I want to look as empty as I feel

Shhhh.
Just come here,
Forehead to forehead,
Third eye to third eye.
Breathe in this final moment with me,
For in this life,
This is goodbye.

The longer I go on
The more am I amazed by the way pain can take us in it's hands like a fresh sheet of paper
And crush us into a tiny crinkled ball of mess.

But the cool thing about us humans is
How we flatten ourselves back out
Wrinkle by wrinkle,
And we can fold ourselves
Into beautiful works of origami
Over and over and over again.

Seeing more of you
Felt like reading my favorite book.

Clinging to every word
And smiling anxiously
As I turn over
Every new page.

The sunlight flickers in and out
Like a game of peek-a-boo
As the fan blows the curtains.

I lay flat on my back as still as I can
As I watch the world spin
With my eyes locked on the ceiling
Hoping that if I don't blink
Or move or swallow
That it'll somehow keep me grounded.