I had you over for my birthday
Two years ago
                                                             ­                           -Don't you remember?
We watched a movie.
You used that blanket from my bed.
The old plaid one.
It was tan and blue.
I forgot the title of that movie.
                                                                ­         -That actress you like was in it.
Pieces of the memory must've bled away in the shower,
Just drips down the drain.
                                                                ­                  -it only took one this time
I love that blanket.
I use it every night.
Pulled up to the tips of my ears.
But strewn to the left.
                                                           ­  -I have to sleep with one foot out now
I think it smells like you.
                                                                ­     -I've washed it a hundred times.
Or maybe it just a memory.
I have this old fleece blanket.
It's plaid
                                                           ­                     -a plaid of tans and blues...
I think tan is a warm color.
                                                          ­        -but not as warm as your fingertips
Nothing's ever the same as you.
Even though I love that blanket
It will never be you.
It will never keep me warm like your arms did.
It will never love my laugh like you did.
Not now. Not soon. *Not ever.

He noticed the dark part under my eyes,
long before I fall for his eyes.
I answered that it was because of the lack of sleep
because I had those nightmares that makes me afraid to sleep.
But he didn't know it yet.

As time went by,
as I loved him and life walked by,
the dark part grow bigger and bigger.
And he didn't ask anymore why my eyes has grown darker.
I was wondering if he knew,
that he was the cause of tears on my pillow.

Remember when you used to call me 'my lucky charm'?
And I don't know why it's always working -- me as your lucky charm.
And I knew that today you won the tournament.

Am I still your lucky charm, love?
I guess not. She replaced me, right?

and I hope you sunshine, warm nice tingling against your skin kind of prayers.