I'm tired of waiting around
Each day passes and I'm growing closer to my grave
And the sad thing is

I haven't even began to live yet

I wonder if you’d want to know
I named all of my demons after you and
they haunt me in my sleep

when I was 14 I fell asleep in April and dreamed of bones and
I’m not sure I’ve really ever woken up since

when I lost 5 pounds I never saw a difference

when I lost 10 my mother said I was looking good

when I lost 20 she told me to stop and handed me food
and I became anemic

when I lost 25 I stopped drinking anything because
I felt water had calories

when I lost 30 my mother held me on her lap
and held my bones together for me

when I lost 35 I started fainting every morning and
the doctors could no longer easily find my blood pressure

when I lost 40 people started to stare and food made me cry

when I lost 45 it hurt to walk and to lay down
it hurt to eat
it hurt to breathe and
I started throwing up my empty stomach

the mind plays tricks on those that decide
nourishment is not needed

Eat.

He doesn't know all the words
To every led zeppelin song
So he doesn't sing along with me
While I'm belting out the lyrics
He doesn't idolize jim morrison
He doesn't love stevie nicks
He doesn't listen to johnny cash
He doesn't feed my mind
He can't tell me something
That I don't already know
He doesn't bite his nails
Or lick his lips
He doesn't have long hair
That I can twirl around my finger
He doesn't know
how much I adore my mom
He doesn't know
How much my father has hurt me
He doesn't know
I live solemnly for my siblings
He doesn't know
That I cry at night
Because I hate my appearance
He doesn't know
The little things that make me laugh
He doesn't know
That the shawshank redemption
Is my favorite movie
He doesn't know
That I hate wearing shoes
He doesn't know
Where I've been
Or where I want to go
He doesn't know
i'm a big fish in a small pond
and i'll never make it in the ocean
He doesn't know
all I ever wanted
was to be loved and taken care of

He doesn't know

He's never going to know

But you know

You know

All the words

to every led zeppelin song

to whoever is now holding his hand, with your fingers intertwined with his, maybe fitting together perfectly
like puzzle pieces, maybe you were the missing piece, so stay where you belong.
to whoever is now lost in his eyes, so far gone, so far away, in a place bigger than the sky, don't blink because you don't want to miss the twinkling stars
to whoever is now kissing his lips, creating sparks and feeling high, you are tasting something far sweeter than sugar, don't ever pull away don't ever remove your lips from his, you'll be left with a bitterness and crave the flavor of his tongue
to whoever is now making him laugh, you are hearing the music of an angel, stay speechless don't say a word, just soak in the sound of happiness and continue to make him smile
to whoever is now his world,
please,
just never stop spinning, keep him dizzy, and never let him go.