I've stepped out of myself
Looking from above all my
Problems are small!
Big letters mean big hearts
Mean big LOVE!
Look at the pretty sweaty
Windowsill
Look at the things moving but still
There is no normal 'cause no one's
Sure if anyone else is here
At this cloud look at me
Move as if through jello
All is calm, all is soft
Look at all the pretty little things
All of them seem so small
Everything's in order and I can see
The order
Which song leads to a sour note?
I can read the music
I can breathe a sigh of absolute
Relief
Because now I know what
To do
Just to stay in the path
Or forge my own
The first breath tasted
The sweetest
Everything is exactly as
It should be

This
All of this
This browsing in Walgreens when I have no ******* money to spend on makeup or pencils or tampons or iPod chargers or candles or diapers or juice or valentines or matches or tissues or anything
I have no ******* money to spend on anything
I have no ******* money to spend on food or water or air or freedom
And they touch me when I scream DON'T ******* TOUCH ME
And they feed me when I scream DON'T ******* FEED ME
DON'T ******* TOUCH ME
DON'T ******* FEED ME
I'M GOING OUTSIDE INTO THE PRISON YARD THAT STRETCHES ON FOR MILES AND MILES AND MILES
I'M GOING OUTSIDE INTO THE PRISON YARD THAT GOES ON FOR MILES AND MILES AND MILES AND IT NEVER ******* ENDS
I have no choice but to let them touch me
I have no choice but to let them feed me
Because they can
Because they can
And I am nothing
And I AM NOTHING
GET ME OUT OF HERE
OPEN THIS ******* DOOR
LET ME OUT
DO YOU ******* HEAR ME
LET
ME
OUT

She sees a friend
I pray for more
And in her hands
Her cold cross cuts
Her gift to me
Her faith that guides
And in her hands
Her cold cross cuts
Our hands connect
Hers cool, mine fire
And in our hands
Her cold cross cuts
Her eyes on mine
I stammer thanks
And in our hands
Her cold cross cuts
She walks away
Into the night
And in my hands
Her cold cross cuts

I can see into the 5 minute future
It's not even six o'clock
Music defines time
I'm furious for not knowing this before
Your name sobers
Me in a different
Way than getting
Sober
Does
Different from this control freak
I am compelled to write this for you
I love you I LOVE YOU
more than Germany
Loves you more than anyone
Loves you falling
Razor sides moves to the
Rings there's still liquid
In it I don't know
All I know is
I shouldn't be this sorry

It's not worth it
This front flip
You're safe
You're talking
I am miles awake
Curbing habits
You're safe
You are
I know this as sober
I know this guitar hero
Earth ****** flat
A song controls my
Life I am
Pulling this
Family apart

I feel like a murderer
Put me down
Bullet
Head
I'm dead
Don't tell anyone or
I'll **** you
Stop shaking or she'll
Find you
Don't look or she'll
**** you
Death
Now