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147 · Nov 2024
Alone
Cassian Nov 2024
Darling I know the world can hurt sometimes

So cuddle up close and close your tired eyes

I can promise everything will be alright

I am  right here by your side

Together the world might be fine

Wish I could hear that instead of

Being alone all the time
147 · Nov 2024
Insane
Cassian Nov 2024
One word and a forgotten ache

Starts to burn

One sentence and I wish I

Could've learned

So many mistakes in life

Such a disgrace

I see a name and feel such

Overwhelming shame

Forcing my brain to give in til

I'm going insane
143 · Sep 2024
Monsters
Cassian Sep 2024
Parfois, j'ai tellement peur.
J'essaie de me cacher dans ma chambre.
Recroquevillée sur moi-même, les yeux fermés.
J'essaie de me cacher de mes peurs et de ma douleur.
Le monstre ne se cache pas dans mon placard.
Il n'est pas sous mon lit.
Il est à l'intérieur de mon cerveau, caché au plus profond.
Il est le fruit de mon imagination.
Il me laisse terrifié.
La cause de tous mes cauchemars.
Un monstre qui semble bien réel.
Je perds peu à peu le fil de ma réalité.
J'ai du mal à réfléchir.
Je vais me débarrasser de mes peurs.
Avec l'eau de l'évier.

(Sometimes I get so scared.
I try to hide in my room.
Curled up, eyes closed.
I try to hide from my fears and my pain.
The monster isn't hiding in my closet.
It's not under my bed.
It's inside my brain, hidden deep inside.
He's a figment of my imagination.
It leaves me terrified.
The cause of all my nightmares.
A monster that seems very real.
I'm gradually losing touch with reality.
It's hard to think.
I'm going to get rid of my fears.
With water from the sink.)
hello poetry meet my fav languages today lol
142 · Dec 2024
10:31 am
Cassian Dec 2024
My head is buried in the sand
As I drown on dry land
The windows are coated in frost
And I am truly lost
140 · Dec 2024
my name
Cassian Dec 2024
My friend wants me to change my name

They decided to use the same

A decision that has lasted for months

Brushed aside by one of short days

No longer may I be Onyx

Merely a shadow hidden by the sun's rays
138 · Feb 28
I don't care about God
Cassian Feb 28
I know there are many here who pray,  
So if my words aren't yours today,  
Please turn away, for this is mine—  
A truth I carry, yours not to define.  

When they speak of God, their voices pure,  
I can't take it in, can't feel secure.  
For God was not there when I called,  
In moments dark, when I had fallen.  

I search for answers in the silence, deep,  
Wondering why I was left to weep.  
So when they speak of faith and grace,  
I question if it's just a trace.  

I don’t deny their right to believe,  
But in my heart, there's a different weave.  
For God was absent when I needed light,  
Leaving me alone in the longest night.
136 · Nov 2024
Steps to avoid bullies
Cassian Nov 2024
Make your face blank and stare out into space

2. Wear very little makeup upon your boring face

3. Put on baggy clothes without looking like a disgrace

4. Stay quiet and only speak when others speak to you

5. Listen to other's insults until you believe them to be true

6. Pack your bag and head on home to do your chores

7. Grab the switch if you can even though it isn't yours

8. Play til someone else wants to and then disappear

9. Make yourself appear as insignificant as possible

10. Go to sleep and repeat it all tomorrow

10b. If you fail hide from everyone who hates you
131 · Sep 2024
Simply me
Cassian Sep 2024
People can not understand what I am
They seem to believe there is only woman and man
I wear clothing based upon my mood
Jeans and a muscle tank or skirts and formfitting shirts
Changing constantly never fitting in
Being myself in whatever brings me comfort in my skin
My pronouns they may vary
From neutral to more feminine or masculine
Purely nonbinary and simply me
just being myself
128 · Dec 2024
Smoke and Mirrors
Cassian Dec 2024
A sunny day

That's what they see.

A smiling face

As they stare back at me

Children are meant to be seen

But not heard

So then why do I yearn

To simply let loose

And scream

Smoke and mirrors are all

That they really see
126 · Nov 2024
Empty
Cassian Nov 2024
The sun's rays burn my skin

As God tries to erase my sin

But underneath nothing remains
125 · Sep 2024
Gender
Cassian Sep 2024
What is gender?
Is it what you are born as?
What you choose to be?
Something that changes day by day?
Something you never quite have?
I believe it's everything and nothing.
An eternal spectrum thats meaning is everchanging.
Something that is interpreted differently by each person.
Gender's meaning is as wide and vast as an ocean.
Something that belongs to you and me. Be yourself no matter who or what that is.
Whether thats boy, girl, genderfluid, genderqueer, agender, or nonbinary like me.
Cassian Apr 22
I didn't know..

Making you hate me could come so easy

I didn't know..

You'd walk away after promising to stay by my side

I didn't know..

You threw away the rest of our lives

What could I have done...?

To keep you as mine

What could I have done...?

To have you here by my side

You said forever...

But now I sit feeling empty

Did you stop writing poetry...

Or did you just block me?

I didn't even get to say goodbye...

I might still love you til

The day I die
#heartbreak #longing #loneliness #goodbye
124 · Oct 2024
My only friend
Cassian Oct 2024
You grab my hands in yours

Reminding me I'm special

You slip bracelets on my wrists

Reminding me you're here

You paint my nails black

Reminding me that you care

You spray me with your cologne

A good luck charm for my test

I pass with flying colors

And love you more than the rest

My friend, you are so special

I want to keep you close

If I lost you as well

It would hurt more than most

Please stay my friend forever
124 · Oct 2024
Pretty Kitty
Cassian Oct 2024
Pat the head a few times

Get a happy purr

Trail your hand down the back

Tussle the fur

Give lots of yummy treats

Fill up a hungry belly

Call a name that he will remember

Your sweet little one

He is such a pretty little kitty
i love cats
122 · Feb 28
Sold my soul
Cassian Feb 28
I sold my soul when I was twelve,  
Whispering wishes to the stars above,  
Asking for love and wealth untold,  
A dream too heavy for a heart so bold.  

At fourteen, I worked beneath the sun,  
Chasing the promises I thought I’d won,  
Each dollar earned, each task I’d do,  
Building a life I never knew.  

But now, at almost seventeen,  
I see the truth where once was green—  
It wasn’t riches that filled the void,  
But the love I found, the heart I enjoyed.  

So here I stand, both lost and found,  
A life that swirls in endless sound,  
For in your eyes, I finally see,  
The love I sought was meant to be.
121 · Nov 2024
Press play
Cassian Nov 2024
Life feels way too long

Like my playlist of 600 songs

My mind is way too loud

Like in game of hide n seek


I wish to be found

Loneliness is all I know

Calming down by breathing slow

Smiling when I wish to frown

Swimming in the ocean just to drown


Lost in a deep dark nightmare

Shying away from the latest jump scare

Closing my eyes and hiding away

Wondering if life will be any different today


My life is on pause waiting for someone

Anyone who would search for me

Just to come and press play
120 · Feb 20
sleep
Cassian Feb 20
I am tired of being tired

When my brain refuses to sleep

So many different voices

All fighting for a chance to speak

They have needs and desires

Words that must be heard

But the fact I haven't slept in months

Is absolutely absurd

Close your eyes and shut your mouth

Give me silence just this once

I want to sleep

I need to sleep

But if I close my eyes

...The devil may claim my soul to keep...
118 · Nov 2024
Schematics of love
Cassian Nov 2024
I am a fighter, not a lover.

For I refuse to fall

I will take the first punch.

And be the first person you call.

I used to be different; A hopeless romantic

But then I  quickly learned that.

Only certain people deserve to be loved.

And people like me are simply curses.

I remember the time my heart yearned

But in the end, I didn't fit in.

My brain was not made.

According to the ideal

Schematics.
117 · Nov 2024
:)
Cassian Nov 2024
:)
I offer you a smile

For you make my life

Feel worthwhile

Thank you for your care

Live on with flare
116 · Oct 2024
My music
Cassian Oct 2024
Plug in my headphones

Put my volume on max

Drown all the voices out

I did what I needed to

So now I might as well

Listen to my rock

Up until the bell

People call me old-fashioned

Just because my music isn't new

But 90's and 2000's punk rock

Treats me just fine

So their opinions can wait

Until next time
116 · Jan 6
Fall down
Cassian Jan 6
Down like the ashes

My heart sinks now

My happiness fading

As dread starts to grow

You may be moving

I wish you wouldn't go
116 · Nov 2024
Used to it
Cassian Nov 2024
I am tired of being asked if I'm doing ok

Without any friends to call my own

Of course, I would lie and say yes

In the car or in our home

Lonely is a constant state for me

A social butterfly whose wings

Were harshly clipped

Though I suppose after years

Of being alone I should

Eventually grow to be

Used to it
115 · Sep 2024
Endless Moments
Cassian Sep 2024
In the quiet of the night,
I feel the warmth of your light,
A love that fills my heart and soul,
With every breath, we become whole.

Time moves slow, like a gentle breeze,
Moments wrapped in memories,
We stand beneath the stars so bright,
Your laughter dances, a sweet delight.

In this beautiful place, I see your eyes,
Reflecting the truth, where the universe lies.
Together we face the shadows and fears,
Holding on tight through laughter and tears.

The world may turn, the seasons change,
But in this dance, nothing feels strange.
With every step, we embrace the unknown,
Two souls intertwined, never alone.

As we walk the path, both rough and fine,
I know in my heart, you’re truly mine.
We’ll face the storms, the cold and the heat,
In the chaos of life, you make me complete.

So here’s to the years, both good and bad,
For every tear and every laugh we’ve had.
In the depths of our journey, I promise to stay,
Together, forever, come what may.

And when the night falls, as it sometimes will,
With you by my side, my heart will be still.
For in this life, with its highs and lows,
I find my peace in the love that grows.
Cassian Nov 2024
I'm lonely

Because your gone

My June is far away

I gave you your name

But you don't stand by me

   -Nyx
114 · Apr 4
Hey, you...
Cassian Apr 4
Hey, you...

I think you're beautiful

Such a lovely girl

Your poems make

Me laugh and cry

Smile and think

Graceful as a

Skater on the rink

I love your mind

The words you use

The imagery is

Lovely

It's

True

- Hex
To all the girls I've followed on here
112 · Dec 2024
A rainy day in December
Cassian Dec 2024
Outside it is cold and wet

Muddy puddles cover the ground

As I wait on this icey blue bench

To be taken to the warmth of my home

Where I'll be safe and sound
111 · Nov 2024
Three
Cassian Nov 2024
They finally told me why

I had been told to leave

Lost all of my friends in one day

Or so it seems

I had been seeking closure

For they didn't give a reason

But since I have it now

My heart is truly aching

For the truth of the matter

Simply turned out  to be

I was sent away

Due to the preferences

Of three
111 · Feb 27
Chapter 5
Cassian Feb 27
I try to reach out, but my hands fall short,
There’s no one to answer, no one to support.
I whisper my secrets into the void,
But the silence answers, it’s all destroyed.
No one’s close enough to feel my pain,
No one to help me break these chains.
And still, I love you from afar,
A love you’ll never see, just a distant star.

- Andrew
111 · Dec 2024
Traumatic
Cassian Dec 2024
Traumatic

The teacher assumes the final will be traumatic.

Does she even know what that word means?

Perhaps she does not so it seems.

Traumatic

I believe I have experienced trauma before

From people, family, and simply from me

Causing me to hide behind a mask they cant see
109 · Feb 28
sweet relief
Cassian Feb 28
I stay here through the endless night,  
Drowning in the ink of others' dreams,  
Where words are woven like delicate threads,  
Each one a whisper, a silent scream.  

The pages turn beneath my fingers,  
A steady pulse, a quiet breath,  
In the stillness of my solitude,  
I watch their stories rise from death.  

I am but an observer in this space,  
A shadow in the light of their tales,  
Their joys, their wounds, their deep despair—  
I carry them, like whispered gales.  

If you are lost, adrift in sorrow,  
Or tangled in the threads of doubt,  
Let these words, like falling stars,  
Guide you through the darkened route.  

Let them be a balm for broken hearts,  
A fleeting flame in the coldest dark,  
A whisper soft enough to reach  
The quiet corners of your spark.  

I stand here in the quiet, still,  
A silent witness to your grief,  
But if my words can offer peace,  
Then let them be your sweet relief.  

- Cas
108 · Oct 2024
My Halloween Costume
Cassian Oct 2024
For those who wonder

What my costume may be

On this lovely Halloween day

It has changed many times

Until I finally came to decide

I am the most realistic thing

That someone of my standing

And my personality may be

So for today, I have dressed as

What I see myself to be

Today I am a dead poet

Do you not see how well it fits

For someone as strange as me

So happy Halloween, my dear

Have all happiness and no fear

Everything is just pretend

Built for your enjoyment
105 · Nov 2024
Behind my back
Cassian Nov 2024
Sitting with my eyes closed

Trying to block out everyone

All of these people around me

Pressing my hands down

Shielding my ears from it all

Trying but to no avail

The sound still breaks through

And I hear what they say

Behind my back
105 · Oct 2024
Strawberry Licorice
Cassian Oct 2024
Today I sat simply
Quiet as a mouse in the back of the room
No one seemed to care

Had anyone looked they might have noticed
The clear discomfort on my face

The way I attempted to swallow repeatedly
As I choked quietly

I eventually managed to swallow down the obstruction
Though even if I hadn't who would know

In the back of the room in my silence no one ever notices me
So I sit and sit til the end
105 · Dec 2024
About love
Cassian Dec 2024
Senseless

People tell me falling in love would be

Senseless

Saying it only leads to heartbreak and

Shame

Ruining friendships that'll never be the

Same

What a shame

But if love would be senseless

Why do people fall everyday?

Is there an unspoken rule saying that

It's ok

To finally choose to change
105 · Mar 4
changed view
Cassian Mar 4
Sometimes, at night, I sit and cry

Not giving a **** about life and wishing to die

But then I met you and got to make you mine

Started to convince myself everything'll be fine

But still, that darkness creeps in with hands so cold

And it asks me, "What's so great about growing old?"

In the morning I see you again and on your face a smile

Perhaps it would be okay to live for a while..

My world is now dyed a whole new hue

After you appeared and changed my view
104 · Apr 4
My identity
Cassian Apr 4
I want to cut my hair

Not just as a change of style

But to express how I feel inside

To make myself more comfortable

Living in my own skin

I want to cut it short

Shorter than ever before

More boyish than not

I want to cut my hair

A short, fluffy wolf cut

Even if it means more people

At school will mock me for

Being queer as they throw

Their slurs at me like stones

I wonder if those idiots know

That before it was used to describe

A gay person.. The word ****** meant

A bundle of sticks used for fuel

And in some countries

When talking about a

Cigarette they call

It a ***

I wonder

Who is

The

******

Now.

You thought I didn't hear you?
103 · Oct 2024
Fools
Cassian Oct 2024
I listen to thoughtless plans

Falling from the mouths of

People with no personality

They want to marry at twenty

Have kids at twenty-one

With no understanding

Of the work to be done

Infants are not rocks

They need to be fed regularly

Some every two hours

Others less frequently

They may be fitful dreamers

And interrupt your sleep

Diapers can be expensive

Many need to be changed

Their cries can have different meanings

They need your attention most of the time

Marriages do not always work

Many lead to divorce which is difficult for children

Plans change and life cannot ever be controlled

So dear little girls, please..

Do not be fools
Cassian Nov 2024
I'm tired of staying silent

For I have a voice inside

I refuse to be speechless

Until the day I die

   - Ren
Cassian Nov 2024
Onyx is not here right now

He chose to hide inside

The mind is full of life right now

No need for fear to rise

So hear our words that come from

Everyone remaining alive

   - Null
100 · Mar 27
Forget Me Not
Cassian Mar 27
Hands clasped on my chest

Eyes closed to all the rest

Boquet pressed upon my breast

My love's been put to the test

Forget me not, dear dreamer

I still wish to hold your hand

Always such a light sleeper...

But I'm still your biggest fan

I'll always wish to be your man

Do you remember the day...

Where we first met?

Of course you don't...

The second time you've

Forgotten me now

But I could wait

A hundred years

Just to see you smile

But darling...

Forget me not

Even if its

Too late

Now..
For E
99 · Oct 2024
Identity
Cassian Oct 2024
People ask me my type to decide who I am
They say sexuality determines identity

However, I believe that who I like isn't what I am
I am pan but that isn't my entire life

That would be like saying I'm a girl because of what I wear
Though I wear a lot of strange things

People tend to make assumptions based on who a person is
I believe you should get to know them

Start by saying hi and go from there
Maybe make a friend

It really is simply that simple
So do not assume
99 · Dec 2024
Worthless
Cassian Dec 2024
Sometimes I wonder what might happen if I accept what I should be

If I identified with the same gender as my pathetic little body

I wonder if I would be happier and maybe a bit less confused

If perhaps I'd never heard the terrible slurs others had used

I wonder if I could make myself like wearing skirts and dresses

If perhaps I could accept the name I had been given at birth

I wonder if perhaps If I were normal others might see my worth

Or perhaps that is simply the main issue behind it all

Maybe I really am worthless after all
99 · Dec 2024
Beauty without a Beast
Cassian Dec 2024
People tell me that I'm out of touch

That my head is stuck up in the clouds

Though my feet are on the ground

Truthfully to me the world is too much

I'm happier with the nerds in the crowd

Buried nose-deep in a book is how I'll be found

Never looking up even when you yell loud

Like a  Beauty without a Beast
97 · Sep 2024
Your cure for loneliness
Cassian Sep 2024
Hello.

My name is
Unimportant

My favorite color is
Black as night

My birthday is
meant to be forgotten

My love is
no one

My address is
nowhere

My best friends are
voices in my head

I eat lunch
all alone

I write words slightly hoping
that they are my last

I show little care for myself
Not worth it

I eat when I feel like it
only at home

One to two meals a day is
survivable

Weekends are my heaven
calm and quiet

I used to imagine my last day
but it is not worth it

I will disappear eventually
perhaps I was never here

Maybe I was your imagination all along
Your loneliness made me

Do not worry my friend I'm here
I will not leave you alone
there for those i care for. you know who you are
96 · Nov 2024
Riverdale nightmare
Cassian Nov 2024
Lights out

Sitting on my bed

Blanket up to my neck

Riverdale's playing on my TV

Gruesome nightmares haunt my daydreams

Tell myself that none of it's real

Though that's not how it feels

All is not as it seems
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