It's almost like
you seek a part of her
in me

But I'm not
that vile girl
Who took 5 years
from you

I love you
and you won't notice
You're wrapped around her
She's the only one
you really want

Sorry
for not even coming close
to something so
Vile

Mother moon
Father earth
Why have i been cursed since birth
Brother trees
Sister breeze
Why must you mock me when i can't stand on my own two
feet
Because I'm constantly knocking myself down
Internal fist fights in which i slam my own face into the ground
My heart doesn't pound
It has a slow steady beat
Much like an army who has just faced defeat
Its become less of a mind state and more of a disease

Why do your words
feel like venom
When just last month
I tasted sugar
each time you spoke

Maybe you noticed
that those beautiful words
weren't made
for people like me

You couldn't love yourself
So you wouldn't let me love you

Where did it go?
The love you gave me
and how you held me
each time I cried

How we would lay together
and breathe each other in
The curve of your lips
is driving me mad.

I can't go a day without you.
Where does all that love go?

You said I was beautiful
like a rose
And yesterday
I saw you tear every pedal
from a flower

I'm not the person you've been looking for, not anymore.