like having a tv but no cable
Never thought my life would become this mangled..
So I left to become something more stable
Just to Find 2019 sitting at my table
Thanks for saving me my brown eyed angel ❤️

I don't understand how we got here
Where did we go wrong?
This time this isn't a love song

I always thought I was your first
But I was wrong
You'd rather have drugs than your loved one
You're always high and promise me this imaginary life.

But you'd just much rather hit that pipe.
You don't care
I can tell
You've even told me yourself

But this will be the last time I'm 2nd
To you, because in my imaginary world you don't exist.

I try to understand how you feel
but how can I understand someone
if I can't understand myself?

I try to fit the pieces together
but all they do is fall
am I that fallen piece?
that piece that seems to never find
a place to put itself into a puzzle

if im that missing piece
how do I function without it?
how do I deal with the madness going on around me?
how do I deal with you?

if I can't function on my own,
how could I understand you,

when I can't understand myself