You are
wrapped around
my every thought

3AM, and you're still the only thing worth thinking of.

You couldn't love yourself
So you wouldn't let me love you

You said I was beautiful
like a rose
And yesterday
I saw you tear every pedal
from a flower

You really don't know
how I crave the curve of you
Your soft skin
and the way you shake
when you ******

Jesus Christ
Your body is like ******
And I am detoxing

It's hard to forget
The taste
of your mouth
Or the winces
when you wanted
One more kiss

It's almost like
you seek a part of her
in me

But I'm not
that vile girl
Who took 5 years
from you

I love you
and you won't notice
You're wrapped around her
She's the only one
you really want

Sorry
for not even coming close
to something so
Vile

We listened to him sing
for hours in your bed
And you mouthed the words
right back to me
When Poison Oak
played through your vinyl
I cried
When you told sang
"I never thought this
life was possible,"

I shrank up
delicately in your grasp
and disintegrated

"You're the yellow bird
That I've been
Waiting for."

Why do your words
feel like venom
When just last month
I tasted sugar
each time you spoke

Maybe you noticed
that those beautiful words
weren't made
for people like me

When I was happy
You were mine
and we were okay

When I was happy
You would hold me close
and wipe my tears

I could fall asleep
on my own

When I was happy
I didnt have to
take pills

To put myself
to sleep

I can still distinctly remember
the day I fell in love with you
at Crooked Creek

And you told me,
"I thought all of my butterflies died,"
and I believed it

Now I can't sit still
I am numb
I am no one

Saying "I love you,"
     has turned into a chore
And "I'm sorry,"
     Sometimes you meant it
This hurts too bad
and you want me to wait
      for you
472 days
      Is that enough to heal you?
Are you coming back?
      

      Do you even want to?

I'm not the person you've been looking for, not anymore.

Every part of me
still loves every inch of you

You're my best friend
and I'm not forgetting you

Like you're nothing
Even though you try to convince me

Because every part of me
Loves you

Even the parts of me
I have yet to discover

Where did it go?
The love you gave me
and how you held me
each time I cried

How we would lay together
and breathe each other in
The curve of your lips
is driving me mad.

I can't go a day without you.
Where does all that love go?

I got high
again tonight

You're still all
I think about

I remember
the first time you sang to me
And played with my hair
and played with my hair,
and played with my hair,
Played with my hair...

And the lyrics
"This old heart love you now,"
you mouthed back to me
And told me you loved me
and told me you loved me,
and told me you loved me,
Told me you loved me...

You don't sing to me anymore.
You don't play with my hair anymore.
You don't love me anymore.

Do you still think of me?