I miss you.
every day.
every second.
every hour.
they say "it'll get easier"
but they lie.
it's all lies.
I feel alone.
without you here.
you held me down.
you were my future.
and now.
my future is gone.
and it took you right along with it.
you're still in my future.
oh. but it includes death.
because.
it seems to be the greatest things don't happen while we are taking our breathes on this earth.
the greatest things happen when you are lying in your bed.
late at night.
knowing that you're going to be with the one you love.
whether it be in a dream or a heaven or a hell.
they will be there.
and so will you.

my body aches
my body shakes
the dreams start to come alive
you’re standing so close
but yet you’re still too far away
i close my eyes to open my mind
but you’ve already gone away
if you could just please come back
just grasp onto me and don’t let go
i promise that i won’t let you go
you have to know i love you
you need to know i love you
you’re all my thoughts are controlled with
you are my dreams
your face appears and i know its not real