Brown eyed angel
Sent to untangle my tangles
Shown me the lives I would have in different angles

Trying to Beat my addiction like Cain did able
2018 was like having a tv but no cable
Never thought my life would become this mangled..
So I left to become something more stable
Just to Find 2019 sitting at my table
Thanks for saving me my brown eyed angel ❤️

I try to understand how you feel
but how can I understand someone
if I can't understand myself?

I try to fit the pieces together
but all they do is fall
am I that fallen piece?
that piece that seems to never find
a place to put itself into a puzzle

if im that missing piece
how do I function without it?
how do I deal with the madness going on around me?
how do I deal with you?

if I can't function on my own,
how could I understand you,

when I can't understand myself

I don't understand how we got here
Where did we go wrong?
This time this isn't a love song

I always thought I was your first
But I was wrong
You'd rather have drugs than your loved one
You're always high and promise me this imaginary life.

But you'd just much rather hit that pipe.
You don't care
I can tell
You've even told me yourself

But this will be the last time I'm 2nd
To you, because in my imaginary world you don't exist.

Hi,
My name is Haiven
And I'm a *****
But not your typical old school witch
I'm one of those people that intend to twist
One of those girls with a poisonous kiss.
I'm the one you will definitely miss.

But you won't. I can't tell
You sometimes wish I'd burn in hell.
Maybe even locked up in a old ***** cell

But hey look I'm unique
I won your heart can't you see?
I hold it in the palm of my hand and squeeze it as tight as I can.
But yet you won't break.
Aren't you tired of this ****** me?

Aren't you tired of loving me

Why aren't you tired?

You always tell me reasons why I'm not good enough....Without evening knowing it.

Why can't you accept me like I do you.
Can't you tell we are one of the same two?
Oh right we don't get along.
But why do you think I'm writing this poem?

I try to communicate but you end up turning me away. I may be crazy but who needs medication anyways

Oh that's right,me.. you remind me everyday.
Telling me how I need help.
And You tell me things might not work out.

But I just smile and I'll say "okay I'll do it for you." But if I ask anything the day will rue.

Sometimes i wish things will be the same..
Hopefully we are just playing games
Maybe one day we'll  both be sane.

Hi
My name is haiven
And I'm a *****