I got out of bed with a bit of uneasiness,
I decided that it's been too long since I've written.. I think the last time I did was last week
...or the week before ?
I looked at the date, and make me twitch,
Made a tear, or two fall
Made my heart break in a few more pieces.
DID YOU KNOW THAT IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE WE MET ? Figuratively that is ..
DID YOU KNOW, that you've broken me into minute pieces ??
Pieces unable to be detected by microscopes ??
Pieces that can't be felt or touched with your naked hand?
DID YOU KNOW ?
No you don't.
You've been too busy missing her every second, like you did with me.
Been too busy upset with her, like you were with me.
Been too busy telling her how much you like her like you did with me.
HECK, YOU'VE BEEN TOO BUSY WORSHIPPING HER ANGELIC FACE, LIKE YOU DID WITH ME !
YOU'VE BEEN TOO BUSY BEGGING HER, TO SEE HER FULL BODY, LIKE YOU DID WITH ME !
YOU'VE BEEN TOO BUSY telling her of your childhood, and how you missed your dad
..too busy telling her how suicidal you were, and how placed a gun to your head.
And you're probably too busy, telling her of me.
YOU'VE BEEN TOO BUSY, SITTING, FORMULATING THE LIES YOU'LL TELL ME NEXT, AS TO WHY YOU'VE HAD NO TIME FOR ME : "I was helping my mom with the Christmas tree" "Someone was using my phone" "Sorry I was sleeping" - (WAIT DIDN'T YOU SPEND NIGHTS UP WITH ME TELLING ME YOU HAVE INSOMNIA ? ) "Sorry I was out" "Sorry I was on a call" . AND I DON'T CARE IF THEY'RE TRUE, I DON'T CARE IF I'M EMOTIONAL BUT THAT'S TOO MUCH 'I'M SORRYS' . TOO MUCH EXCUSES, TOO MUCH LIES.
And I'm sorry that I made a mistake and liked you so much. I'm sorry for letting you taking up my phone space,
With pictures of you that an artist would find hard to formulate.
Sorry you were my screensaver.
Sorry I told my sister about you ..yeah I told her how adorable you were
And I told her you were my ''soon to be boyfriend" ...
And I'm sorry that I pushed another into the fire because of you
Yeah I'm sorry I pushed him aside.
But karma's a ***** and I knew it would get me, I told you it would AND I TOLD YOU IN THE END I'D BE HURT, and you told me no, and I would be.
Darling being replaced doesn't bother me, it doesn't make my bones crack,
It doesn't make my heart cry ..
It's the mixed signals.
Today you're all flirty with me, tomorrow you're calling me names.
WHY DON'T YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND ?!
I know you no longer need be, and to be honest you never did,
So be honest with me and let me leave you alone ??

I'm also sorry for listening to your lies.
I should've known though, by the signs you gave,
"Let's be friends with benefits?"
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS WHEN I WAS HOPING WE'D GO SOMEWHERE ?? F.W.B, WHEN I WAS HOPING WE'D BE TOGETHER ONE DAY ? F.W.B, WHEN YOU SAID YOU LIKED ME MORE THAN YOU SHOULD'VE ??
Special to be used then thrown aside ?
What did you want ? A piece of me ?
I should've have know when you said I was special, after I said you were my "soon to be boyfriend "
And I'm sorry you'll never get to see this.
But I hope you suffer from your mistakes
And rot in the arms of any other you come across,
Because no one will EVER adore you like I DID.

I don't know why i get this tender feeling in me, it just shines threw when you smile, i want you to hold my hand and talk to me,
but you wont,
i wish i could lie on your shoulder in class and you kiss my cheek
put your arm around me and say i love you
but you wont
you cant
it's impossible for this to be accomplished all because of the system
the setup in our lives,
our fate

Today is a date,
So what about lame old April 4th?
What make sit special?
Or what about April 3rd?
What makes it special?
Well those dates only happen once a year.
No more April 4ths,
No more April 3rds.
Enjoy the days.
For they may pass fast or slow,
But that day can never me exactly remade.

Young
Easy
Older
Tough
Old
Easy
You learn from your mistakes.
Life knowledge increases as you grow.
But then what?
You know all these facts at the age of death.
In this society no youngin' wants to listen to me.
They rather watch cartoons,
That make no sense to thee.
Okay,
So the cat got wacked in the head,
But wears the message?
It makes me want to cry in bed.
Why create such a thing with no meaning?
Life has meaning,
But slowly drifting away.
You ask yourself,
Why should I live another day?

Be strong my dear,
Even though I realize,
Trouble is near.
Be strong my dear,
For death is evil.
Why would you want to go to hell?
Or heaven maybe so?
Why take the chance?
For you do not know.
Wait the time,
The time decided by destiny.
You may make your fate,
You may decide the path of life you shall take,
But that doesn't always mean,
You made the right decision.
Be strong my dear,
And think
Do not act to fast.
Sit down and think to you.
Was it,
Is it,
Really that bad?

Some people ask,
Why is my voice important?
I mean no one every listens to me
Or is it really,
No one ever heard thee?
Did you ever speak up?
Did you ever express your thoughts to me?
Did you ever express your thoughts to we?
Did you state your ideas out loud in the open?
Or did you confine these things deep, inside yourself

The world may never know,
Unless you take my advice.
Be grateful for your voice,
For such was a gift
Whether soft, or loud
It's your voice,
Go ahead,
and make YOUR statement.
Your time has come to reign.

Potatoes
Tomatoes
Making some brew
Believin'
Dreamin'
Inspiration Stew
Now he who wishes to take a sip
Will be blessed with a gift
Twas a gift they already had
Just lost deep in their soul
For they now have found their goal
Their goal is as simple to be
To believe
To dream
And to inspire thee