I want to lie in fields of daisies with you staring at shooting stars that pass us by. I want to talk about Jupiter's moons and Saturn's rings like we know what we are talking about. I want to sit on top of sky scrapers counting all the red cars that pass us by. I want to travel to distant lands with foreign languages and be people we aren't just for a little while. I want to make the best romance novels jealous of our love and passion. I want to make the moon jealous of the sun and the rain jealous of the clouds. I want them to build statues of us and tell stories to children to let them know a love like this existed.  I want to kiss your eyes shut and hold your hand while I listen to you sleep next to me. But more than anything else I want to love you & you love me to infinity & beyond.

I liked you better when you were self harming and sad because at least then you paid attention.
You used to stand up for me and help me get through the day-- no you ignore me like I never knew you.
You used to tell me I was beautiful and gorgeous-- now you just say I'm pretty and okay.
You were the one who used to build me up when I was down-- now you tear me down every chance you get.
There was a time when my feelings meant everything to you but that was back when I said you were too nice
I told you I didn't like it when guys were nice to me and you told me you would never  change--I guess we both lied.
I told you that you were too clingy for me now all I want is for you to hold me and tell me you love me still.
You made it clear, I am nothing important anymore, and the worst part is I blame this entirely on myself.

If you wanted revenge you got it.
You win.

There was something challenging in the way the barbed wire fence yelled at me to stay back… It was so taunting.
I find it difficult to keep my nose out of risky business… I like the rush and the fight of making it out alive.
You told me to wander around, you said ‘Get Lost’… most people take that as a bad thing but I left with a smile and a wave.
When I got to that old abandoned area I saw the sharp edges telling to back off and I screamed with laughter ‘CHALLENGE ACCEPTED’.

Oh to be Young.
Oh to be Wild.
Oh to be Free.

blonde hair blue eyes--
you're words scream rude and arrogant--
no one likes you can't you see?

"It would be so easy to fall for you"**
The words he said flowed like rivers... smooth and quiet.
He was charming and eccentric about his feelings... they took you off guard most of the time.
He was the character you fell in love with in the romantic books you read...but he was the one in the background who never got the girl.
He knew there wouldn't be anything more than friends between us and yet he pushed and pushed.
I was never good with compliments.
I was never good with nice guys,.
I was never good with myself.
"I'm giving you this flower because although it hasn't quite bloomed it will and it will be beautiful inside and out... it symbolizes how I feel about you... you may not think you're bloomed yet but you will."
He had a way with words.. they reeled you in and made you dizzy and confused.
He asked me to change my mind to give him a chance.
And I just seem to be distancing myself even more.
I was never good with compliments.
I was never good with nice guys.
I am not good with myself.

Are you frightened by the reflection staring back at you?
The person you used to be is dead in those eyes that once held so much light.
You hear what they say about how you used to laugh and you wish just once more it was the same.
But the laughs seem mono-toned and alone.
The smiles are forced so painfully on your chubby cheeks.
The weight you lost came crawling back at full force and you ate the stress away because it kept you occupied.
Those people you called friends only come out when there is no one else around..
And you refuse to ask for help because you don't even know where to start.
Are you scared to admit that  you knew this would happen all along.
There was something in the way the anger and sadness spread so quickly to your heart.
And the way your body seemed to be slowly but surely shutting down.
Can you remember when he used to love you and how spunky you used to be?
He told you that you changed and you kinda smirked.
He reminded you of everything you weren't anymore.
Are you scared of the reflection staring back at you?