all the time we were running

we didn’t know that we were slowly going

backwards

when i'm with you
everything else seems so
insignificant

How much time in the mirror
have I wasted on hating myself,

when I could have
been loving you?

I truly
CANNOT
WAIT
to not love you anymore

i've been so lost
to the point
of
digust
of myself
and you
making me
so low

you want to know
my
true
feelings
well ******* for lying to me
******* for wasting my time
well ******* for pretending to like me
and ******* for wasting my love
*******
*******

lion lies
scorpion sighs
alone
your lies
plans kicked
words unsolvable
SO ******* SELFISH
your lies
just smile and nod
flatten myself
oh it's okay
being hurt is okay
a ***** heart is okay
your lies
thrift store shoes
heels
stomped into my sternum
your lies
hidden and masked
by tender kisses
that we both know
are absolute *******.

You built me up just to break me down.

What has it been?

one

five

two

a half

five

seven

none

none

three

none