I am no longer
the hollow of my collarbone
or the skin on my thighs
I am no longer
the frailty of my bones
or the space between my legs
I am the words
that flow from my lips,
and the way they curl and disappear
into the lungs of strangers
like smoke from a cigarette
I am the warmth I feel
when I hold you in my arms
I am the way I sing when
I’m afraid, attempting to find
light in a world full of dark
I am not my body, for it is
just a shell that holds my true
self; I am me,
and I am beautiful.

My head lays on the same pillow
I rest my body under the same sheet
I look up onto my ceiling
And i can feel the coldness of my room with my feet
My head is heavy with thoughts
My heart filled with emotion
My body empty from not being touched
I think of you
Your smile with mine
The way you hold my eyes
The beauty of madness we create with our lives
I miss your hands all over me in every possible way
I crave your lips pressed on every inch of me
I close my eyes as I picture you
I picture us
Skin on skin
Opened completely
Naked and vulnerable
I cry and open my eyes
I am yours.
My thoughts, my dreams, my desires, my emotions,
You know me like no one has ever
Everything I hid and kept inside
You know because I knew you were the one.
Love has took me and you have taken my all
And I am sad that we are far apart
But I know we are fighting the same battle
Doubt, fear, and loneliness shall not prevail
For these few miles that's may seem like forever
Will be worth it.
The waiting will end.
And it will be worth it.

I should have warned you that day we met
But I never knew how great this love would get
And now I've hurt you
Something I'll never forget

So please let me stay
In your arms one finally day
I don't want you to leave
But I fear you'll go your separate way

These tears run down my face
With a quicker and quicker pace
I know they're my fault
I'm such a disgrace

It was wrong, I know that's true
But please remember I still love you
I know you're hurting
But I am too

I made a mistake
And I see your heart, I did break
Because I was weak
You stepped on the brake

Now you've left me wondering
If this love is ending
I can't change the past
Please let me try and do some mending

You just left.
After 17 years.
Laying on your brand new bed
That we had some stranger make for you.
As if that somehow made up for it.
You wanted to surf,
God, I wish you could’ve…
Two parts sarcoma,
But you were still our Ali.
Laying in your Led Zeppelin T-shirt,
That you wore more than you should’ve.
And even then you made me laugh
I don’t know how the hell you did that.
Somehow you made it okay
Until the morphine said goodbye.

1.* Led Zeppelin
two.Football
3.***
four. Kings of Leon
5.intimacy
six. Trust
7. skateboards
eight. Hazel Eyes
9. Subway
9.the sandwich shop
Ten.  Love

I wonder if he knows
I wonder if he cares,

How can love be so strong
it almost makes me scared.

I've known him for long
but I cannot seem to forget,

all our memories
I truly should not fret.

I cannot help it
I keep flashbacking,

all those times
my initiations are lacking.

Some music seems to help
as though it typically does,

but even Led Zeppelin
cannot explain my cause.

We live near by
but go to different universities,

some day I hope
we live in the same city.

We can eat lunch
and go out together,

I know he likes me
if we could only get closer.

Steve is such an old name,
not one from this time,

it reminds me of an adult
but the sound of your name is sublime.

I enjoy your parents
although your mom is a drunk,

but you are such a good man
it has to be symbolic.

I hope you like me too
it would mean so much,

if we were to be together
it would be so clutch.